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“He knows. And whether it’s snobbish or not, that’s not for us to decide.”
“Again?”
“I have changed my ways of faith a lot, but the faith itself hasn’t changed at all in me. Or is this the outcome you wanted? In this case, I have to disappoint you, my friend. I have changed, but not what’s inside me.”
“I’ll keep that in mind.”
“Why aren’t you saying something like ‘well, well,’ or ‘oh, that’s how?’ anymore?”
“Because creatures who respect themselves and their interlocutor will never use these parasitic words. And they never say "let’s say" or things like that.
“So, you didn’t respect me before?”
“Before, there was nothing to respect for.”
“And now there’s something?”
“Now there is.”
“And before that, there was nothing because I believed? But I would venture to repeat that I still believe…”
“Not because you believed, but because you believed like everyone else: blindly, uncertainly, unsteadily, without even knowing what you believe in, but simply out of fear... I’ve been observing a lack of faith among people lately. Perhaps, if the religion’s oppression was less, the doors of heaven and faith would be more desirable for the perish? For now, everything is set this way: no matter what a person does, he will sin one way or another. Helped old lady cross the road – flattened an ant. Helped someone and asked others to help him – boasted. Saved a person – interfered with God’s plans, who was going to take that person. Didn’t help – remained indifferent. Told someone the truth – broke his heart, didn’t tell – lied. If you follow the rules set by people, you go against God, if you don’t follow them – that’s pride... If you look deeper into the essence of things, you will find out that a person is simply doomed to always be a si
er, and this was created not by faith, but by religion.”
“And now? Have I changed now?” this question bothered her much more than disputes.