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Travis wore a thick cotton workshirt and a jacket over that, and a jet of autumn air set him shivering. A
He followed her, a sick excitement rising in him. There was, at this hour, simply no reasonable destination for a woman like A
Far out DeVille Street the blacktop faded to dirt. There were no houses here, no trees but scrub oak, nothing beyond but farmland and prairie grass.
Travis slowed when A
But her attention was focused elsewhere.
Her arms were stiff at her sides, her head erect.
Listening, Travis thought.
He was suddenly aware of the small hairs prickling at the back of his neck. His breath caught in his throat.
Far off in the depths of the night a small-hours freight express sounded its whistle. Westbound, he thought, tracking over the curvature of the earth—it sounded that distant.
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Travis felt the day’s warmth seeping into him from the dry earth under his belly. Crickets chirruped in the gully all around him. He gazed at A
She reminded him of, of—
—he closed his eyes, fumbling for the memory—
—of his mother.
Deep currents stirred in the prairie grass.
The night obscures her features, he thought. It was that profile that did it: the head held high, a gesture both defiant and somehow hopeless. It made Travis think of his mother in a way he had not thought of her for years. He remembered—so vividly now he could taste it—a night like this, that first chill of autumn cutting through the air, when he was no more than six years old.
He had been in bed, awake when he should not have been. The farmhouse was quiet. The effect however was not of peace but of foreboding, of imminent danger: because Daddy was out late, which meant Daddy was drinking, which meant he could come home any minute full of a sour and implacable hostility.
Travis could not sleep with this turmoil of emotions in him: the relief of his father’s absence, the threat of his return. He lay in bed listening to the trees talk outside his window and attempted to recreate in his mind the plot of Treasure Island, which Mama had been reading to him that night. He had almost achieved sleep when he heard the front door slam.
That other, quiet, sound might have been Mama’s indrawn breath in the bedroom across the hall.
He covered his ears when the shouting began. At the first thump and stifled cry, he buried his head under the pillow.
Mama, he thought, oh, Mama…
And when it was over she came to him.
She did it always. It was her way of saying It’s okay, Mama’s okay, not needing the words or the ugly admissions they might contain.
She sat in the wooden chair by the window with the paper blinds pulled up and out of her way. “How that wind does torment that old tree,” she said, not even checking to see if he was asleep, knowing, maybe, that he was not. Her voice was choked with recent weeping, but beneath it there was still that quality Travis associated indelibly with Mama, silk and sighing, a good sound.
Then, just when her voice had begun to comfort him back to sleep: “Oh, Trav, look!”
He sat up, squint-eyed, and went to the window.
She held him on the lap of her old print dress, her bony knees under him. The sky beyond the window was vast, clear, wild with stars. The limbs of the willow moved as if in semaphore.
“See, Travis?” Mama said. “Shooting stars!”
He thought at first they were fireflies. But they moved too quickly and too purposefully and they did not flicker. Shooting stars, he thought, sleepy now. Falling stars. Pieces out of the autumn night.
He had fallen asleep thinking of Mama: of the starlight playing on the bruise that lay like a veined map on her cheek; thinking of how when he grew up he would protect her, would not let any harm come to her; and thinking of those two shooting stars, how they had moved across the dark sky, east and west, as if twi
He felt as if her eyes were on him now.
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He shook his head to clear it and crawled forward a yard or so.
She was gazing directly toward the patch of prairie grass where he lay. Her eyes were u
Weariness came over him again, suddenly. He felt a stirring of alarm, but it was muted.
There’s something about her, Travis thought. Something had changed in her. He could see it in the arch of her back, in the way her fists were clenched.
She had shaken off some of that passive helplessness. In her eyes, Travis thought, there was something he had not seen there before: an expectation, possibly a hope.
But the weight of his body was immense. The night air seemed to press him down.
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When he woke the sun was standing over the eastern horizon. There were dust motes in the raking light and his bones ached with chill. And he was alone.
Chapter Six
He brushed off his shirt and pants and walked back toward town until he could hail a ride. He knew he was late for work. By the position of the sun he was at least an hour overdue. But that didn’t matter. Something important had happened the night before. It was mysterious, not altogether clear even in his own mind. He was sure, however, of one thing: that A
She must not stay at the Buracks’, he thought. That much was clear. For whatever reason, she had been tolerating Creath’s abuses of her. But that would stop. He could not say he knew these things, but he knew that something had changed in her last night. Maybe Creath would see it, too.
He worked steadily and alone. When the noon whistle blew he realized he didn’t have a lunch with him, that he had missed breakfast, too, and that the heat of the day was pouring down like molten glass. He wandered through the gravel lot, back of the loading dock, to the grassy bank of the Fresnel and sat with his arms wrapped around his knees, watching the brown water flow and curl. So, he thought, what about Nancy? Did he love her or didn’t he? And what did that imply in this skewed and mysterious new world he had entered?