The Affair

When she reached the garage—that place where she’d first spent time with Va

She stumbled slightly, gasping, and braced herself against the Bentley, her gaze landing on the backseat window. Pain swept through her. The thought of Va

Don’t do it. You can’t abandon him!

But the truth was, Va

No. That wasn’t realistic.

Was it?

It didn’t matter, in the end. The thought of him learning that Adrian had died while under the watch of his true mother, that Va

I wondered if I went far enough, if I’d be taken, too.

She clamped her eyes shut and gasped at the impact of recalling Va

No. She couldn’t allow it.

After taking a moment to compose herself, Emma straightened and slowly walked out of the garage.

She suddenly had an inkling of how Va

Chapter 40

His hand was throbbing with pain, but still, he beat on the door with it. Suddenly, the wood was no longer there and he was beating on air. Amanda Shore was standing inside the threshold, looking panicked and furious.

“I’m about to call the police, Va

“Is she in there?” Va

“You can’t just come bursting in here, Va

“Why won’t she see me?” he asked. Despite his earlier recognition that he couldn’t force his way past Amanda, he kept his hand on the open door. He wasn’t walking away, dammit. How was it possible that he’d last seen and touched a soft, warm woman who was as eager for his presence as he was for hers, and suddenly be faced with an Emma who was telling him she’d decided not to see him again? It didn’t compute in his short-circuiting brain.

When he’d arrived home at the Breakers an hour later than his scheduled flight, he’d found it empty. He’d immediately tried to call Emma, assuming she hadn’t received the messages he’d left on her voice mail or the one he’d left with Vera that he’d be late. He’d reached her by phone, but what she’d said in her uncharacteristically cold, flat voice was still being rejected by his spirit wholeheartedly.

After France, she’d decided that it was too painful to continue seeing him.

Had she been pla

What was his truth when it came to Emma? He only knew he didn’t want to let her go. Life without Emma? Could he go back, once he’d known her indescribable warmth, her sweetness and touch?

He suspected he must, at some point. He feared it. Needing her was such a horrible, sweet risk. The only thing he knew for certain was that there, in that moment, the thought of losing her was like having his lungs ripped out of his chest.

“What’s happened to her? It doesn’t make any sense,” he told Amanda angrily.

“Really?” Amanda asked sharply.

He stilled and peered at Emma’s sister. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Amanda crossed her arms at her waist and drew herself up, giving him a very hard look. He’d never been a huge fan of Amanda, given what she and that jerk Colin Atwater had done to Emma, but at that moment, he saw a resemblance between Amanda and her sister.

“Emma told me what you proposed: an affair of a purely sexual nature. She told me all about it.” He felt himself withering a little under Amanda’s condemning, disgusted gaze, but he didn’t flinch. “You proposed something like that? To a woman like Emma?”

“That’s only how it started out,” he bit out.

“You’re right. That’s how it started out, but it’s not how it ended. Not for Emma. She’s not built like that. Surely, despite your . . . cold-blooded plans for her, you must have realized she’s not cut out for this kind of thing.”

“That’s rich,” he said with quiet, building, helpless fury. “You preaching to me about not being sensitive enough to Emma.”

Amanda paled. Regret and helplessness swept through him in equal measure. “Dammit, Amanda, just let me see her. I know I can clear this up.”

“How? By professing your undying love for her? By promising her you’ll always be there for her?” He met her stare, a snarl shaping his lips. In his unguarded state, her pointed words had felt like piercing missiles. Amanda’s eyes closed for a moment. “I’m sorry, Va

Her trembling voice still ringing in his ears, Va

Amanda was suddenly in front of him, looking royally pissed. “She’s not even here!”

He came to another halt, helplessness and fury now boiling inside him. “I pleaded your case to her before, Va

The silence was deafening.

“Because that’s what Emma realized tonight,” Amanda continued shakily after a few seconds. “That she can’t be with a man who has so little to offer. Do the right thing, Va

For once.

Amanda hadn’t said the words, but they pulsed in his blood and his brain as if she had.

Do the right thing for once.

He inhaled, the air scalding his lungs, and walked out of the apartment.

Emma listened through the pounding of her heart. She heard the door slam. A few seconds later, Amanda walked down the hallway to where she stood, leaning against the wall. She’d needed the support, listening to Va