Wanted

“Gu

“Another first baby?”

I started to laugh. “YES! Another first!”

Gu

“My God Ellie the things you do to me baby. I want to make you feel that good every day.”

“I would be okay with that!”

Gu

“Ellie thank you for allowing me to do that for you. You’ve had a very busy day of firsts haven’t you?”

I let out a giggle as he slowly started to lower me to the ground and I adjusted my bra.

“Yes but I think that last one was my favorite out of all of them!” I said as I looked up at him. My god he was so handsome and his eyes were filled with…….love.

Gu

Gu

“Ellie…..I love you…….”

Nope, I was so wrong…….that was the most magical moment of my life.

“I love you too Drew.”

Gu

Then he smiled. I felt my body slowly start sliding down the jeep……my knees would not hold me up. Gu

“You just made me the happiest man on earth Ellie Johnson. I will love you for the rest of my life baby.”

Then he kissed me so slow and so sweet. My heart was squeezing in my chest. I did it; I gave my heart away to someone when I swore I would never do it again. I prayed to God that Gu

You will never be wanted by anyone……..

I felt a tear roll down my face. Gu

“Please tell me that is a happy tear sweetheart.”

“Yes, yes it is. Promise me that you will not break my heart Drew. Promise me that will you?”

He looked at me and his eyes started to fill with tears. Oh my…..

“Ellie, I would rather die than ever break your heart. I have never in my life felt like this. I would lay down my life for you if I had to. I love you baby.”

I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck as he lifted me off the ground. I wanted to stay right here just like this forever!

In Gu

“You ready to head back to the house sweetheart?”

Every time he called me sweetheart or baby my stomach did flip flops. I loved it so much. I loved him so much. Yes….I loved him and if he was willing to take a leap of faith on us, so was I.

“Okay, except we hardly ate anything your grandmother packed. I feel so bad!”

“Don’t worry about it. We can take it with us down to the river tomorrow. Jeff and I have a few things to take care of in the morning around the ranch but we are free all afternoon. What do you say you and Ari meet us at the river around one?”Gu

“Sounds good, but how will we find our way to the river? This place is HUGE!”

Gu

“I need to tell Drake that the battery needs replacing in this thing. Make sure y’all take my truck tomorrow and I will have Grams tell y’all how to get there in the morning.”

Gu

We drove in silence until we reached the ranch house. Before Gu

He turned and looked at me with a smile. “What’s wrong sweetheart?”

I was not sure why I needed to ask him this but it all of a sudden became very important to me.

“Nothing is wrong it’s just….well I mean with us talking about wanting kids and everything I just…..well I just wanted to ask you…..shit….this is not coming out right!”

“Ellie, I’ve already told you sweetheart you can ask me anything you want. I’ll never hide anything from you.”

“I just was wondering where you saw yourself in the future? I mean I know you only have one more year of college and your degree is in Architectural Engineering but you also love football so much. Jefferson mentioned that you already had NFL teams interested in you. Do you see yourself playing pro football?”

Gu

Gu

Oh shit….here it is….. I just knew he was going to say he sees himself playing pro ball….did I want to be with someone who would be traveling all the time….the women who would always be after his attention I just couldn’t imagine it….my heart just sank.

“Honestly Ellie, my dream ever since I was a little kid was to build and design buildings and to run this ranch. I figured I could do both so that’s why I majored in Architectural Engineering. Jeff and I both are going to get hired on where we have been interning after we get out of school but I already worked it out to where I would do most of my work from out here. My number one dream is to take over this ranch. I would like to get married here, have my kids here and raise them right here on the ranch.”

I was not expecting him to say that. It felt like at least one hundred butterflies went off in my stomach. Would he ever want that life with…..me?

“So, no pro football even though you have teams trying to get you signed on?” I asked as I fiddled with my hands.

“No Ells, no pro football. I don’t want to be away from the people I love. Especially with my grandparents getting older I want to be here for them. Take the burden off of them with the ranch and I if I am really blessed I hope to give them great grandkids.”

“Oh wow….um…that sounds wonderful Gu

He started to laugh. “Well that’s not really fair. You get to ask me about my future, what about yours?”

What was I going to say? Oh well okay…I have only known you for a little over a month now but I want to marry you and have your kids and live out here on your family’s ranch. Yeah that would scare him the fuck off!

“Well I guess I’m not really sure where I see my future. I’m starting college soon so I guess that is really about as far as I’m thinking right now just going to college.” I said with a shrug of my shoulders.

Gu

He slowly gave me a small smile and let go of my hand. He got out of the jeep so fast I almost didn’t see him grab the basket and head to the front door.

OH SHIT! I guess I pretty much just told him I didn’t think I saw him in my future.

OH NO! FUCK!

“Gu