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‘He’s like two people,’ Fi said. ‘He’s shy with me but confident when he’s in a group. But he kissed me on Monday and I think that broke the ice a bit. I thought he’d never do it.’
Right, sure, I thought. I was embarrassed at how far Lee and I had progressed beyond our first kiss already.
‘You know,’ Fi continued, ‘he told me he had a crush on me in Year 8. And I never knew. Maybe it’s better I didn’t though. I thought he was such a reptile then. And those kids he used to hang round with!’
‘He still does,’ I said. ‘Or at least he did before all this happened.’
‘Yes,’ said Fi, ‘but I don’t think he wants to have much to do with them any more. He’s changed so much, don’t you think?’
‘God yeah.’
‘I want to learn all I can about farming,’ Fi said, ‘so when we’re married I can help him heaps and heaps.’
Oh my God! I thought. You know they’re beyond help when they talk like that. Not that I hadn’t had nice little fantasies of Lee and me travelling the world together, the perfect married couple.
But it occurred to me as I listened to Fi, that the real reason I felt attracted to Homer lately, attracted in powerful and puzzling ways, was that I was jealous of losing him. He was my brother. As I didn’t have a brother and he didn’t have a sister, we’d sort of adopted each other. We’d grown up together. I could say things to Homer that no one else could get away with. There had been times, when he was acting really crazily, that I’d been the only person he would listen to. I didn’t want to lose that relationship, especially now, when we’d temporarily or permanently lost so many other relationships in our lives. My parents seemed so far away; the further away they got, the closer I wanted to bind Homer to me. I was quite shocked to have such an insight to my feelings, as though there was an Ellie lurking inside me that I didn’t have much knowledge or awareness of. Just like there’d been Homer’s and Fiona’s lurking away inside them. I wondered what other surprises the secret Ellie might have for me, and resolved then and there to try to keep better track of her in future.
Fi asked me about Lee then and I said simply ‘I love him’. She didn’t comment, and I found myself going on. ‘He’s so different to anyone I’ve ever known. It’s like he’s coming out of my dreams sometimes. He seems so much more mature than most of those guys at school. I don’t know how he stands them. I guess that’s why he keeps to himself so much. But you know, I get the feeling that he’ll do something great in life; I don’t know what, be famous or be Prime Minister or something. I can’t see him staying in Wirrawee all his life. I just think there’s so much to him.’
‘The way he took that bullet wound was incredible,’ Fi said. ‘He was so calm about it. If that had happened to me I’d still be in shock. But you know, Ellie, I’d never have picked you and Lee as a likely couple. I think it’s amazing. But you go so well together.’
‘Well how about you and Homer!’
We both laughed and settled down to watch the bridge. The hours ground slowly on. Fi even slept for twenty minutes or so. I could hardly believe it, although when I challenged her she denied furiously that she’d even closed her eyes. For me the tension grew as the time passed. I just wanted to get it over with, this mad reckless thing that we’d talked ourselves into doing.
The trouble was that there was no convoy. Homer and Lee had wanted to come in behind a convoy to guarantee themselves a period of grace before the next lot of traffic came along. But as the time got close to 4 am the road stayed frustratingly empty.
Then suddenly there was a change in the pattern of activity on the bridge. The sentries were all down the Cobbler’s Bay end but even from our distance I could see them become more alert, more awake. They gathered in the centre of the bridge and stood looking down the road, in the opposite direction to us. I nudged Fi.
‘Something’s going on,’ I said. ‘Might be a convoy.’ We stood and looked, straining our eyes to peer down the dark highway. But it was the behaviour of the sentries that again told us what was happening. They started backing away, then their little group broke up and they split, half going to one side of the bridge, half to the other. One ran in little circles for a moment, then started ru
‘It’s the cattle,’ I said. ‘It’s got to be.’
We sprinted for the tanker, leaving the silent, useless walkie-talkie behind. There was no time to wonder about a patrol coming down the street. We leapt into the truck and started the engine. I put it in gear and looked up, and although speed was now vital to us, I couldn’t help but lose a second as I caught the wonderful view on the bridge. A hundred or more head of beef, prime Hereford cattle, beautiful big red beasts, were steaming onto the old wooden structure like a mighty train of meat. And they were steaming. Even at this distance I could hear the thunder of the hooves on the timber. They were going like wound-up locomotives.
‘Wow,’ I breathed.
‘Go!’ screamed Fi.
I pressed the accelerator and the tanker lumbered forward. We had about five hundred metres to go and I was pumping adrenalin so hard I felt immune to danger, to bullets, to anything. ‘Go!’ cried Fi again. As we came in under the bridge I slid the tanker as far across to the left as I could get it, so that it was nestled under the lowest section of the superstructure. The trick was to do it without sideswiping the pylon and causing sparks, which might have finished Fi and me off quickly and horribly. But we got in there nice and close, leaving less man two metres clearance between the top of the tanker and the bridge. That was the first time any of us had thought of the possibility of the tanker not fitting under the bridge at all; it was a little too late by then to consider that problem. We’d been lucky. Fi couldn’t get her door open because she was so close to the pylon, so she started sliding across to my side. I half leapt, half fell out of the cab. Above my head the bridge shook and thundered as the first of the stampeding cattle reached our end. I was going up the ladder to the top of the tanker as Fi came out of the truck and without looking at me sprinted for the motorbikes. This run, which I too would have to do in a moment, was our greatest risk. It was across clear ground for about two hundred metres, to where we’d hidden the bikes in the bushes. There was no cover, no protection from any angry bullets that might come buzzing after us. I shook my head to clear the frightening thoughts, and ran along the walkway on top of the trailer, crouched over to avoid hitting the bottom of the bridge. When I reached the rope I glanced up. Fi had disappeared and I had to hope she’d made the bushes safely. I started pulling out the rope, coil after sopping coil, throwing it to the roadway below. The fumes were terrible in that confined space. They made me giddy and gave me an instant headache. Another thing we should have thought of, I realised: a sinker to tie to the end of the rope that had to stay in the tank, to stop it being pulled out when I ran off with the other end. Too late for that now. All I could do was jam the lid down as tightly as possible and hope that would hold it in.
I scrambled back down the ladder. It seemed to have taken forever to get the rope out. All that time I’d been oblivious of the thunder just centimetres above my head, but now I noticed that it was starting to lessen. I could make out individual hooves. I broke out in an instant sweat, found the loose end of the rope, grabbed it and ran. I had petrol all over me, had been breathing petrol, and felt very odd as a result, as though I was floating across the grass. But it wasn’t a pleasant float, more the sort of floating that made me seasick.