Can You Keep A Secret?

'I didn't?' says Jack. 'Do I get another shot?'

In spite of myself, a giggle rises inside me.

'No!'

'No? Is that your final answer?'

As he looks at me there's a bigger question in his eyes, and I feel a little shaft, half hope, half

apprehension. For a long while neither of us says anything. I'm breathing rather fast.

Suddenly Jack's gaze falls with interest on my hand. 'I am over Jack,' he reads aloud.

Fuck.

My entire face flames with colour.

I am never writing anything on my hand again. Ever.

'That's just…' I clear my throat again. 'That was just a doodle… it didn't mean…'

A shrill ring from my mobile interrupts me. Thank God. Whoever this is, I love them. I hastily

pull it out and press green.

'Emma, you're going to love me for ever!' come Jemima's piercing tones.

'What?' I stare at the phone.

'I've sorted everything out for you!' she says triumphantly. 'I know, I'm a total star, you don't

know what you'd do without me-'

'What?' I feel a twinge of alarm. 'Jemima, what are you talking about?'

'Getting your revenge on Jack Harper, silly! Since you were just sitting there like a total wimp,

I've taken matters into my own hands.'

For moment I can't quite move.

'Er, Jack… excuse me a minute.' I shoot him a bright smile. 'I just need to… take this call.'

With trembling legs I hurry to the corner of the courtyard, well away from earshot.

'Jemima, you promised you wouldn't do anything!' I hiss. 'You swore on your Miu Miu

ponyskin bag, remember?'

'I haven't got a Miu Miu ponyskin bag!' she crows triumphantly. 'I've got a Fendi ponyskin

bag!'

She's mad. She's completely mad.

'Jemima, what have you done?' I manage. 'Tell me what you've done.'

My heart is thudding in apprehension. Please don't say she's scraped his car. Please.

'An eye for an eye, Emma! That man totally betrayed you, and we're going to do the same to

him. Now, I'm sitting here with a very nice chap called Mick. He's a journalist, he writes for

the Daily World …'

My blood runs cold.

'A tabloid journalist?' I manage at last. 'Jemima, are you insane?'

'Don't be so narrow-minded and suburban,' retorts Jemima reprovingly. 'Emma, tabloid

journalists are our friends. They're just like private detectives… but for free! Mick's done

loads of work for Mummy before. He's marvellous at tracking things down. And he's very

interested in finding out Jack Harper's little secret. I've told him all we know, but he'd like to

have a word with you.'

I feel quite faint. This ca

'Jemima, listen to me,' I say in quick, low tones, as though trying to persuade a lunatic down

off the roof. 'I don't want to find out Jack's secret, OK? I just want to forget it. You have to

stop this guy.'

'I won't!' she says like a petulant six-year-old. 'Emma, don't be so pathetic! You can't just let

men walk all over you and do nothing in return. You have to show them. Mummy always

says-' There's the sudden screeching of tyres. 'Oops! Tiny prang. I'll call you back.'

The phone goes dead.

I am numb with horror.

Frantically I jab her number into my phone, but it clicks straight on to messages.

'Jemima,' I say as soon as it beeps. 'Jemima, you have to stop this! You have to-' I stop

abruptly as Jack appears in front of me, with a warm smile.

'It's about to start,' he says, and gives me a curious look. 'Everything all right?'

'Fine,' I say in a strangled voice, and put my phone away. 'Everything's… fine.'

TWENTY-FIVE

As I walk into the auditorium I'm almost lightheaded with panic.

What have I done? What have I done?

I have given away Jack's most precious secret in the world to a morally warped, revengewreaking,

Prada-wearing nutcase.

OK. Just calm down, I tell myself for the zillionth time. She doesn't actually know anything.

This journalist probably won't find out anything. I mean, what facts does he actually have?

But what if he does find out? What if he somehow stumbles on the truth? And Jack discovers

it was me who pointed them in the right direction?

I feel ill at the thought. My stomach is curdling. Why did I ever mention Scotland to Jemima?

Why?

New resolution: I am never giving away a secret again. Never, ever, ever. Even if it doesn't

seem important. Even if I am feeling angry.

In fact… I am never talking again, full stop. All talking ever seems to do is get me into

trouble. If I hadn't opened my mouth on that stupid plane in the first place, I wouldn't be in

this mess now.

I will become a mute. A silent enigma. When people ask me questions I will simply nod, or

scribble cryptic notes on pieces of paper. People will take them away and puzzle over them,

searching them for hidden meanings-

'Is this Lissy?' says Jack, pointing to a name in the programme, and I jump in fright. I follow

his gaze, then give a silent nod, my mouth clamped shut.

'Do you know anyone else in the show?' he asks.

I give a mute 'who knows?' shrug.

'So… how long has Lissy been practising?'

I hesitate, then hold up three fingers.

'Three?' Jack peers at me uncertainly. 'Three what?'

I make a little gesture with my hands which is supposed to indicate 'months'. Then I make it

again. Jack looks totally baffled.

'Emma, is something wrong?'

I feel in my pocket for a pen — but I haven't got one.

OK, forget not talking.

'About three months,' I say out loud.

'Right.' Jack nods, and turns back to the programme. His face is calm and unsuspecting, and I

can feel guilty nerves rising through me again.

Maybe I should just tell him.

No. I can't. I can't. How would I put it? 'By the way, Jack. You know that really important

secret you asked me to keep? Well, guess what…'

Containment is what I need. Like in those military films where they bump off the person who

knows too much. But how do I contain Jemima? I've launched some crazed human Exocet

missile, fizzing around London, bent on causing as much devastation as she can, and now I

want to call her back, but the button doesn't work any more.

OK. Just think rationally. There's no need to panic. Nothing's going to happen tonight. I'll just

keep trying her mobile and as soon as I get through I'll explain in words of one syllable that

she has to call this guy off and if she doesn't I will break her legs.

A low, insistent drumbeat starts playing over the loudspeakers, and I give a start of fright. I'm

so distracted, I'd actually forgotten what we were here for. The auditorium is becoming

completely dark, and around us the audience falls silent with anticipation. The beating

increases in volume, but nothing happens on stage; it's still pitch black.

The drumming becomes even louder, and I'm starting to feel tense. This is all a bit spooky.

When are they going to start dancing? When are they going to open the curtains? When are

they going to-

Pow! Suddenly there's a gasp as a dazzling light fills the auditorium, nearly blinding me.

Thumping music fills the air, and a single figure appears on stage in a black, glittering

costume, twirling and leaping. Gosh, whoever it is, they're amazing. I'm blinking dazedly

against the bright light, trying to see. I can hardly tell if it's a man or a woman or a-

Oh my God. It's Lissy.

I am pinioned to my seat by shock. Everything else has been swept away from my mind. I