Guilty Pleasures

One piece of makeup I don’t use is base. I can’t imagine smearing cake over my whole face. I own one bottle of clear nail polish, but it isn’t for my fingers, it’s for my panty hose. If I wear a pair of hose once without snagging them, I have had a very good day.

I stood in front of the full-length mirror in the bedroom. The top slipped over my head with one thin strap. There was no back; it tied across the small of my back in a cute little bow. I could have done without the bow, but otherwise it wasn’t too bad. The top slipped into the black skirt, complete, dresslike without a break. The tan bandages on my hands clashed with the dress. Oh, well. The skirt was full and swirled when I moved. It had pockets.

Through those pockets were two thigh sheaths complete with silver knives. All I had to do was slip my hands in and come out with a weapon. Neat. Sweat is an interesting thing when you’re wearing a thigh sheath. I had not been able to figure out how to hide a gun on me. I don’t care how many times you’ve seen women carry guns on a thigh holster on television, it is damn awkward. You walk like a duck with a wet diaper on.

Hose and high-heeled black satin pumps completed the outfit. I had owned the shoes and the weapons; everything else was new.

One other new item was a cute black purse with a thin strap that would hang across my shoulders, leaving my hands free. I stuffed my smaller gun, the Firestar, into it. I know, I know, by the time I dug the gun from the depths of the purse, the bad guys would be feasting on my flesh, but it was better than not having it at all.

I slipped my cross on, and the silver looked good against the black top. Unfortunately, I doubted the vampires would let me into the party wearing a blessed crucifix. Oh, well. I’d leave it in the car, along with the shotgun and ammo.

Edward had kindly left a box near the table. What I assumed he had brought the gun up in. What had he told Mrs. Pringle, that it was a present for me?

Edward had said twenty-four hours, but twenty-four hours from when? Would he be here at dawn, bright and early, to torture the information out of me? Naw, Edward didn’t strike me as a morning person. I was safe until at least afternoon. Probably.

Chapter 24

I slid into a no-parking zone in front of Guilty Pleasures. Phillip was leaning against the building, arms loose at his sides. He wore black leather pants. The thought of leather in this heat made my knees break out in heat rash. His shirt was black fishnet, which showed off both scars and tan. I don’t know if it was the leather or the fishnet, but the word “sleazy” came to mind. He had passed over some invisible line, from flirt to hustler.

I tried to picture him at twelve. It didn’t work. Whatever had been done to him, he was what he was, and that was what I had to deal with. I wasn’t a psychiatrist who could afford to feel sorry for the poor unfortunate. Pity is an emotion that can get you killed. The only thing more dangerous is blind hate, and maybe love.

Phillip pushed away from the wall and walked towards the car. I unlocked his door, and he slid inside. He smelled of leather, expensive cologne, and faintly of sweat.

I pulled away from the curb. “Aggressive little outfit there, Phillip.”

He turned to stare at me, face immobile, eyes hidden behind the same sunglasses he had worn earlier. He lounged in the seat, one leg bent and pressed against the door, the other spread wide, knee tucked up on the seat. “Take Seventy West.” His voice was rough, almost hoarse.

There is that moment when you are alone with a man and you both realize it. Alone together, there are always possibilities in that. There is a nearly painful awareness of each other. It can lead to awkwardness, to sex, or to fear, depending on the man and the situation.

Well, we weren’t having sex, you could make book on that. I glanced at Phillip, and he was still turned towards me, lips slightly parted. He’d taken off the sunglasses. His eyes were very brown and very close. What the hell was going on?

We were on the highway and up to speed. I concentrated on the cars around me, on driving, and tried to ignore him. But I could feel the weight of his gaze along my skin. It was almost a warmth.

He began to slide along the seat towards me. I was suddenly very aware of the sound of leather rubbing along the upholstery. A warm, animal sound. His arm slid across my shoulders, his chest leaning into me.

“What do you think you’re doing, Phillip!”

“What’s wrong?” He breathed along my neck. “Isn’t this aggressive enough for you?”

I laughed; I couldn’t help it. He stiffened beside me. “I didn’t mean to insult you, Phillip. I just didn’t picture fishnet and leather for tonight.”

He stayed too close to me, pressing, warm, his voice still strange and rough. “What do you like then?”

I glanced at him, but he was too close. I was suddenly staring into his eyes from two inches away. His nearness ran through me like an electric shock. I turned back to the road. “Get on your side of the car, Phillip.”

“What turns you,” he whispered in my ear, “on?”

I’d had enough. “How old were you the first time Valentine attacked you?”

His whole body jerked, and he scooted away from me. “Damn you!” He sounded like he meant it.

“I’ll make you a deal, Phillip. You don’t have to answer my question, and I won’t answer yours.”

His voice came out choked and breathy. “When did you see Valentine? Is he going to be here tonight? They promised me he wouldn’t be here tonight.” His voice held a thick edge of panic. I had never heard such instant terror.

I didn’t want to see Phillip afraid. I might start feeling sorry for him, and I couldn’t afford that. Anita Blake, hard as nails, sure of herself, unaffected by crying men. Riiight. “I did not talk to Valentine about you, Phillip, I swear.”

“Then how…” He stopped, and I glanced at him. He’d slid the sunglasses back in place. His face looked very tight and still behind his dark glasses. Fragile. Sort of ruined the image.

1 couldn’t stand it. “How did I find out what he did to you?”

He nodded.

“I paid money to find out about your background. It came up. I needed to know if I could trust you.”

“Can you?”

“I don’t know yet,” I said.

He took several deep breaths. The first two trembled, but each breath was a little more solid, until finally he had it under control, for now. I thought of Rebecca Miles and her small, starved-looking hands.

“You can trust me, Anita. I won’t betray you. I won’t.” His voice sounded lost, a little boy with all his illusions stripped away.

I couldn’t stomp all over that lost child voice. But I knew and he knew that he would do anything the vampires wanted, anything, including betraying me. A bridge was rising over the highway, a tall latticework of grey metal. Trees hugged the road on either side. The summer sky was pale watery blue, washed out by the heat and the bright summer sun. The car bumped up on the bridge, and the Missouri River stretched away on either side. The air seemed open and distant over the rolling water. A pigeon fluttered onto the bridge, settling beside maybe a dozen others, all strutting and burring over the bridge.

I had actually seen seagulls on the river before, but you never saw one near the bridge, just pigeons. Maybe seagulls didn’t like cars.

“Where are we going, Phillip?”

“What?”

I wanted to say, “Question too hard for you?” but I resisted. It would have been like picking on him. “We’re across the river. What is our destination?”

“Take the Zumbehl exit and turn right.”

I did what he said. Zumbehl veers to the right and spills you automatically to a turn lane. I sat at the light and turned on red when it was clear. There is a small gathering of stores to the left, then an apartment complex, then trees, almost a woods, houses tucked back in them. A nursing home is next and then a rather large cemetery. I always wondered what the people in the nursing home thought of living next door to a cemetery. Was it a ghoulish reminder, no pun intended? A convenience, just in case?