Sleeping in Flame

"And she says okay because she wants to be queen?"

"Right. Now, when she is queen he comes and says keep your promise. She tells him to fuck off."

"'Fuck off'? That's up to date. Are you making a postmodern version?"

"Picture this queen as an entirely egotistical, selfish bitch who'd do anything to get what she wants. She dupes the guy into making her gold, but never has any intention of loving him.

"Plus, here's one of the big twists: Since he's a magic man, he has no sex."

Buck laughed. "He's dickless?"

"In sweeter terms, sexless. But he's also a romantic. Believes if they love each other enough, they don't need sex."

"He sounds dopey. You sure this isn't 'Snow White'?"

"He is to a degree . . . a romantic dope. But that belief makes him vulnerable, more believable. Much more than a cliche leprechaun who wiggles his nose and makes a pot of gold appear.

"When he sees she won't love him, he's crushed. But then the bitter, spurned lover part in him comes out. 'If I can't have her, then I'm going to hit her right where it hurts.'"

"Take the kid."

"Not only does he take the kid, but treats him like a son and teaches him all his magic. Both to spite Mama and because he grows to love the boy. It makes sense. Since he can't have children this is the closest'he'll ever get."

"That's it? 'The End'? Rumpelstiltskin and son walk off into the sunset?"

"Not quite. Rumpelstiltskin takes the child and somehow moves them both over into real life. How he does that I don't know yet, but I'm working on it.

"In real life they live together happily for a while. Then Papa makes his biggest mistake: He allows the boy to grow up. And when the boy grows up he inevitably starts looking at women."

"The Brothers Grimm wouldn't like it, Walker. You're starting to get sexy."

"Wait. The boy grows up and falls in love with a woman. Papa gets completely pissed off because that was what got him into trouble in the first place – human love.

"Holy Jesus, it's true!"

Buck looked at me. "What's true?"

"Wait! The boy falls in love with a woman. The old man knows that if it goes further, he loses his son. So he threatens him by saying that if he goes with a woman, he'll get him. But the boy's a boy and ignores Papa. He goes ahead and falls in love and Papa kills him."

"Kills him? We're still talking Walt Disney here?"

"Kills him, but then brings him back to live another life. Hopes that by doing it, the boy will somehow have learned his lesson and will go back to loving Papa. But Walter doesn't remember his last life. So growing up, he falls in love again . . ." I stopped walking and looked straight at Buck. "Falls in love again and the old man kills him again. Again and again."

"Sounds interesting. There's the restaurant."

The place was smoky and too hot. Tough-looking men with thick moustaches and loud voices sat at tables drinking wine and talking. There was a television tuned to a soccer game in one corner, but no one watched. We ordered sarma and beer and checked out the room. No one was interested in us.

"Tell me the rest. The story ends with the old man killing his son, ad infinitum? No happy ending?"

"How would you end it?"

"I like sad ends. I'd leave it there. Post-modern and existential. It'll be shown at all the film festivals."

"Don't be modern. Tell me how the Grimms would end it."

"What are the essential elements of the story? Love is the big one."

"Bad love, mostly. Selfish or possessive."

"Okay, then the Grimms would make a point of showing you how bad that kind of love is, and how good love should win out."

"Give me an example."

"Am I going to get paid for this if you use it?"

"Sure. We'll take equal screenwriting credit."

"That's good. Maybe I could pay my heat bill then. Let's see, you've got your bad love, but we haven't seen much good so far. What about the kid's magic? You said the old man taught him."

"That's a problem too, because in this world, the kid doesn't remember how to do it. Just knows that he has it in him somewhere. When we meet him it's today and he's only discovered what's up. Who he is."

"Then let him be in love with a girl who shows him through love. That's kitschy. They'll love it in Hollywood."

"Too simple. She's just your normal beautiful girl. Reads the tarot, but doesn't know or understand real magic."

"Make the old man threaten her some way. That'll bring out the fighting spirit in our hero."

I started to say something but stopped. "What do you mean, threaten?"

"Go after the girl. You said the boy's finally discovered who he is? Then have the old man tell him he's going to kill the girl if he doesn't go back to their old way of life."

That bitch in the hospital.

The baby. The bleeding. The loss.

Even a father loses his patience after a while. This time you're not going to have another chance.

I stood up. "Dave, I have to go."

"The food hasn't come!"

"Eat mine. Here. This'll cover it."

"You're a strange boy, Walker. Going home to write? Don't forget my cut."

Out on the street there were no taxis. I stood there feeling as though I was going to piss in my pants. When I couldn't stand it anymore, I went looking for a phone booth. There was one a couple of blocks down. I called Maris's room at the hospital. She was eating lunch. She felt fine. Said the food there was so good she was sure she'd put on weight. That did nothing to stop my worrying.

Hearing her voice cooled some of the fire in my stomach, but I knew it was only temporary. Would he hurt her? Was that what he meant by "losing his patience"? Look at what he'd done to Lillis Benedikt. Did he get madder and more vengeful every life I lived?

I had to move, go somewhere. Stepping out of the phone booth, I looked around and saw the Sudbahnhof standing gray and wet in the mist. I'd go over there and take a train somewhere. To Rax and look at the mountains. Yes, an hour train ride where I could sit, look out the window, and think about this newest nightmare.

The traffic was heavy, and it took time to cross it and reach the building. Inside, hundreds of people in various stages of their trips bustled by. Two American kids with pastel knapsacks and Mount Everest hiking boots ran for the two o'clock train to Villach. A group of old men with thin rubber briefcases conferred under the arrival/departure board. Turkish and Yugoslavian families with many cheap suitcases and boxes wrapped with heavy cord sat disconsolately on them waiting for their train south.

There was no train to Rax, so I decided to take the two o'clock, get off at Wiener Neustadt, and walk around there a while. Good, let's go. I ran up the stairs behind the knapsack kids, enjoying their excited, familiar-sounding voices.

"We'll stay in Villach overnight then catch the morning train to Trieste."

"What's in Villach?"

"I don't know. Mountains. Come on."

Ambling down the stairs toward us was a crowd of football rowdies dressed in the violet and white colors of the Austria Memphis soccer team. There was quite a bunch of them and they all looked drunk.

"Hey, Phyllis, I want a hat like that. Think I can find one in Villach?" The American boy was middle-sized but weighted down by the sack he was carrying.

"Amerika! Hey, fucking Amerika!"

"Don't say anything. Just walk by them."

The kids looked at me, surprised to hear their own language.

"What'd you say?"

"Ignore these guys. Don't say anything to them."

It was too late. The giant of the group, who looked like a young Herma

"Hey, Amis! I speak English. Talk to me."