Sleeping in Flame

I sat down right where I stood, put my hands to my head, and shook like a dog in a bad thunderstorm. Nicholas's death, the old women at the cemetery, Rednaxela, saving this woman from her future . . . I had to tell Maris everything now. I had begun to run out of luck.

"Hey, you, get up! Let's go. What're you doing there?"

Looking up, I saw a Kobra checking me out with both disgust and suspicion. He gestured with his gray Uzi for me to get going.

For di

Maris knew it all now. It isn't often in life that you come clean with another person, but I'd tried. What good was it to leave anything out? How could she make suggestions if left in the dark about important, albeit frightening or embarrassing, details?

I looked for some answer on her loved face. From past chats, I knew she liked to think things through before giving her opinion, but my impatience showed too clearly in the way I kept rattling the ice in my glass.

She looked at the glass, then me. "I have my tarot cards here. I'll do a reading for you now if you like, but I'd still rather not. This isn't the place for it.

"The best thing to do is call my brother Ingram when we get in. I was going to anyway, but this is all the more reason to. Remember I told you he's a disc jockey in L.A.? He has this cockamamy talk show in the afternoon called 'Off the Wall' where he interviews every kind of weirdo and lunatic you can imagine. It's fu

"That's good, but what do you think of all this, Maris?"

"I think it's something to worry about. You have to find out what's happening. If you knew someone strange and mean like Luc, it might be a very elaborate practical joke. It's the kind of joke he liked to play."

"Seeing a woman's future? Looking exactly like a dead man? That's no joke, Maris. It's God!"

"True."

"I'm glad you're calm about it. It makes me feel better."

"I'm calm because there's nothing we can do this minute, ten miles above the earth. Plane rides scare me and I'm just in the middle of praying we get there. Once we've landed we can figure out . . . Oh, forget it."

I sat up and looked at her carefully. "What were you going to say?"

"I was thinking about how magical these last months have been. How we met, how fast we fell in love. But then there's the other magic too – Nicholas's death, your friend Rednaxela, Moritz Benedikt . . . It's really a strange time for us."

"Nicholas's death was magic? That's an odd word for it."

"I don't think so. Magic means mysterious and supernatural. We both know he shouldn't have died. Why he died is the mystery. My God, everything is so strange these days.

"You also said something before that isn't true: You're ru

"– Reaction. But you can have both. Loving someone brings you peace."

"Nope. It makes life interesting and alive, but it doesn't bring much peace."

The first thing I do whenever I return to a town I know is eat a favorite meal there. In Vie

They looked so alike: tall, topped with thick black hair, eyes set wide apart, lips round and perfect as a dark coin. Ingram (Maris called him "Inky") was thin and dressed in typical L.A. wear – T-shirt with the name "Meat Puppets" across the front, baggy/fashionable pants, sneakers. He talked fast, but his hands never moved except to bring the hot dog to his mouth. I kept imagining him at a radio microphone with those still hands, fielding questions from guys selling real estate on the Lost Continent of Atlantis (once it rose). Maris was his best audience and their closeness was self-evident.

After they'd caught up on each other's lives, she told an abbreviated version of our story. His eyes went back and forth between us, and he asked many questions, some of them alarmingly personal. He knew Luc, and angrily kept repeating he'd warned her about that asshole.

"Don't be obnoxious, Inky. I warned you about a couple of your friends, but you didn't listen either. Two of them tried to kill you. I only had Luc."

That made him laugh. He reached across the table and tried to take her bottle of cream soda. She pulled it back and shook her head. It was one of those games brothers and sisters play until the day they die and enjoy every minute of.

"Everything is good between you two?"

"Wonderful. But, Inky, there's something important you can help us with."

While Ferraris and low riders roared by a few feet away, she told him about the "magic" of our last months. This time he asked no questions at all, which made me skeptical. But then anything was possible in his world, including people who talked to Pluto. When she was finished he nodded his head and said more to himself than to us, "Venasque."

"What's that?"

"It's a man. A shaman. He teaches people to fly."

The studio gave us a su

Weber Gregston's company, "Black Lion," gave us a car and the news that shooting would begin for me in a few days. Weber was making a thriller/horror film called Wonderful based on three paintings by Eric Fischl. He'd written it together with one of the most famous novelists in America. No one outside the production knew much about the film because it was a closed set and people involved were keeping their mouths shut. The script arrived in the hands of a woman who looked like a prison guard.

I was set to play a professional killer named Mr. Pencil. Although the part wasn't difficult, it was peculiar. While Maris and her brother spent an evening out, I read the script first as an actor and then again as a screenwriter. Both ways it was macabre, perverse, original. Weber was still riding high on the success of his last film, and I'm sure that was the only reason why a major studio agreed to finance Wonderful.

That was also the night I called Venasque for the first time. From the first he was garrulous and friendly. The tone of his voice sounded as though he was grateful for someone to talk to. Ingram must have filled him in on my "problem" because the shaman asked for details on the way the woman had fallen down the escalator stairs, the color of the women's faces in the graveyard, how to spell "Benedikt," my birth date.

"And you're here to make a film?"

"Yes. We'll be staying about two weeks."

"It'll have to be longer."

"Why?"

"Because if we work together, it'll take a whole day to drive to the mountains. Then we'll be up there a minimum of a week, another day to drive back . . . I'd say give yourself a good ten days just to be sure."