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Roxa
“Roxa
“Hmm?” she said, and I broke in. I couldn’t help it.
“It was Alexander the Great’s wife’s name.”
My head was a magpie’s nest lined with such bright scraps of information.
“Is that so?” said Roxa
I realized something when I looked at Mr. Crozier at that moment. Something shocking, saddening.
He liked her not knowing. I could tell. He liked her not knowing. Her ignorance woke a pleasure that melted on his tongue, like a lick of toffee.
On the first day she had worn shorts, as I did, but the next time and always after that Roxa
She was never at a loss. Sometimes she came equipped with riddles. Or jokes. Some of the jokes were what my mother would call smutty and would not allow around our house, except when they came from certain of my father’s relatives who had practically no other kind of conversation.
These jokes usually started off with serious-sounding but absurd questions.
Did you hear about the nun who went shopping for a meat grinder?
Did you hear what the bride and groom went and ordered for dessert on their wedding night?
The answers always coming with a double meaning, so that whoever told the joke could pretend to be shocked and accuse the audience of having dirty minds.
And after she had got everybody used to her telling these jokes Roxa
“Isn’t that awful?” she always said at the finish. She said she wouldn’t know this stuff if her husband didn’t bring it home from the garage.
The fact that Old Mrs. Crozier snickered shocked me as much as the jokes themselves. I thought that she maybe didn’t get the point but simply enjoyed listening to whatever Roxa
Mr. Crozier didn’t laugh, but he never laughed, really. He raised his eyebrows, pretending to scold, to find Roxa
I myself made sure to laugh, so that Roxa
The other thing she did, to keep things lively, was tell about her life. Coming down from some lost little town in northern Ontario to Toronto to visit her older sister, then getting a job at Eaton’s, first cleaning things up in the cafeteria, then being noticed by one of the managers because she worked fast and was always cheerful, and suddenly finding herself a salesgirl in the glove department. (I thought she made this sound something like being discovered by Warner Brothers.) And who should come in one day but Barbara A
Meanwhile Roxa
“I had me a ball,” she said.
I began to understand that there were certain talkers-certain girls-whom people liked to listen to, not because of what they, the girls, had to say, but because of the delight they took in saying it. A delight in themselves, a shine on their faces, a conviction that whatever they were telling about was remarkable and that they themselves could not help but give pleasure. There might be other people-people like me-who didn’t concede this, but that was their loss. And people like me would never be the audience these girls were after, anyway.
Mr. Crozier sat propped up on his pillows and looked for all the world as if he was happy. Happy just to close his eyes and let her talk, then open his eyes and find her there, like a chocolate bu
Old Mrs. Crozier would rock slightly back and forth in her curious state of satisfaction.
The time Roxa
Why?
To keep her stepson happy and comfortable? I doubted it.
To keep herself entertained in a curious way?
One afternoon when Roxa
“I never meant to stay so late,” she said. “I wouldn’t want to run into that schoolteacher.”
I didn’t understand for a moment.
“You know. Syl-vi-a. She’s not crazy about me either, is she? She ever mention me when she drives you home?”
I said that Sylvia had never mentioned Roxa
“Dorothy says she doesn’t know how to handle him. She says I make him a lot happier than what she does. Dorothy says that. I wouldn’t be surprised she even told her that to her face.”
I thought of how Sylvia ran upstairs into her husband’s room every afternoon when she got home, before she even spoke to me or her mother-in-law, her face flushed with eagerness and desperation. I wanted to say something about that-I wanted somehow to defend her, but I didn’t know how. And people as confident as Roxa
“You sure she never says anything about me?”
I said again that no, she didn’t. “She’s tired when she gets home.”
“Yeah. Everybody’s tired. Some just learn to act like they aren’t.”
I did say something then, to balk her. “I quite like her.”
“You qwat like her?” mocked Roxa
Playfully, sharply, she jerked at a strand of the bangs I had recently cut for myself.
“You ought to do something decent with your hair.”
Dorothy says.
If Roxa
Midsummer passed. Water was low in the wells. The sprinkler truck stopped coming and some stores had put up sheets of what looked like yellow cellophane in their windows to keep their goods from fading. Leaves were spotty, grass dry.
Old Mrs. Crozier kept her garden man hoeing, day after day. That’s what you do in the dry weather, hoe and hoe to bring up any moisture that you can find in the ground underneath.
Summer school at the college would end after the second week of August, and then Sylvia Crozier would be home every day.