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“So I told my old man that wasn’t the way I understood it and he says it’s all sewed up for you to sign and if you don’t want to sign it you don’t have to. Your aunt Re
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“Anyway he says your aunt Re
“Sure, he says. Glad you have come to look at it the right way. You always fire off too quick, he says, at your age you ought to have some sense.
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“So over I go, and Mom has cooked chicken. Nice smell when I first go into the house. Then I get the smell of Madelaine, just her same old awful smell I don’t know what it is but even if Mom washes her every day it’s there. But I acted very nice. I said, This is an occasion, I should take a picture. I told them I had this wonderful new camera that developed right away and they could see the picture. Right off the bat you can see yourself, what do you think of that? And I got them all sitting in the front room just the way I showed you. Mom she says, Hurry up I have to get back in my kitchen. Do it in no time, I says. So I take their picture and she says, Come on now, let’s see how we look, and I say, Hang on, just be patient, it’ll only take a minute. And while they’re waiting to see how they look I take out my nice little gun and bin-bang-bam I shoot the works of them. Then I take another picture and I went out to the kitchen and ate up some of the chicken and didn’t look at them no more. I kind of had expected Aunt Re
The old man’s head was fallen sideways, the old woman’s backwards. Their expressions were blown away. The sister had fallen forward so there was no face to be seen, just her great flowery swathed knees and dark head with its elaborate and outdated coiffure.
“I could of just sat there feelin good for a week. I felt so relaxed. But I didn’t stay past dark. I made sure I was all cleaned up and I finished off the chicken and I knew I better get out. I was prepared for Aunt Re
He looked around the kitchen. “I don’t suppose you got anything to drink here, have you? That tea was awful.”
“There might be some wine,” she said. “I don’t know, I don’t drink anymore-”
“You AA?”
“No. It just doesn’t agree with me.”
She got up and found her legs were shaking. Of course.
“I fixed up the phone line before I come in here,” he said. “Just thought you ought to know.”
Would he get careless and more easygoing as he drank, or would he get meaner and wilder? How could she tell? She found the wine without having to leave the kitchen. She and Rich used to drink red wine every day in reasonable quantities because it was supposed to be good for your heart. Or bad for something that was not good for your heart. In her fright and confusion she was not able to think what that was called.
Because she was frightened. Certainly. The fact of her cancer was not going to be any help to her at the present moment, none at all. The fact that she was going to die within a year refused to cancel out the fact that she might die now.
He said, “Hey, this is the good stuff. No screw top. Haven’t you got no corkscrew?”
She moved towards a drawer, but he jumped up and put her aside, not too roughly.
“Unh-unh, I get it. You stay away from this drawer. Oh my, lots of good stuff in here.”
He put the knives on the seat of his chair where she would never be able to grab them and used the corkscrew. She did not fail to see what a wicked instrument it could be in his hand but there was not the least possibility that she herself would ever be able to use it.
“I’m just getting up for glasses,” she said, but he said no. No glass, he said, you got any plastic?
“No.”
“Cups then. I can see you.”
She set down the two cups and said, “Just a very little for me.”
“And me,” he said, businesslike. “I gotta drive.” But he filled his cup to the brim. “I don’t want no cop stickin his head in to see how I am.”
“Free radicals,” she said.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It’s something about red wine. It either destroys them because they’re bad or builds them up because they’re good, I can’t remember.”
She drank a sip of the wine and it didn’t make her feel sick, as she had expected. He drank, still standing. She said, “Watch for those knives when you sit down.”
“Don’t start kidding with me.”
He gathered the knives and put them back in the drawer, and sat.
“You think I’m dumb? You think I’m nervous?”
She took a big chance. She said, “I just think you haven’t ever done anything like this before.”
“Course I haven’t. You think I’m a murderer? Yeah, I killed them but I’m not a murderer.”
“There’s a difference,” she said.
“You bet.”
“I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to get rid of somebody who has injured you.”
“Yeah?”
“I have done the same thing you did.”
“You never.” He pushed back his chair but did not stand.
“Don’t believe me if you don’t want to,” she said. “But I did it.”
“Hell you did. How’d you do it then?”
“Poison.”
“What are you talkin about? You make them drink some of this fuckin tea or what?”
“It wasn’t a them, it was a her. There’s nothing wrong with the tea. It’s supposed to prolong your life.”
“Don’t want my life prolonged if it means drinkin junk like that. They can find out poison in a body when it’s dead anyway.”
“I’m not sure that’s true of vegetable poisons. Anyway nobody would think to look. She was one of those girls who had rheumatic fever as a child and coasted along on it, can’t play sports or do anything much, always having to sit down and have a rest. Her dying would not be any big surprise.”
“What she ever done to you?”
“She was the girl my husband was in love with. He was going to leave me and marry her. He had told me. I had done everything for him. He and I were working on this house together, he was everything I had. We had not had any children because he didn’t want them. I learned carpentry and I was frightened to get up on ladders but I did it. He was my whole life. Then he was going to kick me out for this useless whiner who worked in the registrar’s office. The whole life we’d worked for was to go to her. Was that fair?”
“How would a person get poison?”
“I didn’t have to get it. It was right in the back garden. Here. There was a rhubarb patch from years back. There’s a perfectly adequate poison in the veins of rhubarb leaves. Not the stalks. The stalks are what we eat. They’re fine. But the thin little red veins in the big rhubarb leaves, they’re poisonous. I knew about this, but I have to confess I didn’t know exactly what it would take to be effective so what I did was more in the nature of an experiment. Various things were lucky for me. First, my husband was away at a symposium in Mi