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"We've looked into it, but the answers are all bad. The war between GWA and Royal Dutch Shell makes the tax situation..." She looked at him, quickly shifted gears. "It's hard to explain."
That was a euphemism for "you wouldn't understand." He did not mind it. She had tried to explain her business affairs to him and all it did was frustrate them both. He had no head for it.
"Okay. So what do you do now?"
"Oh, there's no crisis yet. My investments are doing all right. Some war losses, but I'm getting out of GWA. The bank balance is in fair shape." That was another euphemism. She had begun using it when she realized he was baffled by the baroque mechanism that was Gitano de Oro, her corporate self. He had seen some astounding bills from Sidekick Inc., but if she said she was not hurting he would believe her.
She had been toying with the salt shaker while her eggs benedict grew cold. Now she gave a derisive snort, and glanced at him.
"The fu
It was the first he heard of it. He raised one eyebrow in polite inquiry.
"Damn it, Cooper. I've been wondering how to tell you this. The problem is I didn't realize until something you said a few days ago that you didn't know my transcorder is built in to my sidekick."
"I thought your camera crew—"
"I know you did, now. I swear I didn't realize that. No, the crew makes nothing but visual tapes. It's edited into the trans-tape which is made by my sidekick. I leave it on all the time."
He chewed on that one for a while, and frowned at her.
"You're saying you got love on tape."
"The moment of falling in love. I got it all."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
She sighed. "Trans-tapes have to be developed. They aren't like viddies. They just came back from the lab yesterday. I transed them last night, while you slept."
"I'd like to see them."
"Maybe someday," she hedged. "For right now, it's too personal. I want to keep this just for myself.
Can you understand that? God knows I've never sought privacy very hard in my life, but this..." She looked helpless.
"I guess so." He considered it a little longer. "But if you sell them, it'll hardly be personal then, will it?"
"I don't want to sell them, Q.M."
He said nothing, but he had been hoping for something a little stronger than that. For the first time, he began to feel alarmed.
He did not think about money, or about trans-tapes, in the next two weeks. There was too much else to do. He took his accumulated vacation and sick leave and the two of them traveled to Earth. It might as well have been a new planet.
It was not only that he went to places he had never seen. They went there in a style to which he was not accustomed. It was several steps above what most people thought of as first class. Problems did not exist on this planet. Luggage took care of itself. He never saw any money. There was no schedule that had to be met. Cars and planes and hypersonic shuttles were always ready to whisk them anywhere they wanted to go. When he mentioned that all this might be costing too much she explained that she was paying for none of it. Everything was provided by eager corporate suitors.
Cooper thought they behaved worse than any love-smitten adolescent. They were as demonstrative as puppies, and as easily forgiving when she snubbed them while accepting their gifts.
She did not seem afraid of kidnapping, either, though he saw little in the way of security. When he asked, she told him that security one kept tripping over was just amateur gun-toting. She advised him never to think of it again, that it was all taken care of.
"You wouldn't market that tape, would you?" There, he finally had it out in the open.
"Well, let me put it this way. When I first came to you, I was near a nervous breakdown from just thinking about going into the sex tape business. This is much more personal, much dearer to me than plain old intercourse."
"Ah. I feel better."
She reached across the bed and squeezed his hand, looked at him fondly.
"You really don't want me to market it, do you?"
"No. I really don't. The first day I saw you, a good friend warned me that if I got into bed with you my technique would be seen by ninety million slobs."
She laughed. "Well, A
For one thing, there were no vidicams around, so no one will ever see you making love to me. For another, they wouldn't use my sensations while I'm making love if I ever get into the sex-tape business. Those are a little esoteric for my audience. That would all be put together in the editing room. There would be visuals and emotionals from me—showing me making love in the regular way—and there'd be a stand-in for the physical sensations."
"Pardon my asking," he said, "but wasn't your reaction that first day a little overblown, then?"
She laughed. "Much ado about nothing?"
"Yeah. I mean, it'd be your body on the screen—"
"—but I've already shown you I don't care about that."
"And if you were making love in the conventional way, you'd hardly be emotionally transported—"
"It would register as sheer boredom."
"—so I presume you'd splice in the emotional track from some other source, too." He frowned, no longer sure of what he was trying to say.
"You're catching on. I told you this business was all fake. And I can't really explain why it bothers me so much, except to say I don't want to surrender that part of myself, even a little bit. I taped my first intercourse, but I didn't show it to anybody until you saw it. And what about you? You're worried that I might sell a tape of falling in love with you. You wouldn't be on it at all."
"Well, it was something we shared."
"Exactly. I don't want to share it with anyone else."
"I'm glad you don't plan to sell it."
"My darling, I would hate that as much as you would."
It was not until later that he realized she had never ruled out the possibility.
They went back to the Bubble when Cooper's vacation time was over. She never suggested he quit his job. They checked into a different suite. She said the cost had little to do with it, but this time he was not so sure. He had begun to see a haunted expression around her eyes as she read letter after letter rejecting increasingly modest proposals.
"They really know the game," she told him bitterly, one night. "Every one of those companies will give me any salary I want to name, but I have to sign their contract. You begin to think it's a conspiracy."
"Is it?"
"I really don't know. It may be just shrewdness. I talk about how stupid they are, and artistically they live up to that description. Morally, there's not one of them who wouldn't pay to have his daughter gang-raped if it meant a tenth-point ratings jump. But financially, you can't fault them. These are the folks who have suppressed the cures for a dozen diseases because they didn't cost enough to use. I'm speaking of the parent congloms, of course, the real governments. If they ever find a way to profit off nuclear war we'll be having them every other week. And they have obviously decided that television outside their control is dangerous."
"So what does it mean to you and me?"
"I got into the business by accident. I won't go crazy if I'm not working."
"And the money?"
"We'll get along."
"Your expenses must be pretty high."
"They are. No sense lying about that. I can cut out a lot, but the sidekick is never going to be cheap."
As if to underscore her words of the night before, the Golden Gypsy chose the next morning to get temperamental. The middle finger of Megan's right hand was frozen in the extended position. She joked about it.