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"This?"
"You're getting warmer."
"But I thought you—"
"Why don't you do a little less thinking? Come on, put it in. I want this to be good for you, too. And don't think it won't do something for me."
"Whatever you say. Oh, lord, that feels... hey, how did you do that?"
"You ask a lot of questions."
"Yeah, but you can't move any muscles down there."
"A simple variation on the implants that keep me from making a mess of myself. Now, honestly, Q.M. Don't you think the time for questions is over?"
"I think you're right."
"You want to see something fu
They were sprawled in each other's arms, looking at the smoke belching from her ridiculous bedposts. She had flipped on the holo generators, and her bedroom had vanished in a Mark Twain illusion. They floated down the Mississippi River. The bed rocked gently. Cooper felt indecently relaxed.
"Sure."
"Promise you won't laugh?"
"Not unless it's fu
She rolled over and spread her arms and legs, face down on the bed. The sidekick released her, stood up, found the holo control, and turned off the river. It put one knee on the bed, carefully turned Megan onto her back, crossed her legs for her, then sat beside her on the edge of the bed and crossed its own legs, swinging them idly. By then he was laughing, as she had intended. It sat beside her and encased her left forearm and hand, lit a cigarette and placed it in her mouth, then released her hand again. It went to a chair across the room and sat down.
He jumped when she touched him. He turned and saw a thin hand on his elbow, not able to grasp him, not strong enough to do more than nudge.
"Will you put this out?" She inclined her head toward him. He carefully removed the cigarette from her lips, cupping his hand under the ash. When he turned back to her, her eyes were guarded.
"This is me, too," she said.
"I know that." He frowned, and tried to get closer to the truth, for his own sake as well as hers. "I hadn't thought about it much. You look very helpless like this."
"I am very helpless."
"Why are you doing it?"
"Because nobody sees me like this, except doctors. I wanted to know if it made any difference."
"No. No difference at all. I've seen you this way before. I'm surprised you asked."
"You shouldn't be. I hate myself like this. I disgust myself. I expect everyone else to react the way I do."
"You expect wrong." He hugged her, then drew back and studied her face. "Do you... would you like to make love again? Not this second, I mean, but a little later. Like this."
"God, no. But thanks for offering." When she was inside the sidekick again she touched his face with her be-ringed hand. Her expression was an odd mixture of satisfaction and uncertainty.
"You keep passing the tests, Cooper. As fast as I can throw them at you. I wonder what I'm going to do with you?"
"Are there more tests?"
She shook her head. "No. Not for you."
"You're going to be late for work," A
"I don't care." A
"You've really got it bad, don't you?" she said.
He smiled at her. "I sure do. This is the first time I've been away from her in weeks. I hope you aren't angry."
"Me? No. I'm flattered that you came to see me off. You... well, you wouldn't have thought of something like that a month ago. Sorry."
"You're right." He put the suitcase down beside the things she had been carrying. A porter took them through the lock and into the shuttle. Cooper leaned against the sign that a
A
"I wanted to ask you about that," he said, slowly. "Why do you think she'll hurt me?"
She hesitated, hitching at her pants and awkwardly scuffing her shoes on the deck.
"You don't like your work as much as you did. Right?"
"Well... yeah. I guess not. Mostly because I'd like to spend more time with her."
She looked at him, cocking her head.
"Why don't you quit?"
"What... you mean—"
"Just quit. She wouldn't even notice the money she spent to support you."
He gri
She shook her head.
"But you think money will be a problem."
She nodded. "Not the fact that she has it. The fact that you don't."
"Come on. She doesn't care that I'm not rich."
A
"Good," she said, and kissed him. She hurried into the shuttle, waving over her shoulder.
Megan received a full sack of mail every day. It was the tip of the iceberg; she employed a staff on Earth to screen it, answer fan mail with form letters, turn down speaking engagements, and repel parasites. The remainder was sent on, and fell into three categories. The first, and by far the largest, was the one out of a thousand matters that came in unsolicited and, after sifting, seemed to have a chance of meriting her attention. She read some, threw most away, unopened.
The last two categories she always read. One was job offers, and the other was material from facilities on Earth doing research into the nervous system. Often the latter was accompanied by requests for money. She usually sent a check.
At first she tried to keep him up on the new developments but she soon realized he would never have her abiding and personal interest in matters neurological. She was deeply involved with what is known as the cutting edge of the research. Nothing new was discovered, momentous or trivial, that did not end up on her desk the next day. There were odd side effects: The Wacky Dust which had figured in their first meeting had been sent by a lab which had stumbled across it and didn't know what to do with it.
Her computer was jammed with information on neurosurgery. She could call up projections of when certain milestones might be reached, from minor enhancements all the way up to complete regeneration of the neuron net. Most of the ones Cooper saw looked dismal. The work was not well funded. Most money for medical research went to the study of radiation disease.
Reading the mail in the morning was far from the high point of the day. The news was seldom good.
But he was not prepared for her black depression one morning two weeks after A
"Did someone die?" he asked, sitting down and reaching for the coffee.
"Me. Or I'm in the process."
When she looked up and saw his face she shook her head.
"No, it's not medical news. Nothing so straightforward." She tossed a sheet of paper across the table at him. "It's from Allgemein Fernsehen Gesellschaft. They will pay any price... if I'll do essentially what I've been doing all along for Feeli-corp. They regret that the board of directors will not permit the company to enter any agreement wherein AFG has less than total creative control of the product."
"How many does that make now?"
"That you've seen? Seventeen. There have been many more that never got past the preliminary stage."
"So independent production isn't going to be as easy as you thought."
"I never said it would be easy."
"Why not use your own money? Start your own company."