Ecstasy

I wince, falling forward, my hands on Alex’s chest as his length nearly fucking impales me and it stings as I adjust to the size of him.

Alex is always rough, and I guess it runs in the fucking house.

But Alex surprises me as he frowns at Eli. “Fuck, easy, man.”

Eli doesn’t say anything.

As Alex helps me ride him, his cock hitting so far back I swear I can feel it in my stomach, Eli’s mouth comes to my ear. “You ready, baby girl?”

Baby girl.

No one has ever called me that before.

When Alex isn’t calling me a “druggie whore”, he sticks with “princess”.

But “baby girl” does things to me. It makes my stomach flip, my thighs clench.

Eli’s hands go to my ass but then his fingers trail lower.

Alex stiffens as Eli’s finger slides in beside his cock, and I wince as they both stretch me, the sensation new.

I stop riding Alex, my thighs shaking as I hover over him.

A strange thought occurs to me, like a cloud breezing through my hazy mind. I have scars on my thighs. And Alex has never noticed.

Will Eli see them?

Before I can think about it too much, the thought drifts away.

My eyes flutter closed as Eli’s chest brushes against my back and he tries to push another finger inside of me. But Alex is so big and…

This is happening too fast.

This is not a good idea. I didn’t mean for this to happen. I meant to piss Alex off by coming here. Convince him that breaking up with me was a stupid idea. But I didn’t mean to fuck him and his roommate at the same time.

But the Xa

“Stop, man. She’s nodding off.”

Eli laughs, his breath against my neck. He doesn’t stop.

“She’s fucking nodding off!” Alex says again, sounding panicked.

“This was your idea,” Eli says quietly, still speaking against my skin. He feels so good. Everything is so tight and so full and so…

His hand comes to my throat as he jerks me back against him. “And you’re still here, aren’t you, baby girl?” His voice is so low, I don’t even know if Alex heard him.

I arch my neck, but my mouth feels so dry, I don’t know what to say or how to say it and—

“Eli.” Alex’s voice is laced with warning.

Eli’s fingers thrust harder inside of me and I wince with his movements. It doesn’t feel good anymore.

“Stop.” Alex’s voice is a growl. He wraps his arms around my waist and lifts me off him, pulling me to his chest. Eli’s fingers seem to rip out of me, like he curled them up so it would hurt when Alex hauled me off them.

Alex’s chest is warm and his arms lock around me as he sits up, cradling me to him. “This was a bad idea.”

The bed shifts but I can’t open my eyes. They’re so fucking heavy.

Alex’s grip tightens around me.

“Why the sudden change of heart?” Eli asks softly, his words venomous. “You having flashbacks?” I don’t know what the hell he’s talking about, but I can’t really find it in me to care. My body feels so pleasant like this. Pleasant and warm against Alex and I don’t want to move.

“I made a mistake,” Alex says. He sounds strangely nervous.

Eli doesn’t say anything.

Alex’s arms tighten around me so much it actually hurts. He shifts on the bed, removes one arm only long enough to pull the covers over me.

“I’ll sleep with her. Go fuck Riha

My stomach churns for some reason with those words but even still…I can’t move.

“You just tried to drown her. Blackmailed her with Xanax to get her to fuck us, and now you don’t wa

“You’re fucking around with Riha

Eli is silent, then I hear someone pounding on the door. A high-pitched scream.

Alex laughs, and it rumbles against my body. I don’t open my eyes. I’m drifting off into darkness and it feels good.

But I guess someone opens the door and a girl is screaming. “What the fuck are you doing? You fucking asshole, what the fuck?!”

“Get out, Riha

“No, don’t you—”

There’s another scream and something that sounds like a door slamming against a wall and footsteps coming close and Alex tenses with me still in his arms.

“You fucking bitch!” That same high-pitched voice, closer now.

“If you touch her, I swear to God, Riha

More footsteps. Some scuffling. A door slamming shut. More screaming, but it’s distant.

I tremble in his arms, and it’s completely involuntary. I don’t even know why it’s happening.

Alex holds me tighter. He presses a kiss to the top of my head. “I’m so sorry.” His voice is a hoarse whisper.

Is he really sorry?

“I’m so sorry, I’m so…I’m sorry, Zara.”

I hold him tighter, my arms around his neck.

“It’s okay, princess.” He kisses the side of my face. “Go to sleep, yeah?”

Yeah. Like I could stop myself.

But his words echo in my head. “I’ll fucking drown you in my pool.”

Alex already tried to drown me.

He pulled down my top.

He’s an asshole.

I can’t even manage a nod to his words, but despite all the shit he did, I still think it back. Yeah.