Ecstasy

He stares at me a second then looks up at Alex.

“This isn’t a good idea.” The words are almost detached from what he’s saying. Like he knows it’s not a good idea, but he doesn’t really care.

Even still, relief makes me sag in Alex’s arms. But his grip only tightens.

He laughs coolly. “Come on, Eli. I know you wa

My face flushes. Has he? I never noticed.

Eli drops his hand from my mouth, and he swallows, looking back at me.

I feel Alex’s cock against my back. His warm, wet skin against mine.

Eli steps back, his eyes hard as he looks at Alex. “I think you’ve done enough.”

“Let. Me. Go!” I try to elbow Alex, but he just tightens his hold on me, not letting go.

“Your heart is racing,” he says softly. “You’re shaking. Shh, just relax. I won’t hurt you, Zara.”

“You said that about the pool—”

“I didn’t hurt you then, did I, baby?”

Panic rises, a sour taste in my mouth. My fingers are shaking, my knees trembling. There’s a dull roar in my ears and I’m worried I’m going to have a fucking stroke and these boys aren’t going to help me. They’re going to… “You’re going to kill me.”

“Don’t be fucking stupid.” Alex loosens his hold on me for a moment, shifts behind me. Before I can think to spring free, he holds up a white, oblong pill in front of me. I have no idea where the fuck he got it from, but I. Need. It.

“This is what you want isn’t it, Princess?”

I don’t take my eyes off the pill, resisting the urge to grab it. No. No. “You think you can…you think you can blackmail me into fucking you again with fucking—”

“You want it?”

I can’t breathe. The panic is bubbling up in my chest, my vision blurring, making me see double the Xanax Alex is holding out in front of me, taunting me like I’m a dog and he’s got a treat.

I see Eli, eyes flicking from me to Alex.

I still in Alex’s arms, no longer fighting.

“Tell Eli you want it,” he instructs me.

Eli doesn’t say a word. He just stares at me.

“Zara. If you want me to help you, tell Eli you want it. Be a good little slut.”

I lock eyes with Eli. His jaw is clenched, and I can see he’s breathing hard. “Eli.” My voice is hoarse. “I…”

“Alex.” But Eli’s voice doesn’t sound angry. It sounds…strained.

“I want it!” I shriek, my face growing hot at the shrillness of my own voice, the desperation in it.

Eli doesn’t move.

Alex brings the pill to my lips, rubbing it over them softly. “You want it now, princess?”

“I’m not your—”

He pushes the pill past my lips. I taste the bitterness of it on my tongue and he spins me around, hands around my waist, our nearly naked bodies brushing up against one another.

“Swallow it.”

I want to spit it out onto the floor to spite him. But I know what it is. I know what it’ll do for me right now. It could be fake, but I doubt it.

I swallow, grimacing as I do.

“Good girl,” Alex says. He pulls me closer, pressing me against his wet body. “You’re go

I shut out Eli behind me, don’t think about him. About this. “I don’t want to—”

“I won’t hurt you.”

I can’t think. I feel Eli’s hands on me.

Both of their hands are all over me.

“You tried to drown me,” I tell Alex, my words slurred.

“You kind of deserved it. And besides, I didn’t, Zara. If I had wanted to, I would have. But I didn’t. And now, you’re go

My eyes flutter closed. The panic is subsiding. I know the Xanax hasn’t kicked in yet, but I also know it’s coming.

And taking alcohol with Xanax is basically like roofying yourself. Not to mention the molly and the Addie and... What the fuck have I done?

“Did you have fun, princess?” Alex asks me.

I force myself to open my eyes. “I’m not a...” I trail off, my tongue leaden as Alex skims his hands up and down my sides. Then he spins me around abruptly.

I’m looking at Eli. He’s so close to me, but he takes a small step back, like he’s taking us both in, me and Alex.

Eli has always had such nice eyes.

And his lips. They’re so damn full.

I want them on my mouth.

I try to tell him that but then Alex buries his mouth against my neck as he hooks his thumbs through the waistband of my bikini and pulls it down.

“Step out of these for me, baby.”

I wrap my arms around myself, shivering.

Eli frowns, then closes the space between us. “She’s cold,” he says quietly as I do as Alex says.

My gaze holds Eli’s green one and he comes closer. So close we’re nearly touching. My teeth are chattering as Alex unties my bikini at my neck, then my back, pushing it off my body. He grabs my wrists, uncrosses my arms from my chest and Eli’s eyes dip lower, to my pebbled nipples. I think about them against his shirt in the living room, before he grabbed that guy by the throat.

“I-I’m f-freezing,” I say through my chattering teeth.

Eli reaches out his hand. I suck in a breath as he brushes his thumb over one nipple, then the other. He palms my breast and squeezes, stepping closer.

I almost close my eyes. I almost lean into his touch.

He’s touching me.

He’s touching me and it feels so good.

“You won’t be cold soon.” And then he shoves me backward, into Alex’s arms.

Alex laughs, his chest rumbling against my back as he yanks me up, onto the bed. He spins me around, positions my legs so I’m straddling him.

And he’s completely naked, his hard cock against my bare pussy.

“You still with us, princess?” he taunts me, curling my fingers around his cock.

I look down, my mouth hanging open. I’ve seen it so many times, but I never get over the fact that it’s so...big. And perfect and straight and thick and...

I want my mouth on it.

And not just that. I think about Eli behind me, watching.

“Yeah,” I manage to say out loud to Alex, “yes. I’m still with you.” I swallow, still staring down at Alex in my hand. “And I want you.” I bite my lip, my stomach fluttering. “And him.”

Without waiting to see his reaction, I brace myself with one hand on Alex’s shoulder and try to ease back off his lap. But someone’s fingers in my hair jerks my head back, stopping me, and then Eli’s eyes are looking into mine, upside down.

“Careful with her, Eli. You know I like this one,” Alex warns.

A slow smile curves on Eli’s lips as he leans down close to me, and I gasp against his mouth as Alex brushes the head of his dick against my clit.

“I’m not careful, princess,” Eli murmurs against my mouth, mocking Alex’s nickname for me. He pushes my head up and Alex’s fingers curl around my throat as he jerks me up and pulls me down on top of him.

He lies on his back, then his hands are on my bare hips, his cock between us.

“Fuck me, Zara.”

I glance over my shoulder to find Eli pulling his shirt off. His olive skin is fucking gorgeous, his six-pack defined and that fucking V. Alex grabs me by the throat again, jerking my head around so I’m looking at him again.

My brain feels fuzzy, everything around me spi

And fuck, didn’t Alex just try to drown me?

Didn’t he flash my—

“Now, Zara. I don’t want to wait all fucking night.”

I shift my hips, stroke Alex’s cock and he groans, biting his lip as he stares at me. I position myself over him and slowly start to lower myself onto him, but Eli’s hands come to either side of my shoulder and he shoves me down just as I feel the bed dip.