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“I can’t show you affection when I want to …”
“I know.”
“I’m going to fuck this up because I can’t help myself …”
“Yeah, I know.”
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He mouthed words even a porn director would not approve of, and my mouth dropped open. Ollie laughed silently, and I rolled my eyes with a stupefied smile.
“Eat,” I mouthed back, and he took the entire spoon into his mouth before licking it clean. My head fell in my hands, and I had to turn away. “Zeke, remind me to kick his ass later,” I said as Zeke watched us with amusement.
Minutes passed, and Ollie slid in the chair beside me. He pressed his forehead to the side of my head and mine leaned into it like a reflex. “How do we say goodbye if I can’t kiss you?” His breath in my ear, the graze of his nose, and the closeness of his body all violated rules from our conversation earlier.
“Easy. We don’t say goodbye.”
Ollie pulled away and the frown lines between his eyes deepened. “I can’t leave a room without thanking you for your presence, Mia.”
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“I don’t want even. I want a solution,” He growled and turned his whole body to face me. His eyes looked past me out the window as he licked his lips, in deep thought. The beanie had disappeared since I came back, and I wondered if it symbolized his mood. Every time he’d worn the beanie, it was only while he was upset, as if it hid him from the world or blanketed his worries.
“Alright, I have an idea.” His eyes met mine and a smile emerged from his gleaming lips. “You know how I always ask you to close your eyes?” I nodded. “When one of us has to part from the other, I’ll tell you to close your eyes. We imagine we’re kissing—and in your mind, I’m a fucking fantastic kisser, by the way—but we don’t say goodbye, and you count to ten before you open your eyes again so you won’t have to watch me walk away.”
The way his eyes lit up, I couldn’t say how ridiculous it sounded. “Okay.”
Ollie squeezed my thigh. “Close your eyes, Mia.”