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She believed him, even before he bent his head and brushed her lips in an achingly tender kiss. Incredibly, impossibly, she trusted this man who was no man. She wanted his hands on her. Wanted to feel this co
“It’s okay,” he murmured against her mouth. “You’re safe with me, I promise.”
Je
And now …?
Now she wasn’t sure where he fit in the confusion that remained of her life. She wasn’t ready to think about that. Nor was she at all certain she was ready to give in to the feelings he stirred in her.
She pulled back slightly, doubt and shame welling up from the part of her that was still in mourning, the open wound on her soul that she had long ago come to accept might never fully heal.
Pressing her forehead against the warm solidity of his chest, the soft cotton of his gray T-shirt laced with the exotic scent of him, Je
Brock’s hands skated lightly over her back as he held her, strong and compassionate, the steady calm she needed in order to relive those torturous moments when the Ancient had pressed her to decide her own fate.
“He made me choose, Brock. That last night in my cabin, I thought he was going to kill me, but he didn’t. I wouldn’t have fought him if he had. He knew that, I think.” She was sure of it, in fact. She had been in a bad place the night the Ancient invaded her cabin home. He’d seen the nearly empty bottle of whiskey on the floor beside her and the loaded pistol in her hand. The box of photographs she brought out every year around the a
Brock ground out something coarse under his breath, but his hands remained gentle against her back, a tender, soothing warmth.
“He made me choose,” she said, recalling every unbearable minute of her ordeal.
But even worse than the endless hours of imprisonment and being fed upon, the horror of realizing her captor was a creature not of this earth, was the awful moment when she heard her own voice rasp the words that seemed torn from the deepest, most shameful pit of her soul.
I want to live.
Oh, God … please, let me live.
I don’t want to die!
Je
When a sob caught her breath, Brock’s fingers brushed the underside of her chin. He lifted her face to meet his solemn gaze. “You survived,” he said, his voice firm yet infinitely tender. “That’s all you did. No one would blame you for that, especially them.”
She closed her eyes, feeling the weight of her regret ease a bit with his soothing words. But the void in her heart was a cold, empty place. One that gaped even wider as Brock gathered her close, comforting her. His warmth and caring seeped inside her skin like a balm, adding deeper emotion to the desire that hadn’t lessened for the nearness of his body to hers. She curled into the shelter of his arms, resting her cheek against the solid, unwavering strength of him.
“I can take it away, Je
There was a part of her that rebelled at the idea. The tough woman, the seasoned cop, the one who always charged to the front of any situation, recoiled at the notion that her grief could be too much for her to bear on her own. She had never needed a helping hand, nor would she be the one to ask—not ever. That kind of weakness would never do.
She drew back, denial sitting at the tip of her tongue. But when she parted her lips to speak, the words wouldn’t come. She stared up into Brock’s handsome face, into his penetrating dark eyes, which seemed to reach deep inside her.
“When was the last time you allowed yourself to be happy, Je
His large hand drifted down, along the side of her neck. Heat radiated from his broad palm and long fingers. Her pulse kicked as he cupped her nape, his thumb caressing the sensitive skin below her ear.
He brought her toward him then, tilting her face up to meet his. He kissed her, slow and deep. The unhurried melding of his mouth against hers sent a current of liquid heat arrowing through her veins. The fire pooled in the center of her, the raw core filling with bright, fierce longing.
“If this isn’t what you want,” he murmured against her lips, “then all you have to do is tell me. At any time, I’ll stop—”
“No.” She shook her head as she reached up to touch his strong jaw. “I do want this. I want you—so much right now, it’s scaring me half to death.”
His smile spread lazily, those sensual lips parting to reveal the white flash of his teeth—and the growing length of his fangs. Je
But she felt no fear. Rather, her mind recognized his transformation with an inexplicable sense of acceptance. Excitement, even, as the absorbing brown of his eyes began to glitter with fiery amber light.
Above the crewneck collar of his gray T-shirt and beneath the short sleeves that clung to the knotted bulge of his smoothly muscled biceps, Brock’s dermaglyphs pulsed with color. The Breed skin markings deepened from their usual dark bronze hue to shades of burgundy, gold, and deepest purple. Je
“Everything I thought I knew is different now,” she mused aloud as she stood in the circle of his arms, idly tracing the pattern of the glyphs that tracked down his thick forearm. “It’s all changed now. I’m changed—in ways I’m not sure will ever make sense to me.” She glanced up at him. “I’m not looking for more confusion in my life. I don’t think I could handle that on top of the rest of it.”
He held her stare, no judgment in his eyes, only patience and an aura of unerring control. “Are you confused right now, when I’m touching you … or when I’m kissing you?”
“No,” she said, astonished to realize it. “Not then.”
“Good.” He bent his head and claimed her mouth again, suckling her lower lip, catching it between his teeth as he stroked her back, then palmed his hands along the curve of her ass. He squeezed her possessively, hauling her electrified body up against the hard ridge of his groin. He nuzzled into the crook of her neck, his lips warm and wet on her skin. When he spoke again, his voice was thicker than before, edged with the same kind of need that was roaring through her. “Let yourself feel pleasure, Je