A Hidden Place

The upshot of it all was: Liza faded. She had heard other people use that expression. Faded. It was an odd word. It made her think of flowers left too long in a vase. She thought with some astonishment: I have faded.

And of course Faye Wilcox had stepped into the vacuum Liza had left; and now it was Faye who organized the letter campaigns, the library boycotts; now it was Faye everyone looked to for guidance.

But Faye had her own Achilles’ heel, Liza thought, suppressing a certain vindictive pleasure. She had that daughter of hers, who was quite notorious. Faye herself complained sometimes, though she was shrewd enough to blame it on the schools…

And now, Liza thought, Nancy Wilcox and Travis Fisher were going together.

“I suppose,” Liza said, “you’ve heard about Nancy and my sister’s boy?”

Faye adopted a stern equanimity. Her eyes were steely, buried in small effusions of flesh. “I know they’ve been seen together.”

“My goodness, hasn’t Nancy talked it over with you?”

“Nancy is not inclined to do that.” “Faye, that girl doesn’t appreciate what you do for her.”

Faye relaxed a little. “Indeed she does not. I’m sometimes grateful Martin isn’t alive to hear the back talk she gives me. It would break his heart.”

“You deserve better.”

“It’s in the Lord’s hands,” Faye Wilcox said primly. “And Travis? Have you had any trouble—?”

“Creath says he is unhappy at work. But no real trouble, no, thank God.”

“The times …” Faye Wilcox said.

“Oh, yes.”

“Of course, the boy’s mother …”

“Tragic.” Liza added, “I mean, her death.”

“One wonders if tendencies are inherited.”

“He is a hard worker, in spite of what Creath says. He seems quite stable here. The influence of the home counts for so much, don’t you think?”

Faye nodded grudgingly and brushed the air above her butter tarts. Flies buzzed.

“Still, it could be worse,” Liza said. “The two of them.”

Faye Wilcox gazed across the lawn, the baking asphalt street, her eyes unfocused.

“It could be,” she admitted.

There, Liza thought. It had been decided. In that strained admission, a truce. Nancy and Travis would be allowed to continue seeing each other.

It was, for both Liza and Faye, the best of the meager alternatives. Faye had accepted it… grudgingly, no doubt, for it returned to Liza a measure of control.

Now, Liza thought, now what does this mean? What does this portend for the future?

“Those tarts just look so good,” Liza said.

Faye held one out to her by the paper wrapper, an offering. “Please.”

“Thank you,” Liza said, biting deeply into the pastry.

The ripe sweetness of it exploded in her mouth.

Trav and Nancy made Friday night a regular thing. Twice, as the month crawled toward September, he met her on Saturday as well. When there was nothing at the Fox or the Rialto they walked up The Spur toward the railway depot or out to the wide, grassy fields where the Fresnel ran beyond the town. Nancy knew where the wild strawberry patches were, though the dry season had yielded very few berries. And, slowly, Travis had come to know Nancy.

He liked her. He harbored an admiration for her frankness, her outrageous willingness to defy convention. She had quite consciously put herself in a position Travis had long occupied against his will: outsider, loner—“misfit” was the word she liked to use. And that fascinated him. But it disturbed him, too, the lightheartedness of it, as if she were playing a game with something really quite dangerous, something she did not altogether understand… compromising her femininity with this reckless curiosity. He liked her, but in a strange way he was also afraid of her.

They had come to the strawberry fields again. The sun was going down now, the day’s heat begi

She held his hand, and her skin was warm and dry.

She said after a time, “You like that place? The Burack place?”

Travis shrugged. “It’s all right.”

“You don’t sound too enthusiastic.”

“I don’t have much choice. It’s a place to live.”

“You make money down at the plant?”

“Some.”

She smiled knowingly. “I bet that Creath Burack siphons off most of it for rent. Am I right?”

“He takes a share. I save a little.” She was leading up to something, Travis thought.

“How about that girl upstairs?”

“A

“She’s a big mystery, you know. Everybody talked about her for a while. Still do sometimes.”

“Really? She’s so quiet—”

“Travis, that’s a major crime in itself. But there’s more to it. There must be. Sure, she’s quiet. Nobody knows where she comes from or how she happened to end up in Haute Montagne. One day she was living at the Buracks’, that’s all anybody knows. But there are rumors. Man named Grant Bevis, used to live next door to your aunt and uncle, married man—he left town real quick not too long after A

“Haven’t you seen her?”

“Maybe I have. Maybe I haven’t. Do you think she’s beautiful?”

“Yes,” Travis said. “You talk to her much?”

“She comes down to di

In fact he had stayed a little longer, trying to make small talk. A

And he could not help thinking: why, why? How could she have compromised herself that way, and why did she seem in spite of it so pure?

A mystery, Nancy had said. Yes.

But he could tell her none of this.

“You like her,” Nancy said.

He pressed her hand. “I like you.”

She said airily, “I don’t believe in monogamous love. Does that shock you, Travis? I believe it’s possible to love more than one person. Even sexually. I believe—”

He touched her cheek and kissed her.

She moved her body closer to his.

They kissed until the sun was gone and the darkness had closed down around them. He was stroking her then, memorizing the feel of her body beneath the cotton dress, and it might have gone farther, might have reached a consummation Travis had only dared dream about… but she sat up suddenly, her wide eyes luminous in the last of the daylight, and said: “Travis! There’s somebody here!”

“You want a ride, Nancy?”

It was Greg Morrow. Nancy was able to make out his silhouette against the sky. He was big, his arms were prickled with black hairs, his angular face was a shadow. He hunched forward threateningly. And there was another shape looming behind him, one of Greg’s buddies, an illiterate millworker named Kluger.