A Hidden Place

Liza let the sermon flow over her. What mattered, she thought, was not the sense of the words but the sound of them, that diving and leaping of aimed syllables, arrows of God. It was the way, when she was a child, she had perceived her father’s gruff commands: incomprehensible but so authoritative. The thunder of wisdom. She closed her eyes.

She lost track of time over the course of the sermon. The larger cadences of it were like breaking waves, sin and redemption, heaven and hell, echoed in the sighs and moans of the congregation. Stirring at last, surfeited, she glanced at Creath, expecting to see the animal passivity that had so marked him these recent days. Instead, he was sweating, though the tent was still autumn-cool. His lip and forehead were covered with bright pinpricks of moisture. His eyes were large. Liza felt a stirring of alarm… was he ill? The doctor had said something about blood pressure… But there was an unmistakable attentiveness about him, too. He was listening. He leaned forward on the bench, intercepting the words with his body. It was the call to salvation, the sermon burning itself out in a fiery rush: “So many of you are enslaved,” the preacher shouted, “enslaved to drink, enslaved to lust, enslaved to every sin imaginable to man!”

She saw Creath mumble, “Yes”—and then watched, stu

The revival emptied out soon after, the crowd streaming away into the autumn night. Those with cars had parked in the big meadow behind the train station. Liza instructed Creath to meet her at the truck and hurried ahead. She did not want Faye Wilcox to get away unbloodied. “Faye!”

The Wilcox woman turned, her face constricted and flushed in the torchlight. She held her handbag in a two-fisted grip. Her knuckles were white.

“Liza,” she said.

“It was all so fine,” Liza said, “don’t you think?” “Yes.”

“The choir, the singing—” “Yes.”

“—the sermon—” “Yes. It was fine.” “Creath was very moved.” “I saw him, Liza.”

“Well, you must have. But what about Nancy?” The killing blow. “Is she ill? One hears such terrible stories—not that I give them any credence—”

But the Wilcox woman only turned and stalked away.

Liza felt a perverse flourish of pleasure. Let her go, she thought. It doesn’t matter. Let her go.

Anything is possible, Liza thought blissfully.

The switchman’s shack was a good quarter mile away, but if she listened closely Nancy could make out the murmur of voices from the tent revival. She reached for the door, and the beat of her pulse drowned out the singing.

“You came,” A

Nancy sighed, the sound of it closed up in the darkness of the shack. Travis’s words echoed through her mind. Not human. It made no sense… though there was, yes, that indefinable quality about her, a kind of ethereal lightness, a not-thereness. And that quality had grown more intense over the last week. She was paler than ever. A strong light, Nancy thought, might shine right through her. “It wasn’t easy getting away.”

“Your mother?”

“There’s a tent revival in town. You know about tent revivals?” “I’ve heard.”

Her eyes, Nancy thought. The stillness and wideness of them. “I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up. She wanted me to go with her. It was important to her. If I don’t go it makes her look bad. She begged. And threatened.”

“She could hurt you?”

“Not physically. Not anymore. I guess she could kick me out of the house. Might—if it comes to that.”

A

“I would have gone with her tonight. But you said it was important.”

“It is.”

The silence stretched out. Nancy said, “I saw Travis, too.” “I’m sorry about Travis.” “He asked for an explanation. I couldn’t give him one.” “I know.”

“He said—” She licked her lips. “He said you weren’t human.” “Nancy—?” “Yes?” “I’m not.”

The shack was very dark indeed. Only a faint beam of moonlight played through the gaps in the wallboards. From far away Nancy heard the sweet massed voices of the revival choir. She said carefully, “I don’t understand.” Fear had uncoiled like a spring inside her.

“Travis saw too much too soon … he didn’t understand either. But now you must. I’ll need your help tonight.”

“I don’t know what you mean!”

“Shh.” The voice was soothing now. Motherly. Nancy’s heart beat in her chest… but she stayed. She did not run.

A

“I am,” she said, her voice cadenced and singing, “a long, long way from home. …”

After dark Travis worked his way along the river-bank to the switchman’s shack.

He was not sure what had brought him. A restlessness. An unease. A need to once more see—like the tongue’s need to probe an aching tooth. The night was cold, and the stars arched overhead in a cruelly vacant sky.

She is a witch. A monster. Not human.

He thought of Creath sneaking up the stairs, seduced by her femaleness.

She was that debased thing his mother had become, he thought, tainted by her sex, but worse, a hundred times worse…

Mama, I’ll protect you, said the six-year-old in him.

His head had become a cacophony of voices. But this one does not need protection, Travis thought.

The door of the shack gaped open then, and Travis hid himself among the fragile ruins of the summer’s pussy willows. Two figures in the moonlight. He recognized Nancy at once. The shape leaning against her could only be A

It was true, then. What he had seen a week ago was not an hallucination. She was changing. She was not human.

But surely Nancy must be able to see that?

They were squatting at the riverside now, Nancy sponging the A

Changing, Travis thought. Though not precisely the way he had expected.

He squinted at the faint figure of A

If this goes on, he thought dazedly, then soon, soon, there would be nothing left of A

Chapter Ten

Nancy was not sure precisely when or how the fear had descended on the town. She knew only that it had come. The Courier was full of frightening headlines. Doors were more often locked. She was apt to be scrutinized when she was out after dark. The Depression had deepened; in Idaho the farmers had set up blockades, dairy farmers had spilled their milk into the road rather than sell it for two cents a gallon. In Washington the Bonus Expeditionary Force had been routed by the Army. A murderous contagion was abroad in the land, and Haute Montagne was sealing its borders.

She had never felt more alone. This is what it means, Travis had told her, and it seemed like infinities ago. This is what it means to be a misfit.

Nancy lay on the rosette bedspread in her room. Her mother kept the small house meticulously neat. They were not rich, but her mother’s job at the bakery was much envied, and she earned enough to keep them. Until recently, too, there had been Nancy’s salary from the Times Square. But that was gone. Mr. O’Neill had not forgiven her for walking out before the di