A Bridge of Years

She took these walks almost every day and before long she began to feel a little braver. She ranged farther than Gram Peggy had ever taken her. Some of this woodland was municipal property, and farther east it had been staked out by the timber interests, but nobody up along the Post Road cared too much about property lines and Catherine was able to wander fairly freely. Most days she hiked south down the slope of the hill, keeping east of the road and the houses.

She bought a guidebook and taught herself to identify some of the wildlife. She had seen a salamander, a thrush, and something she believed was a “pileated woodpecker.” There was the tantalizing possibility of encountering a black bear, though that hadn’t happened yet. Sometimes she brought her lunch with her; sometimes she carried a sketchbook.

She had already found favorite places in the woods. There was a meadow where she could sit on a fallen log and gaze across a thicket of salal and huckleberry, where the forest sloped away toward Belltower. There was a sandy spot by a creek where she thought she might scatter Gram Peggy’s ashes. And another meadow, farther south, riddled with deer trails, where an abandoned woodshed sagged under a growth of moss.

The woodshed fascinated her. There was something inviting about the cockeyed slant of the door. Surely there was nothing inside, Catherine told herself; or only a cord of moldy firewood. But then again there might be an old plough or spi

She had this thought vaguely in mind Wednesday morning, her second week in Belltower, when she packed a bag lunch and went wandering. It was a warm day and she was sweating by the time she passed the creek. She pressed on south, paused to tie her hair up off her neck, hiked past the huckleberry thicket and on down to the woodshed in its su

She approached the door of the ancient structure, high-stepping through berry-bush ru

It seemed to her she could hear faint motion inside.

Curiosity killed the cat, Gram Peggy used to say. But she always added the less salutary rider—Satisfaction brought it back. Gram Peggy had been a big believer in satisfied curiosity.

So Catherine opened the creaking woodshed door and peered inside, where a stack of newspapers had moldered for decades, and where something hideous moved and spoke in the darkness.

Eleven

How did it feel to begin life over again, thirty years in the past?

Giddy, Tom thought. Strange. Exhilarating.

And—more often now—frightening.

It wasn’t clear to him when or why the fear had started. Maybe it had been there all along, a subtler presence than now. Maybe it had started when he moved into the house on the Post Road, a steady counterpoint to all the raucous events since. Maybe he’d been born with it.

But it wasn’t fear, exactly; it was a kind of systematic disquiet … and he felt it most profoundly on a hot Thursday afternoon in July, when he could have sworn, but couldn’t prove, that somebody followed him from Lindner’s Radio Supply to Larry Millstein’s apartment.

The day had gone well. Since he’d taken this job Tom had turned in enough reliable work that Max mainly left him alone. The cavernous back room of Lindner’s had begun to feel homey and familiar. Hot days like this, he tipped open the high leaded windows to let the alley breezes through. He was working on a Fisher amplifier a customer had brought in; the output tube had flashed over and one of the power-supply electrolytics was leaking. The capacitors were oil-filled, the kind eliminated under an EPA edict—some years in the future—for their PCB content. The danger, at least at this end of the manufacturing process, was far from mortal. At lunch, Max asked him why he kept the fan so close to his work. “I don’t like the smell,” Tom said.

Toxins aside, Tom had developed a respect for these old American radios and amplifiers. The up-market models were simple, well built, and substantial—the sheer weight of them was sometimes astonishing. Iron-core transformers, steel chassis, oak cabinets, a pleasure to work with. The job was underpaid and offered absolutely no opportunity for advancement, but for Tom it functioned as therapy: something pleasant to do with his hands and a paycheck at the end of the week.

And still—long since the novelty should have worn off— he would look up from his soldering at the calendar on the wall, where the year 1962 was inscribed over a picture of a chunky woman in a lime-green one-piece bathing suit, and he would feel a dizzy urge to laugh out loud.

What was time, after all, except a lead-footed march from the precincts of youth into the country of the grave? Time was the force that crumbled granite, devoured memory, and seduced infants into senility—as implacable as a hanging judge and as poetic as a tank. And yet, here he was—almost thirty years down a road that shouldn’t exist; in the past, where nobody can visit.

He was no younger than he had been and he was nothing like immortal. But time had been suborned and that made him happy.

“You’re always looking at that calendar,” Max said. “I think you’re in love with that girl.”

“Head over heels,” Tom said.

“That’s the calendar from Mirvish’s. They use the same picture every year. Every summer since 1947, the same girl in the same bathing suit. She’s probably an old lady now.”

“She’s a time traveler,” Tom said. “She’s always young.”

“And you’re a fruitcake,” Max explained. “Please, go back to work.”

Certain other implications of this time travel business had not escaped him.

It was 1962 in New York. Therefore it was 1962 all over the country—all over the world, in fact; therefore it was 1962 in Belltower, Washington, and both his parents were alive.

Somewhere in the Great Unwinding—perhaps at step number forty-eight or sixty-three or one hundred twenty-one in the tu

In 1962, in Belltower, a young GP named Winter had recently opened a residential practice serving the middle-class neighborhood north of town. His wife had borne him two sons; the younger, Tommy, had his fourth birthday coming up in November.

They are all living in the big house on Poplar Street, Tom thought, with Daddy’s offices downstairs and living quarters up. If I went there, I could see them. Big as fife.

He pictured them: his father in a black Sunday suit or medical whites, his mother in a floral print dress, and between them, maybe a yard high in baby Keds, something unimaginable: himself.

One morning when Joyce was off doing restaurant work and he was home feeling a little lonely, he picked up the telephone and dialed the long-distance operator. He said he wanted to place a call to Belltower, Washington, to Dr. Winter’s office on Poplar Street. The phone rang three times, a distant buzzing, and a woman answered. My mother’s voice. It was a paralyzing thought. What could he possibly say?

But it wasn’t his mother. It was his father’s nurse, Miss Trudy Valasquez, whom he dimly remembered: an immense Hispanic woman with orthopedic shoes and peppermint breath. Dr. Winter was out on call, she said, and who was this, anyway?

“It’s nothing urgent,” Tom said. “I’ll try again later.”