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He doesn’t say anything, but I can hear rustling around in the background. Is he with her now?
“Li –”
“Josie, what the fuck are you talking about?”
“This guy called and asked if I could confirm that you filed for divorce.”
“And what did you say?”
“What does it matter? Answer the question, Liam. Do you want a divorce?”
“Goddamn it, Jojo. Why the fuck would I want a divorce? Do you really think I’d go to some slime ball fucking reporter to tell them before I talked to you first? Is that what you think of me?”
“No, but the pictures I saw…”
Whatever Liam was doing, he’s now still. There’s nothing but static air between us.
“Liam?”
“What?”
“Do you love her?”
“Are you fucking kidding me?” He yells into the phone. “How many times I have I told you never to read those shitty ass columns?”
“That doesn’t discount the fact that you kissed her!” I fire back.
“I DIDN’T FUCKING KISS HER!” He’s yelling something in the background that I can’t understand. “For fuck’s sake, I gave her a hug. She jumped into my arms when I opened the door and those sorry excuses for humans took a bunch of pictures. Those bastards did everything they could to change the images around. It was a hug.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I don’t know. I knew I should’ve, but it’s sort of hard to explain over the phone and I kind of counted on you not looking at the tabloids. Every excuse I have is stupid. But Jojo, you need to listen to me... and listen good... I love you. I am one hundred percent committed to you. I’m committed to our family. You’re the only woman I think about, baby. I don’t like doing this shit over the phone, Josie, and I really hate that you’ve been crying.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Good, you should be. If you can’t trust me, how are we going to survive? All they’re doing is testing you, trying to make you break. I promise you, if at any time I’m not happy, I’ll tell you, just as I expect you to do the same for me.”
“I’m so scared I’m going to lose you,” I tell him through sobs.
“The only way I’m leaving is if you’re telling me to.”
He knows that will never happen, unless he does something stupid and I’m left with no choice. Before we hang up, he tells me that he loves me and that he plans to video chat after Noah goes to bed because he’s all worked up and needs to see my boobs. I can’t help but laugh.
I startle awake and drop my phone onto my face. I must’ve fallen asleep after Liam and I hung up earlier. I hit the home button to see if I’ve missed any calls. I missed one, but not from Liam. Aubrey called. I press her name and wait for the call to co
“Josie, thanks for calling me back.”
“Of course.”
I leave our bedroom and walk down the stairs. I’m not sure how long I was out for, but it’s dark out and I can faintly hear the TV.
“I spoke with Meredith earlier and… Oh, Josie, there’s no easy way to say this... but she’s decided to keep the baby herself.”
I stop dead in my tracks and squeeze the phone even tighter. “What?”
Aubrey covers the phone, talking to whoever else is in the room. It’s likely Nick, and I hope she’s not sharing this news with him, although the chances are she’s already told him.
“The boyfriend, he’s back and wants to marry her. I had to give her all the options and encouraged her to make the right choice for the baby. I told her that a new marriage could be hard with a newborn, but she’s adamant and came by the office today to withdraw her consent for adoption.”
“Oh…”
“I have others that will be suitable –”
“No, Aubrey. It’s okay. Liam’s not home and I… its okay, Aubrey. Thanks for calling.” I hang up and sit on the steps. There are no tears left to shed and after the day I’ve had, I’m completely numb.
Bianca appears in the bottom of the steps, she peers around the corner. I can’t tell if she’s gauging my reaction to her standing there or not. I try and smile, letting her know its okay to come and talk. If she’s here putting in an effort, I will also. “Are you okay?”
“That was Aubrey, which means Nick is on his way over.” I take a deep breath. “The baby Liam and I were adopting… his mother has decided to keep him.” I shake my head, and watch as a tear falls from her eye.
“I’m so sorry, Josie.”
“Me too.”
“But hey, Noah still gets a sibling because Nick and Aubrey are having a baby.” I shrug as if it’s no big deal. I’m effectively the most defective mother on the planet. Can’t conceive and can’t adopt.
The doorbell rings and Noah is ru
“Nick!”
“Noah!”
They exchange high-fives, and Noah offers me one as he flies by me, heading up the stairs. I’m getting the impression that Nick has asked Noah to spend the night, and while I should balk, right now he knows I’m not going to.
Their enthusiasm makes me want to hurl. I know he means well, but his happy attitude is not welcomed in my house right now. We make eye contact when he closes the door. His mega-watt smile drops when he sees Bianca. I know what he’s thinking, and he has every right to.
“Bianca, this is Nick. Nick, Bianca. I don’t think you guys have officially met.”
Bianca steps forward and holds out her hand. Nick does the same. The handshake is quick and very cordial.
“My grandson speaks very highly of you, and I must say that I’m very appreciative that you stepped up when my husband and I didn’t. Thank you.”
I think both my mouth and Nicks are matching as they hang open in shock.
“It was my pleasure. Noah’s a great kid.”
Noah the Great is bounding down the stairs, sounding like a herd of elephants. He kisses me on the cheek and plants one on Bianca too, much to her surprise.
“Where are you going?” I ask with a fake attitude.
“Nick asked me to spend the night. It’s cool, right?”
I nod. Even though I want to sleep with Noah in my arms tonight, he’d be better off with Nick and Aubrey.
“I’ll be out in a minute,” Nick tells Noah, who dashes out the door without even a second glance.
“Aubrey and I would like to take him for a few days, give you a chance to go see Liam.”
I shake my head. “I won’t miss his game.”
“You won’t have to. There’s been some field damage, so the game is pushed back a week.”
“You should go, Josie,” Bianca pipes up. I scowl at her, letting her know it’s not okay to be on Team Nick right now.
“Aubrey will even fill in at the café.”
“I can’t. I already told Je
Nick comes over and stands in front of me. He cups my cheeks, just like he used to do when we dated. “Josie, it pains me to say this, but you need to go see Liam. You need to grieve with him and not bottle it up. I know you, and sadly he’s the same way. Talk to him.”
He kisses me on the forehead and tells Bianca it was nice to meet her. As soon as the door shuts, she’s sitting on the step below me. She’s been here for hours and she doesn’t have a hair out of place or one wrinkle in her clothes.
“When Sterling refused to let me leave, I stopped communicating. I wasn’t a good example for my son and know that he struggled with how to express himself. Please don’t make the same mistakes I did. Go to California and be with him.”
The thought of being in his arms as early as tomorrow is very appealing, but the thought of showing up with bad news isn’t. We just had a major fight, and as much as I want to be with him, seeing him there isn’t my idea of a good time. I’ll have to compete with everyone for his attention and that would be a first for me. I’m not sure I could handle it.
“I’ll think about it.”
Bianca stands and straightens out her skirt. “Thank you for tonight, Josie. It really means a lot to me, and I know I don’t deserve your hospitality.”