American Assassin

“Yes.”

“I’m not sure I’d call it high-stress, sir.”

Stansfield’s eyes sparkled with amusement. “You snuck into a foreign country using a false identity, killed a man at close range, and then made it out of the country all on your own. You didn’t find any of that stressful?”

“The getting-out part … maybe a little, but really only getting out of Istanbul. After that the odds of getting caught were pretty low.”

“Why did you decide to act on your own?”

“I didn’t go to Istanbul thinking that I would handle the job on my own. It happened. It evolved. I saw the opportunity and I took it.”

“What do you mean you saw the opportunity?” Stansfield was keenly interested in the young man’s next words.

“I read the surveillance briefing that the Brits gave us…”

Stansfield held up his hand and stopped him. “Who told you the Brits gave us that report?”

“No one.”

“Then why did you say the Brits gave it to us?”

Rapp shrugged as if to say it was obvious. “I could tell by the way it was written.”

Stansfield nodded for him to continue and made a mental note to revisit the subject later.

“I read the report and there it was … it jumped right off the page.”

“There what was?”

“The opportunity. The report said that the target took his dog to the park every morning. He sat on a park bench and talked on his cell phone while he threw a ball to his little dog.” Rapp turned his palms up and said, “How does it get any easier than that? No bodyguards to deal with, no drivers or armor-plated cars, no security cameras … very few witnesses, and the few who are around are busy living their own lives.”

“And it didn’t occur to you to pass this information on to Stan?”

“It did, but it also seemed like it was too good to pass up.”

“If you’d brought it to Stan, you wouldn’t have been passing it up.”

“You’re not serious.”

“Completely.”

“If I had brought my idea to Stan he would have called me a moron and told me to shut my mouth.”

The young recruit was probably right. “Stan is very good at this type of thing. This is not his first dance.”

“So I’ve been told,” Rapp said, unimpressed.

“You have some problems with Hurley, I hear.”

“Who doesn’t?”

The point was more accurate than not. “Still … he has a lengthy resume.”

“I’m sure he does, but the entire thing was more complicated than it needed to be. The whole idea here is that we are supposed to get in, get it done, and get out without anyone noticing we were there. If we’d stuck with Stan’s plan, we would have followed the guy around for five days and come to the same conclusion that was right there in the Brit report, and our odds of screwing up somewhere … being noticed … would have increased fivefold at least.”

He was probably right, but Stansfield didn’t tell him so. He would have to deal with Hurley later. “When did you read the report?”

“When I got to the safe house.”

“That first night.”

“Yes.”

“And you decided that night that you would handle it on your own?”

“No … I saw the possibility, that was all.”

“And when you decided to go to the park armed the next morning?”

“I thought there was a chance. I wanted to see with my own eyes and then decide.”

“But when you left the safe house you were prepared to kill him if the opportunity presented itself?”

Rapp hesitated and then admitted the truth. “Yes.”

Stansfield took a sip of the coffee and slowly set the mug on the table. “Any other reason why you chose to act on your own?”

“How do you mean?”

Stansfield gave him a knowing grin. “I was your age once … a long time ago. I was asked to do certain things for my country, and until I actually did them, I wasn’t sure I had it in me.”

Rapp looked down and studied the pattern in the gray-and-black carpeting. It was not in his character to be this open with someone he’d just met, especially on a subject like this, but there was something about this guy that made it difficult to be anything but forthright. “I wanted to kill him,” he finally said.

“Revenge?”

Rapp shrugged his shoulders in a noncommittal way.

“Remember … we recruited you for a reason. I know what you went through. I know how you were affected by Pan Am Lockerbie.”

“Revenge, justice … I don’t know. I just know when I left for the park that morning I wasn’t sure, and then as soon as I laid eyes on him I wanted to kill the bastard. I was sick of all the pla

Stansfield took off his glasses and looked at Rapp with his gray-blue eyes. “Any other reason that may have pushed you over the edge?”

Rapp looked at the carpeting again. He hadn’t even admitted the next part to himself. At least not fully. Without looking up he said in a soft voice, “I was afraid I wouldn’t have the guts to do it.”

With the understanding of someone who had walked the same path, Stansfield gave him a sympathetic nod. It had been a long time since Stansfield had killed a man, but he remembered the doubt that gnawed at him until he pulled that trigger for the first time. “How do you feel now?”

“How do you mean?”

“Now that you have taken a human life?”

Rapp gave a nervous laugh and checked his watch. “Do you have a few hours?”

“You know laughter is often a defense mechanism used to deflect.”

Rapp thought of Doc Lewis. “I’ve heard that somewhere else recently.”

“This isn’t a good time to deflect.”

Rapp noticed the concern on the old man’s lined face. He fidgeted with his hands and then said, “This isn’t exactly a topic I’m used to discussing.”

“No … you’re right about that.” Stansfield himself had never spoken to a soul about the men he had killed. It simply wasn’t his way. There were others, though, whom he had worked with over the years, who were quite different in that regard. Some spoke with an intensity that was more academic, as if they were simply trying to perfect their craft for the sake of perfection. Others took a more lighthearted or twisted approach to their play-by-play analysis of how they had killed a man. The best ones, Stansfield had always felt, were the ones who kept it to themselves.

“This is very important,” Stansfield said. “How are you up here?” The old man tapped his temple.

“I think I’m fine.”

“No problem sleeping?”

“No, in fact I’ve slept better than I have in years.”

“Good. I want you to understand something very important. Hamdi Sharif chose to get into the arms business, and he knowingly sold weapons to terrorist groups that were going to use those weapons to kill i

“I know.”

“I am every bit as responsible as you for his death.”

Rapp frowned and gave him a look that said he wasn’t quite buying it.

Stansfield had expected that. “Who do you think sent you on that operation?”

“I don’t know.”

“I did. I was the judge and the jury. You were merely the executioner. Never forget that.” He spoke with intensity for the first time in the entire conversation. He was almost pleading for Rapp to grasp the gravity of what he was saying.

Finally Rapp nodded, even though he wasn’t sure he fully grasped the man’s meaning.

Stansfield stood and said, “Why don’t you go home now?”

“What about their decision?”

“Don’t worry. I’ll smooth things out. Just try not to cause any problems for the next few months.”

CHAPTER 27

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With pure disappointment, Stansfield glared down the length of the table, first at Hurley, who was on the left, and then at Ke