Redemption Road

“So am I . . . as long as you trust me.”

I smiled up at him. “Of course I trust you.”

But when his body loomed over mine, a prickly panic crawled its way over my skin. Although I had managed to push my rapists out of my head, it seemed now that they had found a way to claw their way back in with the intent of ruining what I had with Rev. I am safe. I have a choice, and I choose this.

As if he sensed my growing panic, Rev rolled off me. When I started to protest that I wanted to continue, he gripped me by the hips and pulled me up to straddle him. “Take me, A

Moisture tinged my eyes at his words and his offering. He wanted to do everything within his power to enable me to conquer this first time. I rose up to grip his erection in my trembling hand. When I brought it to my center, I momentarily faltered when I began to take him inside me.

Rev’s hands sought mine. After intertwining our fingers, he said, “Look at me, babe. It’s only me and you here. Only love.”

Gazing into his determined eyes, I found the courage I needed. I eased farther down on his cock, taking him deeper inside me. Once I was full of him, I sat for a moment, just staring at him. “I love you,” he murmured.

“I love you, too,” I whispered. As I looked into his beautiful blue eyes, I realized it was just the two of us in this room—him and me. Two people who loved each other with all their flaws and weaknesses. I wasn’t having sex with a stranger; I was being made love to. It wasn’t a harsh and vile act forced upon me without my consent. I welcomed the feel of his hands, his fingers, and his tongue on my skin. Most of all, I was taking his cock into my body, not having him take me. His expression wasn’t cruel or vicious. Instead, it was filled with lust, love, and a possession of a different type. Because of all those things, I could do this. I wanted this.

I rose up and came back down on him. The feeling of being with him was overwhelming. It was a co

As I sped up the tempo of my movements, I released Rev’s hands so that I could place my palms on his chest. He groaned in pleasure as I rode him harder and faster. He was so beautiful laid out before me, his eyes closed, his teeth biting into his lip.

He raised his hips to meet mine, our slick skin meeting in a desperate rhythm. I had never come through sex before, and after what had happened to me, I doubted I ever would. But when Rev’s hand came to stroke and tease my clit, I felt a building pressure I had never experienced before with a man inside me.

The harder I rode Rev, the harder he stroked me. I dug my fingernails into his chest as I felt the tiny shudders of an orgasm. It wasn’t the same as the ones in the shower, but it was still momentous to me. Tears stung my eyes at the realization of how wonderful it had been. And as Rev’s orgasm had him calling out my name and coming inside me, I collapsed onto his chest, my head falling against his rapidly beating heart.

EIGHTEEN

REV

I had been with a lot of women. Most of them I knew, but then there were some whose names I didn’t even know. I had also had all kinds of sex, but until I was with A

As we lay in the dark, I could tell A

Turning to her, I asked, “What are you thinking about?”

“It’s silly, really.”

“Don’t undermine your feelings that way,” I argued.

She gave a little snort of a laugh. “You sound just like my therapist.”

With a smile, I said, “Then tell Dr. Rev what you’re feeling.” Nudging her thigh with my leg, I added, “No matter how silly or strange you think it is.” When she still remained silent, I couldn’t help asking her about what was on my own mind. “Do you regret what we just did?”

Her eyes widened. “No. Never.”

“I’ll understand if you’re having second thoughts.”

A

While my chest swelled with male pride, I fought to keep my face clear of any dickhead smirking. “Really?”

A

I laughed. “My i

“Thank you, Rev. Thank you for everything, but most of all for loving me.”

“Now, what was it you were so lost in thought about?”

She propped one of her hands on her elbow and stared into my eyes. “I was just wondering if you ever had to conquer sex like I just did.”

“That’s not a silly question at all. All victims of rape and molestation have to go through separating their past from their present, including me.”

“What happened with you?” she questioned softly.

Although I really didn’t want to dredge up painful memories of the past, I was willing to do it for A

A

“Well, she didn’t get paid for it, and she certainly wanted to deflower me.” I chuckled when I thought back to being that scared but horny-as-hell sixteen-year-old. “Apparently there were a lot of the girls who wanted to get their hands on me, but she won the luck of the draw.”

“Really?”

I nudged her playfully. “You act so surprised that I had women clamoring to get in my pants, yet you wanted to do me,” I countered with a grin.

She giggled. “I didn’t mean it to come out that way. I can certainly see why you had so many women wanting you.” She leaned forward to bestow a kiss on my lips. When she pulled away, she blushed.

“What is it?”

“I was just wondering how it was.”

“With the club whore?”

“Yes.”

“For a sixteen-year-old kid who practically had calluses from jacking off, it was pretty fucking amazing.”

“Ew!” A

“You asked,” I countered.

“I kinda wish now I hadn’t.”

“Looking back, I can call it amazing, but at the time, it was also really awkward. Really the only thing that improved it for me was practice.”

Cocking her head at me, A

“Hmm, you think I’m perfect, huh? I think my caveman is going to beat my chest in with pride.”

A

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