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Dammit, she was having a hard time resisting this. God knows if he really were a cowboy, she’d take him up on his offer in a snap. But he wasn’t. So she crossed her arms over her chest and shot him a skeptical look. “Cowboy wisdom?”
“That’s right. Such as, don’t squat with your spurs on.”
Toni considered, then nodded. “Makes sense.”
“Always drink upstream from the herd. If you’re riding ahead of the herd, look back once in a while to make sure it’s still there. Never slap a man who’s chewing tobacco.” He gave a solemn nod. “Yes, ma’am, words to live by.” He pushed the gift card closer to her and lowered his voice. “Have di
The heat in his eyes, the intimacy in his tone, touched something deep inside Toni. Something she didn’t want touched. Especially not by him. For three years she’d never once wavered from her resolve to avoid firefighters. Had never been even remotely tempted to do so. The fact that she was now so sorely tempted confused and irritated her. And actually scared her. And on top of that, the timing was all wrong. She simply didn’t have time for this. For him. For anyone.
She pushed the gift card back. “Look, I appreciate the effort you’ve put in here, but-”
“So have di
She had to force herself to shake her head. Force herself to say, “No. Thank you, but no. And I recall the rest of our earlier conversation. Please don’t show up here dressed as a circus clown. This is very flattering, but the answer is still no.”
He heaved a sigh and slipped the gift card back in his pocket. “Well, as they say on the ranch, if you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop digging.” He tipped his hat, then without another word, turned and loped out of the store.
“Okay, that does it,” Jayne said, reaching for the phone. “I’m calling the men in the white coats. You’re totally certifiable. You must have a lump of granite where your heart belongs. Not to mention rocks in your head to turn him down.”
“I’m sure you mean that in the nicest way,” Toni said, unable to keep the traces of hurt and a
“Actually, I don’t. Look, I understand your aversion to firefighters-”
“Thank you. Because it doesn’t seem as if you do.”
Jayne reached out and clasped Toni’s hand. “I really do, sweetie. And I agree with you. What happened to you was awful and wrong and very, very hurtful. You have every right to feel the way you do. But in this particular case, I think you’re making a mistake to pile Brad into the same category as those idiots you worked with. They’re the ones who hurt you-not Brad. He seems really sweet and sincere, and God knows, he’s sexy as hell. And obviously he has a sense of humor. How many times have I heard you say you’d love to meet a man with a sense of humor?”
“And I would. Someday. Not now. And never, if he’s a firefighter.”
“It’s only di
A humorless sound escaped Toni. “A simple meal. The problem is I somehow don’t think it would remain simple. And that…scares me.” There. She’d said it out loud.
“Of course it could be simple-if that’s what you want.”
“You really think I should have said yes?”
“Yes. I really think you should have. Maybe he’s a really great guy whose only fault is saving people’s lives for a living. That beast.”
“Maybe he’s a real jerk.”
“Maybe. Don’t you want to know? I know I would.”
Toni pulled in a long breath. Dammit, she did want to know. She didn’t want to want to know, but she did. Which was really a
“What if I discover he isn’t a jerk?”
“Would that really be so terrible?” Jayne asked, her big blue eyes filled with compassion.
“Yes. No.” Toni raked her hands through her curls. “I don’t know. I have so much on my plate right now, with the shop and upcoming bank review-I need a man like I need a bad rash.”
“I disagree. After six months with no sex, I think a man is exactly what you need. A few man-induced orgasms would be a perfect Christmas gift to give yourself.”
Toni refused to consider how perfect a few man-induced orgasms would be. “If he isn’t a jerk…I’m afraid…I don’t want to end up liking a guy whose occupation would remind me every day of something I’ve worked very hard to put behind me and forget.”
“Well, as I said before, it isn’t necessary that you marry the guy. Again-you haven’t had sex in six months.”
“Way to rub it in.”
“I’m just stating a fact.” Jayne grabbed the calendar from the bag beneath the counter and flashed Mr. December’s picture. “If that’s not enough to make you want to end your sexless streak, you don’t have a pulse.”
Toni grabbed the calendar and shoved it back beneath the counter. “Fine. He’s hot. Fine. I’m horny. Doesn’t matter since he’s gone and won’t be back. It’s for the best.” Right. Completely for the best.
“But if he came back?”
“He won’t. I was very clear.”
“But if he did?” Jayne persisted.
“If he did, then I’d-”
The door opened and the jingling bell cut off her words. She turned and her pulse stuttered as Brad, dressed, she guessed, as himself, in jeans and a green polo shirt, entered. With his gaze steady on hers, he approached the counter. God help her, he looked good enough to eat. An image instantly popped into her mind. Of her ru
“It occurred to me,” he said when he stood in front of her, “that you never mentioned a teacher.”
Toni had to swallow to find her voice. “Teacher?”
He nodded. “In addition to being a firefighter, I’m also a teacher. At the Ocean Harbor Beach Community College.”
“What do you teach?”
“An Emergency Medical Technician training course. I worked as an EMT before joining the fire department. I teach on my off days.”
“I see…Professor.”
He flashed a grin then pulled out the now-very-familiar gift card from his back pocket and set it on the counter. “Another cowboy bit of wisdom is-when you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. So that’s what I’m doing.” He nudged the card toward her. “Have di
Dammit. Her resolve was melting like chocolate left in the sun. “How do you know so much about cowboy wisdom?”
“I spent three summers during high school working on my uncle’s ranch in Wyoming. I’d be happy to tell you all about it over di
“Are you always this persistent?”
All traces of amusement faded from his eyes, which now looked more green than blue thanks to his shirt. “No.”
That single softly spoken word rendered a direct hit to her rapidly weakening resolve.
“And just so you know,” he continued, “I can keep this up for a while. I have the next two days off.”
“What about your class?”
“The semester ended last week. School doesn’t start again until after the new year.” He nudged the card closer to her. “So…are you free tonight? Please say yes. I really don’t want to come back here dressed as a circus clown.”
Her lips twitched. “Would you?”
His gaze dipped to her mouth and heat flared in his eyes. Heat that sizzled over to her like an electric current and whooshed straight to her core. He raised his eyes to hers. “Yes, I would.”
Somehow resisting the urge to wave her hand in front of her flushed face, she fixed him with a hard stare. “Just one di
Relief flickered in his eyes. “One di
Might as well make it tonight and get it over with, she decided. Surely this one ill-advised meal that she a