Recoil

She didn’t speak to him again. After a moment he left the shack and walked down the hill. Roger was moving around with the camera, telling people where to stand and what to do. It was apparent that the newcomers were baffled: He was disguising his voice and they had not quite recognized him behind the beard but his presence, as always, was commanding.

As Mathieson approached he saw the camera swing toward him. He looked straight into the lens and felt atavistic rage; he hoped it showed.

Homer was distributing coffee in plastic containers. His face under the stocking mask looked weirdly distorted. Mathieson took a cup of coffee and sipped it; he looked up and found the tripod-mounted camera pa

Roger locked the camera in position, left it ru

Benson said, “You mean this is all you want from us? Just some film of us standing around drinking coffee?”

“It’ll do the job,” Mathieson said.

John Fusco snorted. “You’re a little crazy if you think Frank Pastor’s going to get scared out of his shoes just by seeing some movies of the four of us together. He was never scared of us before. Why should he start now?”

“Because we never organized ourselves against him before. We were always solitary targets. I want to convince him we’re unified against him.”

He went across to the porch of one of the half-decomposed buildings and picked up the stack of placards. While he carried them back to the group he saw Roger setting up the camera above the road. It wasn’t cranking.

He put the placards down. “I doubt any of you has much experience with cue cards but we’ve got a few lines for each of you to read. You’ll be on camera while you talk but I want to rehearse these performances before we put them on film. It’ll have the best effect if it doesn’t look like you’re reading the lines. Try to be as natural as you can. If you can’t get your mouth around the wording, put it in your own words. All right, let’s start with Walter.”

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

New Jersey: 10–14 November

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HE SAT HUDDLED BY THE BOATHOUSE ON THE PIER, THE COLD wind shot sprays of foam off the lake into his face; he sat with his arms wrapped around his knees and did not move when he heard the car enter the driveway.

He heard the front door slam. Homer bringing in the groceries. Mathieson didn’t stir.

The sun filtered weakly through a brittle haze. Pointed reflections ran along the surface of the water. All around the lake the trees were stark and bare. On the far shore a boy rode his bicycle along the road. There was no other sign of life.

It was a while before he was disturbed. He heard the glass doors slide open and someone’s footsteps on the path.

“Time to feed Mrs. Pastor, I believe.” Vasquez.

He didn’t move.

Vasquez’s hand fell on his shoulder. “Come on, get up. You’ll catch pneumonia.”

He shook the hand off.

“Don’t be silly, Mr. Merle.”

When he still didn’t look up Vasquez sat down beside him. “Having second thoughts, are you?”

“Everybody’s entitled to a mood now and then.”

“You’re a thousand miles past the point where you could have turned back, if that’s what you’re contemplating. Think of your own wife—what will happen to her if you don’t carry it through. Your own child as well.”

“I had no idea she’d be pregnant, Diego.” His speech sounded rusty in his own ears: slow, painful, searching for words. “An i

“I’m sure Genghis Khan was i

“Don’t patronize me with ad-lib aphorisms.”

“Come on, Mr. Merle, it’s time to take her supper to her before it gets cold. Or give me the key and I’ll be waiter tonight.”

“No. I’m the only one who goes in there.”

“As you wish.”

He got to his feet; suddenly he was very cold. He began to shiver.

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He rubbed his eyes and watched the mixture cook up on the stove. When it was heated he drew it up carefully into the syringe. He switched off the heat.

He felt the others’ eyes on him when he carried the syringe through the hallway, holding it up ahead of him like a uniformed doctor. With his free hand he turned the keys in the locks; then he went into the room, careful not to brush anything with the needle.

She rolled over on the bed and stared at him. Her eyes were utterly blank.

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On his way into the living room he paused by the thermostat. It was on its highest setting. He rubbed his hands together and buttoned his sweater all the way up.

Vasquez looked up from his crossword puzzle. “Another day or two and you should be able to begin withholding the drug until she begins to need it. It shouldn’t take very long before she’s convinced beyond all doubt that she ca

Roger said, “What mythology?”

“Drug addiction is in large part psychological, you know.”

Roger looked at Homer across the checkerboard. “What’s he talking about now?”

Vasquez said, “Those stories you’ve heard about addicts dying from cold-turkey withdrawal are largely hokum. Of all the deaths attributed to heroin, virtually none has been caused by withdrawal. It’s a painful process to be sure but rarely a deadly one. It isn’t the physical need for the drug that controls the victim—it’s the mind. The mind becomes convinced that survival is impossible without the drug. If she weren’t aware it was heroin that was being injected into her veins, she’d realize only that she felt sick in the absence of injections. She’d feel terrible but she wouldn’t know why. Given enough time, her sickness would pass. She’d return to normal health and never entertain the desire for another shot of heroin—because she’d never know it was what she’d been receiving in the first place. Do any of you understand what I’m saying?”

Mathieson said, “I always understood it was a physical addiction.”

“To a great extent it is. But the mind needs to be aware of it. The human mind is the great betrayer.”

Homer cleared his throat. “Can’t we talk about something else?”

“No. We must be clear on this. We ca

Mathieson sat down. Vasquez stared at him. “By letting her go a bit too long between shots you will let her feel the touch of withdrawal anguish. Merely a taste of it. You ca

Mathieson rubbed his face with both palms.

Vasquez’s voice softened. “Actually I’d worry more if you weren’t having such a strong reaction to these events. If you took them in stride I’d have to put you in the same category of subhuman existence to which verminous cretins like Frank Pastor belong.”

Mathieson let his hands fall onto the arms of the chair and leaned his head back against the cushion. “Roger, we’ll want to film some close-ups tomorrow of the scabs on her arms. The needle tracks.”

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

New York City: 16 November

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THIS TIME THE MESSENGER WAS A RETARDED YOUTH WITH a club foot; there was no information in him. Ezio signed for the package and Cestone escorted the limping messenger to the elevators.