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“I worried you had moved by now, found a place of your own or something.”
He frowned. “There’s a depression on,” he said. “Or haven’t you heard?”
“It’s fine with me if you live in a boardinghouse,” she said, and she patted his arm. He jerked away, and for a while after that she was quiet.
When they reached Mrs. Davies’s street he parked some distance from the house, at the darker end of the block. He didn’t want anyone seeing them.
“Are you glad I’m here?” Li
He shut off the engine. He said, “Li
“But my goodness, we don’t have to go into everything all at once!” Li
“You were thirteen years old,” Junior said.
Meaning, “You’ve spent all the time since you were thirteen never having a boyfriend?”
But Li
She picked up his right hand, which was still resting on the gearshift knob, and pressed it between both of hers. Hers were very warm, despite the weather, so that his must have struck her as cold. “Cold hands, warm heart,” she told him. Then she said, “And so here I am, about to spend the first full night with you I’ve ever had in my life.” She seemed to be taking it for granted that he had decided to slip her in after all.
“The first and only night,” he told her. “Then tomorrow you’re going to have to find yourself someplace else. It’s risky enough as it is; if Mrs. Davies caught wind of you, she’d put us both out on the street.”
“I wouldn’t mind that,” Li
Junior withdrew his hand and heaved himself out of the car.
At the foot of the front steps he made her wait, and he opened the front door silently and checked for Mrs. Davies before he signaled Li
“I’m tired,” he said. “I have to work tomorrow.” And he turned his face away from her and closed his eyes.
He heard no movement at all, for a time. Then he heard the rustle of her clothing, the snap of two suitcase clasps, more rustling. The louder rustle of bedclothes. The lamp clicked off, and he relaxed his jaw and opened his eyes to stare into the dark.
“Junior?” she said.
He could tell she must be lying on her back. Her voice had an upward-floating quality.
“Junior, are you mad at me? What did I do wrong?”
He closed his eyes.
“What’d I do, Junior?”
But he made his breath very slow and even, and she didn’t ask again.
11
WHAT LINNIE HAD DONE WRONG:
Well, for starters, she’d not told him her age. The first time he saw her she was sitting on a picnic blanket with the Moffat twins, Mary and Martha, both of them seniors in high school, and he had just assumed that she was the same age they were. Stupid of him. He should have realized from her plain, unrouged face, and her hair hanging loose down her back, and the obvious pride she took in her new grown-upness — most especially in her breasts, which she surreptitiously touched with her fingertips from time to time in a testing sort of way. But they were such large breasts, straining against the bodice of her polka-dot dress, and she was wearing big white sandals with high heels. Was it any wonder he had imagined she was older? Nobody aged thirteen wore heels that Junior knew of.
He had come with Tillie Gouge, but only because she’d asked him. He didn’t feel any particular obligation to her. He picked up a molasses lace cookie from the picnic table laden with foods, and he walked over to Li
She lifted her eyes, which turned out to be the nearly colorless blue of Mason jars. “Oh!” she said, and she blushed and took it from him. The Moffat twins became all attention, sitting up very straight and watching for what came next, but Li
“Do you belong to Whence Baptist?” he asked. (Because this picnic was a church picnic, given in honor of May Day.)
She nodded, chewing daintily, her eyes downcast.
“I’ve never been here before,” he said. “Want to show me around?”
She nodded again, and for a moment it seemed that that might be the end of it, but then she rose in a flustered, stumbling way — she’d been sitting on the hem of her dress and it snagged briefly on one of her heels — and walked off beside him, not so much as glancing at the Moffat twins. She was still eating her cookie. Where the churchyard met the graveyard she stopped and switched the cookie to her other hand and licked off her fingers again. Once again he offered his handkerchief, and once again she accepted it. He thought, with some amusement, that this could go on indefinitely, but when she’d finished blotting her fingers she placed her cookie on the handkerchief and then folded the handkerchief carefully, like someone wrapping a package, and gave it to him. He stuffed it in his left pocket and they resumed walking.
If he thought back on that scene now, it seemed to him that every detail of it, every gesture, had shouted “Thirteen!” But he could swear it hadn’t even crossed his mind at the time. He was no cradle robber.
Yet he had to admit that the moment when he’d taken notice of her was the moment she had touched her own breasts. At the time it had seemed seductive, but on second thought he supposed it could be read as merely childish. All she’d been doing, perhaps, was marveling at their brand-new existence.
She walked ahead of him through the cemetery, her ski
“Li