Searching for Always

He stared at her for a few minutes before slowly getting up and trudging out the door. The other thing she had learned about Ben was that he was a bit of a bully. Stand up to him first, and he backed down immediately. The little bell over the entrance jingled merrily, confirming his exit.

Muttering under her breath, she slammed the counseling room door and marched to her own office. Idiot. A waste of time even trying to get him to see what his real issue was or to treat women as anything other than a bodily ornament for his arm. Better to cut him now and give him his refund. She was sure Kate would understand.

She got back to her desk, moved her mouse, and tried to concentrate on the endless load of work that had piled up. The new computer program had some glitches that needed to be worked out, and she needed to step up her training with Le

She reached for her water bottle and chugged the last drop. Proper hydration was the key to good health. Another step she always followed in her endless pursuit of doing the right thing.

The lightbulb crackled and lit.

She did everything right. Always. She listened to authority figures. Treated her body like a temple. Completed karmic service to help others. Kept her mind calm with meditation. Helped others, whether they be human or canine. She gave her full heart and soul to every task, knowing it meant a big difference to do things lovingly rather than grudgingly.

But she ached for more. Something bigger that came to taunt her in the deep night, until she twisted under the sheets and tears stung her eyes with frustration. A yearning for . . .

More.

The familiar anger washed over her. She’d meditated for a full hour last night with a garnet around her neck and the cottage cleared of all negative energy. So why did she still feel pissed off, depressed, and generally miserable? Why was she suddenly thinking a Big Mac, a beer, and a big-assed ice-cream cone would put her in a better mood than chanting in the goal for peace and harmony?

Yep. It was official.

She was losing her mind.

A knock sounded. Kate popped her head in with a big smile. “Got a minute?”

Arilyn forced a smile back at her friend. “Of course.”

Kate strode in, clad in her usual black pants and lace top, her blond hair a halo around her face, highlighting her ocean-blue eyes and pale pink mouth. The driving force behind Ki

A real touch.

Gifted with the ability to sense a true soul co

Her friend slid into the purple chair opposite her desk and cocked her head. That assessing blue gaze traveled over her with frank concern. Uh-oh. There was nothing scarier than when her friends decided she needed an intervention. They were ruthless. Arilyn straightened up in her chair, determined to show no weakness.

“How are you doing?”

“Great.” The lift of Kate’s brow made her change the answer. “I mean, it’s hard, of course, but I’m doing much better. How are the wedding plans? Do you need any help?”

Kate was scheduled to marry Slade in a few weeks, and crunch time was upon her. Arilyn had always wondered why she counseled so many women pla

“I’m taking your advice and letting it go. The details are complete. And I’m tired of getting caught up in ridiculousness. I almost had a breakdown when the Asiatic lilies weren’t available and they suggested calla lilies. I mean, am I nuts or what? Slade will dump me before I even get to the ceremony. You were right, A. It’s not the wedding that’s important, it’s the marriage. I refuse to stress any longer.”

“Good for you. Concentrate on the reward. St. Lucia, right?”

Kate sighed. “Yeah. Sun, sand, and sex. The perfect trifecta.”

Arilyn laughed. “Honeymoons are worth the craziness of the wedding.”

“Yeah, but we both wish we could bring Robert. We can’t put him on a plane, though, so he’ll have to stay. Thanks so much for taking care of him.”

“He’s going to be fine, Kate. He’s stayed with me before, and you know how much I love him.” Kate’s dog, Robert, was paraplegic, and used a scooter to move around. Kate had rescued him years ago, and they were a tight team. Now Slade was just as madly in love with him, and they became a true family. “I’ll spoil him so bad he won’t want to go back.”

Kate chuckled. “Slade would fight you to the death. He yelled at me the other day for taking up too much room in the bed. I mean, are you kidding me? He literally chose the dog over me.”

“And you love it.”

“Yeah, I do.” Her face became misty, and once again Arilyn struggled to fight the punch in her gut. The need for what Kate experienced. God, she’d never been a jealous person before, and not that she wasn’t happy for her friend, she just wanted it for herself, too. “But I’m worried about leaving Ki

Arilyn tapped her finger against her lips. “I know the last temp was a bit undependable.”

Kate rolled her eyes. “She came in late, and every other day she had her period. Nightmare.”

“We’ll work it out.”

“Let’s talk about it. Can you ring in Ke

“Sure.” Arilyn buzzed her friend. “Can you come in here? Kate’s in my office.”

A few moments later, Ke

It was a long time before Ke

“What’s up, ladies? We’re not drinking?” Ke

Kate laughed and held up her own water bottle. “It’s ten a.m. I think we should hold off on the hotel liquor bottles till at least noon.”

Ke

“But not here,” Arilyn pointed out.

“Semantics. You didn’t drag me in here to discuss the pros and cons of truffles versus photo frames for favors, did you? Because I’m on your mom’s side. Mini vibrators with Kate & Slade Forever imprints are the bomb.”