The Vacationers

“Do you want to go home?” Charles asked.

Flying back to New York and furiously buying cribs and bouncy seats and high chairs and then not being chosen would be even worse than staying where they were, Lawrence knew. Let Mallorca be a distraction. Let the Posts try to get him to think about anything else, when there was Alphonse, sweet Alphonse, a baby in a hospital somewhere in New York City, a boy who needed his fathers. Staying was better than rushing back and not being picked. Lawrence didn’t want to let himself get too excited or take anything for granted. He wished he knew if the birth mother had picked all gay couples, who else they were up against. He wanted to see photographs of smiling families, and then to strangle the competition.

“We can stay,” Lawrence said. “Let’s stay.”

Joan was waiting at the door. It took such self-confidence to just stand there, knowing that someone would let him in. Sylvia was sure that Joan had never worried about anything in his entire life. He probably wouldn’t have rung the bell for another ten minutes, content to breathe in the clear air, to watch packs of bicyclists zoom by, their spandex clothes blurring together. He probably would have written a poem about it in his head, just because, not even minding when it all vanished a moment later. Joan smiled when she opened the door, and kept smiling as he walked through the dark foyer. Sylvia looked at their reflection in the giant mirror hanging behind his head, and then followed him into the bright dining room. If Joan had a girlfriend, which he obviously did, she would know how to put on eyeliner. She would know how to give a perfect blowjob. She would know how to do everything.

“Tienes novia?” Sylvia asked, only half meaning to voice the question. “I mean, my mom was asking me. I told her I would ask you. She’s really nosy. What’s the word for nosy? You know, always in everyone else’s business?”

Joan sat down and crossed his legs. In New York, only the gay boys crossed their legs. The straight ones made a point (especially on the subway) to sit with their knees as far apart as possible, as if whatever was between their legs was so enormous that they couldn’t help it. Sylvia respected how little Joan seemed to care about seeming heterosexual. “Not really. When I’m in Barcelona.” Joan shrugged. It was easy for him to find girls, of course. Claro.

There was a shuffling sound, and laughter, and then Charles and Lawrence stumbled into the kitchen, one of them clearly chasing the other. Charles reached the kitchen first and stopped short when he saw Joan.

“Hola,” he said.

“Hola,” Joan said back.

“Hola, Sylvia,” Charles said again, his entire face a wink. He smoothed his forehead as if he were brushing bangs out of his eyes.

“Oh, Jesus, just leave us alone,” Sylvia said, which set them off again, giggling like prom dates. Charles and Lawrence zipped through the kitchen and out the back door, setting themselves up nicely in the sun. Charles held their books, and Lawrence held the towels. Somewhere in the pile there was some sunscreen, and a hat to protect Charles’s scalp from burning. Sylvia watched them settle in, feeling simultaneously envious and like love, in its best form, was something for comfortable adults, and something she might expect to find only decades down the road. “Let’s talk about the future,” she said to Joan, who was staring off into space, perhaps contemplating his own beautiful existence.

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Bobby appeared at Jim’s side. He peeled the first steak off the plate and lowered it onto the grill, where it let out a great hiss.

“That’s good,” Jim said. “We want that sear.” It was like talking to an invisible camera on the other side of the grill, someone doing a documentary on father-son small chat. Jim was no good at it, he knew. He wanted to ask Bobby about Carmen, about what the hell he was doing in Florida, that rancid pit of a place. He wanted to tell Bobby what he’d done, how fuzzy the future was, how he was sorry for letting them all down. Instead, Jim found he could talk only about their di

Bobby lined up the other steaks, all in a neat row, and then stood back, beside his father. They were the same height, more or less, though Bobby still couldn’t seem to stand up straight. Bobby had broader shoulders, and larger biceps, but he’d never lost his ragdoll posture.

“Any interesting properties on the market?” Jim asked. He crossed his arms over his chest, keeping his eyes on the steaks.

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