Finding Me

“Maxwell?” My eyes divert to the hallway and a woman approaches. She looks like Fitz. Her skin isn’t quite as dark, and her eyes aren’t quite as round, but there’s an undeniable resemblance. Her words come out in a much quieter and softer tone, but just as fast as his grandmother’s had, and I focus on her still gripping me too tight. Alala, I say her name several times in my head, letting the syllables roll off my tongue.

“You must be Harper.” My attention turns back to the beautiful woman, and she smiles affectionately at Alala, who’s still tied around my waist and then says something more in the foreign language before Alala’s arms fall unwillingly to her sides.

“Sorry, she still can’t accept that I’m gay. She thinks you’re my girlfriend,” Fitz explains, shaking his head again. “Harper this is my Mom, Hosa

Her brown eyes gleam, similar to Fitz’s when he’s excited. Something I generally only see when it’s just the two of us together, since Fitz really isn’t much of a people person, though, today he has been exceptionally friendly with everyone and has even seemed to thoroughly enjoy himself while doing so.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Harper. I’ve heard so many wonderful things about you.”

“Thank you so much for having me. I really appreciate your hospitality.”

“Certainly, certainly.” She takes a few steps closer and then holds me just as tightly as Grandma Alala did. Hosa

When she moves to hug Fitz, Grandma Alala begins lifting the hem of my shirt, and my hands fly to hold it down as she tsks and speaks in what sounds like a disapproval. Of what, I have no idea. Hosa

I raise my eyebrows at Fitz, still keeping a firm grip on the hem of my sweatshirt as my eyes beg for some clarification.

“She says you’re too thin. She’s going to go make some more food.”

We spend the next few hours together as Fitz or Hosa

Once again, I’m too slow to take a bit of the cheese-filled pastry that she’s placed before me, and she fires words off to Fitz.

“Eat.” He sounds reluctant, then turns to look at me, and I notice his forehead is creased and the corners of his lips are lifting forcibly with guilt.

“Eat, eat, eat!” Grandma Alala repeats, pushing the plate closer to me.

Di

“So, Harper, Maxwell mentioned you’re extremely smart,” Hosa

“Fitz is being generous. He’s the genius in there.” He is. Fitz is in fact six years older than me, though his appearance makes that deceiving. He graduated with his doctorate at the age of twenty-four.

“She’s being modest. She doesn’t even have her degree yet, and she could probably wipe the floor with most assistants.”

“Have you been doing this long?”

I shake my head and set my fork down, earning a scowl from Grandma Alala that forces me to lift it back up. “My father was in medicine, and science has always been an interest to me, but medical science is new experience.”

Hosa

“And the lab’s a better place to work than a lot of other college jobs, like retail or something,” Fitz adds, stirring his coffee. “God, I remember having to do inventory every quarter. We couldn’t start until the store closed and would have to be there all night and then go directly to class. Those days were the worst. Plus, Ben’s really cool.”

“Yeah,” I agree. “I mean I don’t really have another employer to compare him to, but he’s a really good guy and seems to genuinely care about not only the cause and the company, but the employees.”

Fitz’s head tilts back and his gaze slides to me. “Wait, you mean to tell me you’ve never had a job before the lab?”

I shrug. If this wasn’t Fitz, I’d probably be unjustly defensive, but he’s right. I’m twenty-one and have never had a real job before. “No. My parents always insisted that we focus on school and being kids because you have your whole life to be an adult.”

“That sounds scary as hell. You’re suddenly flung out of the nest with zero preparation or understanding of the real world,” he says. “Or maybe I’m just envious because I’ve worked since I was sixteen.”

Fitz is right. These past five months have taught me a lot about life and the real world.

By the end of our two-day trip, I have a clear understanding of one Greek word, and that is: wedding. Grandma Alala took to measuring me on several different instances between her attempts to shove more food in my mouth. Though I loved most of it, there was still a dish or two that I prefer not to think about what I ingested. Regardless of her insistence for me to eat and marry Fitz, I fall for her soft pats on my cheek and loud laughs that often arise through her conversations with Hosa

It’s the first time I’ve experienced a family environment in months. Though there are few similarities to my own, there are far more differences and I focus on them, finding comfort.

“If you’re going through hell, keep going.”

–Winston Churchill

It’s been a week since we returned from New York and Fitz is whistling along to a Christmas song, much to my dismay. I still hate whistling. I grind my teeth to prevent myself from snapping at him because I’ve already pleaded with him to stop a dozen times this morning, and yet he seems completely lost in another world today. Evidently, one that requires a lot of whistling.

I look down at the notes I’ve been working on, trying to distract myself enough to drown out the sound, and see my phone alight in my purse. The lab doesn’t really have a policy regarding phones. As long as you’re not in the middle of a lab, no one seems to mind what you do. After spending an extensive amount of time and money attending school to earn a doctorate, most people seem pretty driven and don’t require many rules.

I smile as Kendall’s face appears and slide my thumb across the screen to answer. “Hey.”

“Hey!” She sounds surprised. Honestly, I feel a little surprised. Generally Kendall and I communicate through texts. I assume because she ended up moving in with Max, Landon, and Jameson shortly after I left. “Sorry, I was expecting to get your voicemail. I can’t ever keep track of your schedule with the lab and classes and everything.”