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it was free. I’d let it go. It’d wanted so much to be free that just couldn’t hold on, couldn’t hold it down. smiled as

watched it whirl away—above the trees, above the birds,

above the clouds, sparkling into the heavens, dancing free.

It was the most beautiful thing have ever seen.

“Hey!” Andy nudges me, and open my eyes. “You’re

meant to be watching!”

“Watching for what?” laugh. “Give me clue! The

pier, the beach? We’re almost back!”

“No—we can’t be!” Andy says, panicking. “We

haven’t seen them!” He rushes round to the other side of

the boat.

“Seen who?” ask, following him.

“The whales! We’re meant to see whales!” He leans

over the rail and strains his eyes.

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look too. Nothing but sparkling water. “Whales?”

“It’s supposed to be

whale- watching trip!” Andy

moans. “If we don’t see any whales, it’s just—it’s just

boat!” He slumps against the rail as the boat slows to

stop, glowering at the empty waves. “Some surprise, huh?”

laugh at his mournful expression.

“It was wonderful.”

squeeze his hand as we

clamber down the gangplank back to dry land. “Thank

you.” kiss him. “For everything. For today, for this

for

everything yesterday …”

“You’re welcome,” Andy says gently, his hand warm

in mine as we wander back along the jetty. “I’m just sorry

how it turned out.”

“Yeah,” sigh. “Well, maybe it’s for the best.”

He looks at me. “Really?”

shrug. “Now at least know who she is—where

she is—and told her who am.” swallow. “That’s all

wanted.”

Andy frowns.

“I mean, of course it would have been great if she’d

wanted to get to know me, to have some kind of

relationship,”

admit, slipping my shoes off as we step

onto the beach. “But it’s clear that’s not what she wants—

what she ever wanted. And have to respect that. That’s

her choice.”

sigh again, the sand freezing beneath my

bare toes. “Besides.”

smile. “I’ve already had the best

mother in the world, so Kitty would never have compared

anyway, despite all her glitz and glamor. So”—I take

deep breath—“it’s for the best. Now at least know.”

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“Really?” Andy squeezes my hand. “You’re still glad

you found her? Despite everything?”

“Yes.” nod. “I just—I couldn’t spend my whole life

wondering what if, you know? It’s like the Huntington’s—I

could have dealt with having it, but no one could tell me if

had it or not. had to watch Mum suffering, wondering if

the same thing was going to happen to me, but not

knowing.” sigh. “But now …” fill my lungs with the fresh, cool, salty air. “Now can move on. I’m eighteen years old, after all—it’s about time!” smile. “Time to be my own

person, live my own life—make my own mistakes.”

look up at him. “I’m sorry lied to you, Andy.”

He shakes his head. “It’s okay.”

“No, it’s not.

should have told you,”

argue.

“Secrets just

they always seem to make things worse,

don’t they?”

Andy nods.

“So. No more secrets, no more lies,” promise. “I’m

old enough to handle the truth—about anything.”

Andy nods. “No more secrets.”

squeeze his hand as glance behind us, back at the

jetty, the beach, and the long trail of clear footprints

leading to where we’re standing now. My footprints

realize with smile. My path

“So,” Andy says finally. “What now?”

take deep breath. What now …?

That’s the million-dollar question. big fat dizzying

future lies in front of me, with million paths to choose,

decisions to make, dreams to follow

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But not tonight. smile. Not tonight.

“Food!” grin. “I’m starving!”

“Excellent!” Andy grins, linking his arm with mine.

“I know just the place …”

“Fish and chips!” laugh as we stop before

huge

wooden sign: WOODY’S PLAICE. “We’re having fish and

chips?”





“Just the place

get it?” Andy grins. “Just the

plaice …”

groan and cuff him round the head. “You need

new joke book, mister.”

“What do you mean?” he protests. “It’s my own

material!”

“I wouldn’t admit that!”

bell jangles as Andy pushes the door open, and it’s

like stepping into

ship’s cabin. We’re surrounded by

nautical curios: weird and wonderful fishing equipment,

gleaming compasses, nets and telescopes hang from the

rafters; coral curls with driftwood on the walls; and

beautiful carved mermaid masthead guards the old-

fashioned till. It should look tacky, but it doesn’t—it’s like

an Aladdin’s cave of treasures, illuminated by flickering

lamplight and filled with the warm vinegary smell of

crispy batter.

We order fish and chips and gaze out across the

bay.

“It’s beautiful,” sigh, popping the last chip into my

mouth and watching the sun sink slowly beneath the

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sparkling pink waves. “Everything today was beautiful.

Thank you, Andy.”

“You’re welcome.” He smiles, his eyes glowing in

the candlelight. “Happy birthday—again.”

“Whoa, it’s somebody’s birthday?”

dark-haired

man stops as he passes our table. “Why didn’t you say so?

would’ve put

candle in your cod!” He grins.

“Congratulations!”

“Thank you.” smile.

“English, too! Always

pleasure to meet people

from back home. I’m Jack—I own this place, for my sins.

Did you enjoy your meal?”

“It was perfect,” tell him. “Just like home.”

“Praise indeed!” He bows low. “I thought New

England could do with some proper Old English cuisine—

especially since they’ve stolen all our place names!”

laugh.

“So, what do you fancy for pud? can recommend

the chocolate cake, or we’ve got an amazing homemade

apple crumble.”

“Oh,

couldn’t eat another bite.”

laugh. “I’m

stuffed!”

“Come on, Rosie, you’ve got to have some cake,”

Andy protests. “It’s your eighteenth!”

“Wow! Then double congratulations! Oh, and here

you are in the States, where you can’t drink—legally,

mean.” Jack winks. “Bummer! Well, many happy returns,

Rosie.” He starts to collect our plates, then stops. “But

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actually

Listen, I’ve got an idea,” he says, his eyes

twinkling. “I’ll be back in jiffy with your dessert.”

He rushes off with our plates and

giggle as he

disappears into the kitchen.

“Can you believe him?” smile at Andy. “We didn’t

even order any dessert!”

“Yeah …,” Andy says distractedly.

“What’s wrong? Aw, did you want the homemade

apple crumble?” grin, ruffling his hair.

“What? No, no it’s not that.” He stares at the table.

look at him. “Andy?”

“Rosie …” He runs his hand through his hair. “It’s

just …” He hesitates, leans forward. “Listen, you know

what you were saying earlier, about the truth and secrets,

and how you said you were glad you’d found Kitty even

though it didn’t work out—because you finally knew the

truth?”

“Yes …,” say carefully.

“And we agreed

no more secrets, right?”

nod nervously.

“Well.” Andy takes big breath. “Don’t get mad, but

when went back into the hotel toilets to get your coat,

Kitty came in …”

“What?” My stomach tightens.

“She didn’t see me—she was on her mobile.” Andy

pauses and looks at me. “She was calling the operator and

demanding to be co