More Than This

“Take this seriously!” Kayla yells, and starts tickling her, I join in. My parents laugh and leave the room.

It’s this moment I know, I don’t think anymore. I know it. I love this girl. I’m in love with this girl.

***

*Mikayla*

The sexual tension between Jake and I is off the charts. I’m actually scared I might combust any second. No joke. It doesn’t help that we’re around each other almost 24/7 or that we’re always finding ways to ‘i

Jake's Graduation goes smoothly. I meet some of his other friends, some guys from his team, and I stay the hell away from Casey. I see the way she looks at me and joke to Jake that I should probably start packing heat.

He doesn’t find it so fu

There’s a graduation party in a field near the school that everyone is going to. Jake declines the invites but I tell him I think he should go, I want to go. I think it would be good to get out and associate with the general population.

So that’s where we are now, at the party. I am, of course, sitting on Jake's lap around a bonfire. His usual friends are here, as well as a few others.

I’m wearing one if Heidi’s dresses. I still don’t have the courage to go back to my house. I’ve actually asked Mandy to pack up my room this weekend while we’re at Aunt Lisa’s wedding. I’ve organized professional movers to take care of the rest, whatever isn’t damaged is to go to a storage container I’ve rented, at least until I work out what I’m going to do at UNC. Everything else can go. Mandy is taking care of all the personal stuff like photo albums and jewelry, etc.

Heidi’s a size smaller than I am, but she only bought one outfit with her when she came over, so she told me to suck it up and deal with it. It’s a navy blue dress thats tight from the waist down, the top half is looser and hangs off one shoulder. It’s more something Megan would wear, who, by the way, I still haven’t heard from.

According to the internet, Meg and James are ‘Facebook official’. I should give a shit, but I don’t, and right now, sitting here with Jake, my minds like… James? James effing who?

“Hey look, Jake. Casey’s coming over here…” I whisper in his ear.

He flinches, tightens his hold on me and legit ducks his head, like he’s trying to hide. “I was just kidding, Jake. Jesus Christ.” I say through a laugh.

“That shit’s not fu

I giggle and take a look around, there are like… hundreds of kids here, I see a couple from my school.

“All these kids go to your school? Or is this like… for other schools in the area too?”

“I think it’s just ours,” Logan says. He’s taking a breather from making out with the red head on his lap. Sipping his beer, he asks, “Why? You scared that asshole ex of yours is going to show up?”

I shrug, “Not really, and even if he does, I’m sure Jake will just punch him again.”

Logan and Cam spit out their beer simultaneously and Dylan cusses.

What the fuck?

Logan is glaring at me bug eyed. “He punched that asshole?”

I nod my head slowly.

“Which hand?” Dylan asks, panic on his face.

What?

Behind me, Jake raises his right hand slowly, which brings on a tirade of name calling and questions from the guys.

“Its fine!” Jake yells above them all.

I’m so freaking confused, and Lucy must sense it because she answers my unasked question, “His pitching hand.”

Shit.

I take his right hand between the two of mine and start kissing the knuckles one by one. I feel him stiffen behind me at my displayed affection, and then I feel him stiffen under me.

That’s my cue to get off of him and… do something… anything else.

Chapter 19

*Jake*

I am in too deep, way too deep. This girl is driving me crazy. I spent the rest of last night with a hard on and I don’t think it’s fully left me yet. That dress she was wearing, and then the lap sitting, and the laughing, and the holding, and touching, and the joking, and the flirting, and then she fucking goes and kisses my hand, so intimately. My fucking pitching hand. It’s by far the sexiest thing a girl has ever done. EVER. And I don’t say this to be a dick, but girls have done a lot of shit to me.

I throw the covers off my pathetic joke of a bed and stretch out. My back is screwed, my whole body aches. I fold the blankets and shake my head as I look at my ‘bed’. Definitely not made for me 6 foot 2 frame. I might attempt sleeping on the floor tonight, anything’s got to be better than this.

I walk into the kitchen, or more like wobble, in my condition.

Kayla’s already there.

“Your mom left a note, she’s at some PTA meeting…” She takes in my physical state, “…and what happened to you?”

“I don’t think me and the sofa are friends anymore.” I put on a pout.

“Shit, Jake. I’ll take the sofa, you should have your bed back. You can’t sleep on the sofa all summer.”

“You wa

She looks at me for a second then turns away, biting her lip.

“At least let me give you a massage?” she says quietly.

I laugh.

“I’m serious,” she confirms.

I think about it, but shake my head.

“C’mon please? I have to do something.”

“It’s fine, Kayla. I’ll see a physio when we get back from Lisa’s wedding.”

“It’s not fine. C’mon.” She starts to pull my arm to lead me away, I dig my heels into the floor.

“It’s not that I don’t trust you, it’s just that…” I smirk… “This body is in peak physical condition. I’m almost a professional athlete, Kayla. I can’t just let anybody touch me.”

She rolls her eyes at me. “Trust me, I give good massages.”

“Yeah?” I eye her. “Says who?”

She looks away and blushes.

James. I’m pretty sure I physically shiver in disgust but she doesn’t notice.

“Look,” she starts, squaring her shoulders. “When James started to really get into basketball, he’d always feel like shit afterwards, all the training and game time killed him. He’d always complain about being sore, so I researched how to help him, if I could help him. One summer I took classes at the local community college, Physical therapy and Sports Medicine. I learnt heaps. I actually enjoyed learning it, and practicing it. For a little bit there I was genuinely considering becoming a Sports Doctor. I still think about it sometimes.”

I let this sink in. “Shit, Kayla.” I shake my head. “He really didn’t deserve you, you know that, right?”

“I know right?” she smiles. “I am a fucking awesome girlfriend, some asshole is going to be so lucky one day.”

I swear to god, I hope that asshole will be me.

I swipe my hand through the air, “Lead the way, Doc.”

She smiles and leads me to my room.

***

She asks me to take my shirt off and lay facedown on the bed and I do as she says. She doesn’t move for a beat then asks, “Do you have any lotion or oil?”

“Uh huh, baby oil in the bottom drawer.” I point to my night stand.