Facade

I wonder who that guy was with Angel at the cemetery. If he’s good to her because I’m not there to protect her the same way I didn’t protect Ash. The way Angel always protected me.

Suddenly the music is too loud. People stumbling into my door feels like they’re doing it on my head instead. If I don’t get out of this house right now, I’m going to lose it.

I shove the window open and grab my keys. It’s freezing balls outside, but I don’t care. It’s good to feel something besides the memories. It only takes me a few seconds to walk around the side of my house and get to my car. No one will miss me here. They’ll party till they pass out and tomorrow I’ll talk shit about how fun it was. Right now, I need to be free.

I drive around for hours until the car’s going on fumes and I know I’ll run out of gas at any second. I’ve circled Brenton about ten times and for the millionth wonder why I still live in this state. Maybe it would be easier if I left. Instead I drive by the college that Cheye

By this point, it’s gotta be almost 3:00 a.m. My eyes are burning as much as my insides. When I see a little all-night diner, I pull in. Shove my copy of The Count and my little spiral notebook in my hoodie pockets before going inside.

I sit in the ugly, aqua-green booth and wonder who in the hell would pick something like this.

Pulling the book out, I toss it onto the table. Grab my notebook and the pen I keep in my pocket, but I’m not sure I can make myself do anything right now. Can’t write. Can’t read. I need some fucking coffee and a time machine, so I put my elbows on the table and bury my head in my hands.

I try to focus on the big, brown eyes in my mind and the huge smile that was definitely a Westfall trait.

“Can I help you?” someone says from beside the table.

I wish like hell I didn’t have to pry my head out of my hands, but I do. I look over and see the same brown hair and beautiful gray eyes from earlier.

Chapter Four

~Delaney~

Just my luck that I have to run into the flirty guy from this afternoon. He is super sexy with his dark hair and intense eyes, though. He has brown stubble on his face, but I can’t help but look at his eyes again. They look dimmer than they did earlier. No laughing in them. I almost feel like they could transfer me away. Like you can drift forever in those midnight pools because there’s so much space between what he wants to show and what’s really buried deep inside.

I wonder what my eyes look like to him.

I have no excuse to wonder that. I didn’t come all the way to Brenton to hook up with some random guy.

I can practically see the façade slip into place as he gives me a half-smile.

“If it isn’t the box girl. Your boyfriend’s not going to show up again, is he?”

I shake my head. Almost don’t tell him the truth, but I do. “He’s not my boyfriend. He’s my brother.”

The smile grows slightly. “Why didn’t you say that earlier?”

“Because I didn’t feel like being hit on.” I try not to bite my lip. It feels good to have a guy try and pick me up. Any girl who doesn’t admit that is lying. Whether you want him or not, it’s a boost to the ego. I didn’t date much when I was younger. I was focused on school and was just young. Too busy riding my bike and trying to follow my big brother around. Then Dad got locked up and Mom lost it and boys never had a chance to be important.

“All girls like being hit on,” he says.

“Are you going to order anything or not?”

“In a rush to get back to all those other customers?” He smiles.

Yeah, I didn’t really think about that. I look around and remember there’s only one other person in the place. My eyes wander over the table and I notice the book sitting there. The Count of Monte Cristo. I don’t know why, but it surprises me. He doesn’t look like the read-for-fun type. “Your book?” I ask, even though I know it’s his.

It’s almost like he forgot it was there. He puts a hand on it and slides it closer to him, as though he’s trying to protect it. “I’ll take a coffee.” There’s a slight edge to his voice that wasn’t there before. I’m not sure if its anger, a

“Anything to eat?” Then I realize I have the menu in my hand and haven’t given it to him. I never claimed to be the best waitress. I’m lucky I got the job so quickly when I told Maddox I was going to Brenton whether he came or not. I didn’t know what else to do.

“Mind if I look at that?” He nods his head toward the menu and I give it to him.

“I’ll be right back with your coffee.” Without a word, I turn and walk away. I fill a coffee cup for him, a little a

I set the coffee cup down in front of Mystery Guy. He looks at my chest and I’m about to cover it and tell him to look away before I blind him, but when he says, “Thanks, Delaney,” I realize he was looking at my nametag and not my breasts.

“You’re welcome.”

“Can I get some pancakes?”

“Um… sure. I’ll put the order in.” I’m about to walk to the kitchen when he speaks again. “Don’t you want to know my name?”

“No.” I came here looking for one guy and one guy only. I wasn’t here to flirt.

“I’ll tell you anyway. I’m Adrian. Adrian Westfall.”

My knees go weak and I have to fight not to fall. Blurry dots swim behind my eyes. Focus, focus, focus. When I open my mouth, I’m not sure what’s going to come out. “Nice to meet you,” is what I land on.

My legs shake as I walk away, but it has nothing on the tremble in my chest. I’m scared he’s going to see through me. Take one look and know who I am. Know that I’m the daughter of the guy who killed his nephew. And that I came here for him. Hoping that with his forgiveness, my family can find some peace. I’m not ready for him to know that yet. I’ve never been the best liar. What made me think I could do this?

I risk a glance at Adrian as he sits at the table. He doesn’t look at me and he’s immediately lost in thought. It’s so strange seeing the difference in him. Like the second I walked away, he transformed from the guy who was talking to me to the guy he really is. He’s not smiling. His shoulders are slumped. I think about his eyes when I first saw them. How they looked like endless space. Smoke and mirrors.

And I can’t help but wonder if that look is there because of what my father did to his family.

I don’t know a lot of details but I know his sister was at work. Know the toddler was in the yard and he was with him. I know my father hit the little boy with his car. And Adrian spent a little time in jail for an assault on my dad. I was only fourteen and it wasn’t like Mom gave me a lot of details.

“Delaney? You going to put that order in or what?” the cook, Do

“Yeah. Sorry. He wants pancakes.” My voice suddenly sounds like a high tenor, only not as beautiful. Or as steady.

I grab a washcloth and pretend to actually care if the countertop is clean as I try to watch him and pry my eyes away at the same time. He’s holding his book, his long fingers flipping through the pages. I wonder about him and that book. The cover was worn like only a loved book can get, so either he’s read it over and over, or it isn’t his. A library copy. Maybe he’s in school and he has to read it.