Dhalgren

“Sir, maybe if—?”

Newboy moved his hand, looked back down. “It starts out mirrored on both sides: initially reassuring, but ultimately distracting. It rather gets in the way. But as you go on, the silvering starts to wear. Now you can see more, and more, directly through. Really—” Newboy glanced up quickly, then returned his eyes to the page—“it’s a lens. The transition period is almost always embarrassing, however. While you are still being dazzled with bits of your own reflection, you begin to see that it might, after all, be one-way glass—with a better view afforded from out there! Still, once used to it, you find the view more interesting. With only a little practice, you get so you can read both legends at once, without having to stop what you’re doing to turn the thing around. Oh, and how many, many times you came close to clashing into someone you thought buck-naked only to find his Shield had grown transparent as your own. You become chary of judging too quickly who still has, and who has discarded, his. And when some youngster, glitteringly protected, through malice or, worse, some incomprehensible vision of kindness, shouts up at the dreadfully stark crag on which you happen to be panting, or down into the fetid ravine from which you are manfully trying to clamber with only one arm free, ‘You’re naked, don’t you understand?’ you may, momentarily, squint to make sure the double legend is still etched before you, but you are not liable to waste much energy setting him straight unless your own vision of kindness is as incomprehensible as his. There are more important things to do. As best you can, you go about doing them. But things still interrupt: now your eyes are deviled by a recurrent, polychrome flash. You try to ignore it. But its frequency increases. From habit, you check the cut runes to make sure. But, frankly, during the moments of illumination, it is practically impossible for you to read them, much less decide whether they still contain sense. The thing you have been baring, not to mention staring through all this time, has become an immense prism.” Newboy leaned back now, his eyes somewhere on the underside of the balcony. “Did I say the first transition was embarrassing? This one is monstrous. And it is the same fear: one-way glass! If only you didn’t remember all those other, endless, elderly ladies with their water color sets, the old men with their privately printed poems, whom one had, out of politeness, brought flowers for or invited out to di

Newboy fixed his eyes on Kidd’s. Kidd smiled and felt uncomfortable. Then he felt belligerent, which maybe tainted the smile. He was going to say, Do you always rap like this when somebody…

The notebook suddenly slipped from Newboy’s knees. The poet bent, but Kidd snatched it up first.

Its back cover had fallen open. Kidd frowned at the final block of handwriting that ran off the page bottom:

…The sky is stripped. I am too weak to write much. But I still hear them walking in the trees; not speaking. Waiting here, away from the terrifying weaponry, out of the halls of vapor and light, beyond holland and into the hills, I have come to

“Do you…” Kidd’s hand fell on the page. He looked up slowly.

The chain snaked around his wrist up his arm. It crossed his belly, his chest, between the vest flaps. “Do you think that’s what they mean?”

“Pardon me?”

Kidd hooked his thumb beneath the chain and pulled it. “These. Do you think that’s what they’re supposed to mean?”

Mr. Newboy laughed. “I haven’t the faintest idea! You have them. I don’t. I’ve seen people with them, here, but no. No. I was just using them. Oh, no! I would never presume to say what they meant.”

Kidd looked down again. “Do you always go on like that to people who bring you poems?” he asked, with nowhere near the belligerence he had intended: He gri

Newboy was still laughing. “All right.” He waved his hand. “Read some of them to me, now.” He sat forward, took another sip, then put his cup down. “No, really, I want to hear some of them out loud.”

“Okay,” Kidd said, expecting to feel resentment, but experiencing a different anxiety altogether. He noted with concern, once more, the number of pages left with free sides.

“Read the one about the dog-thing. I liked that one.”

“Murielle?”

Newboy nodded, hands together in his lap.

Kidd turned toward the front of the book.

He began to read.

Breathlessness left about the third line. Somewhere, something like enjoyment bloomed under his tongue and, rather than tripping it, somehow made it more sensitive, so that, without pause he realized how the vowels in both loom and flow took off from the same point but went different places. He found his face hollowing for the more resonant tones. He let them move the muscles about his mouth till staccato t’s and k’s riddled the final line and made him smile.

“Lovely,” Newboy said. “In a rather horrifying way. Read the one in front of it.”

He read, and lost himself in the movements of his mouth, till a momentary convocation in the ear stu

“There are two voices in dialogue in that one, aren’t there,” Newboy commented at the finish. “I didn’t pick it up just glancing at it.”

“Huh? Oh, yeah. Maybe I should set them apart on the page—”

“No, no!” Mr. Newboy sat up and motioned. “No, believe me, it isn’t necessary. It would be perfectly clear in a page of print. It was my attention reading, believe me. Just go on.”

He read.

What had come to him as images (among which he had pecked with tongue tip and pen point) returned, shocked, luminous—sometimes more, sometimes less vivid than memory, but so rich he thrust them out with his tongue to keep from trying to eat them.

“It’s so much fun,” Newboy said, “that you enjoy your own poems so much. Have you ever noticed how free verse tends to turn into iambic pentameter all by itself? Especially by people who haven’t written much poetry.”

“Sir?”

“Well, it’s only natural. It’s the natural rhythm of English speech. You know, when the line goes ba-da, ba-da, ba-da, ba-da, ba-da? Oh, now don’t sit there and look confused. Read some more. I’m not going to get pedantic again. I’m enjoying this. Really.”