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And then the kiss happened. Holy shit could that man kiss. I was too caught up in the way his lips moved to even have a reasoning bone in my body. I tried to resist, but turned into liquid in his arms. This was what I had wanted for so long, and suddenly it was happening.
He stopped, his eyes turning cold as ice before the deadly blow: ‘Goodbye Va
After getting my sorry ass home, Sawyer and Kinsley took me up to my room where I shooed them away. I didn’t want anyone around. I needed some space. I cried—for leaving, for my mother guilting me into leaving, for my mother’s drinking, for my father’s stupidity. I cried for Deke.
At some point, I finally cried myself to sleep.
Waking up to two women bouncing on my bed was not the way I wanted to start my day. I needed to remember to lock the damn door. “What do you want? I’m tired,” I moaned at them.
“What do you want to do today?” Sawyer asked.
“Nothing. Sleep.”
“Stop that shit right now. Who gives a shit about Deke? You can do so much better than that man-whore.”
My eyes shot to Kinsley. I should have known she wouldn’t let last night slide. “Drop it.”
Plopping back down, I wrapped myself in a cocoon of blankets, but they didn’t stay on me long as Kinsley ripped them off.
“Damn it!” I yelled.
“I’m sorry, Va
“Don’t be,” I said as I tried to pull the pillow in front of my face, but Kinsley stopped me.
“Yeah, don’t be. She knew what could happen, and it’s done. Now let’s find some fresh meat!” Kinsley always had a way to make me smile even when I didn’t want to.
“Ha. Ha.” Blowing out a deep breath, I said, “Look, I knew that he might have this reaction. It just hurt. I’m go
Sawyer and Kinsley looked at each other, but Kins spoke, “Nope, you have the morning. This afternoon, we are getting manis, pedis, and going to lunch. So get your shit together.”
“Whatever,” I mumbled, pulling my covers back over me. Hearing the door close, I allowed the final tears that I was going to cry over Deke flow out of me. For five years, all I had thought about was getting Deke back in my life. Now, he was really gone.
Deke
My mouth tasted like fucking cotton, and I could barely open my eyes. Damn tequila. My bed didn’t feel right; it was bumpier than usual. Trying to take in my surroundings, seeing pink and feathers everywhere gave it away. Mindy’s. Fuck.
Looking to my side confirmed it, as I saw the naked woman sprawled out on the bed. I don’t even remember seeing her after I started drinking. I needed to get the fuck out of here. Rolling off the bed, pulling my clothes on as fast as I could, I reached for my cell to call Z. “Hey. At Mindy’s. Come get me.”
“Dude. I’m fucking sleeping. Can’t she take you?”
“No. Come on.”
Z sighed. “Damn it. Be there in five.”
Hearing Mindy’s purr, I knew she was wake. Fuck, I almost made it. “Gotta go. Later.”
“Wait. Who’s Va
“What?” I asked.
“Who’s Va
“Why?” I said, raising my eyebrow.
“You just kept saying shit about her leaving you. At least I’m assuming it’s a her.” I could see the hurt in Mindy’s eyes. It was time to break this shit.
“I don’t date dudes, so what do you think? This thing between us is over. Don’t come to me anymore,” I ground out, throwing my boots on.
“Why, what did I do? I let you call me another woman’s name and still kept fucking you.” Mindy’s face was flaming red. I knew this shit would happen. Women’s feelings always bubbled to the surface. This was exactly why I went for the easy fuck.
“Done. Later.”
Sitting on the front step, I tied my boots and waited for Z to show up. Fucking Va
She looked nothing like the Va
No one knew, but Va
“I don’t know how this happened,” I whispered, lying on Va
“I’m so sorry, Deke.” Va
Va
It was almost two months since it happened. My mom refused to talk to me—what mom would do that? My dad only talked to me when he had to, but I’d take what I could get. My friends were still around, but no one said a word to me about it.
Except for Va
“I should have been watching more closely. If I would have, I could have stopped it.”
“No, you couldn’t have,” Va
“I could have at least tried,” I whispered.
“Jaxson wouldn’t want you doing this to yourself.” Va
“He’s not here to worry about it,” I clipped.
“I know. But he loved you.”
“That’s why I should have saved him, or it should have been me.” I’d never forget him yelling my name as the current took him under. I swam as fast as I could, but the undercurrent swept him away. I couldn’t find him, anywhere. I swam until my arms and legs wouldn’t work another second. The rescue squad found him four miles downstream.
I knew we shouldn’t have been hanging out in the creek. It had rained the day before and the water was moving fast, but we were stupid. And it cost Jaxson his life.
I looked up at the sound of a car horn as Z pulled into the drive. I needed to get my shit together.
“What’s up?” Z asked, breaking the silence in the truck.
“Nothing. Take me home,” I said, rolling the window down. I needed air.
“Grump. What crawled up your ass?” Z snarled.
“Mindy probably.”
“I didn’t even see you leave with her.”
I shrugged. “I don’t remember anything.”
“You remember kissing Va
I met his eyes. “You think I’d fucking forget that?”
“So you go
“Shut the fuck up and mind your damn business,” I growled, not wanting to talk about it.