Forever Black

All I could think about as he was yelling at me was how since meeting him he changed all that for me, but obviously I didn’t do the same for him. I walked over to the floor where I left my pants and pulled them on.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” he yelled.

“I’m not staying here tonight; you’re a dick and I don’t want to be near you right now.”

“I’m a dick?” he laughed.

“You’re the one being a bitch and overreacting about me not being able to have kids.”

Did he just call me a bitch? I spun around, “I’m a bitch because you didn’t tell me about this sooner?”

The anger and darkness now consumed his eyes, “You really want to go there Ellery about not telling each other things.” He was now bringing up the cancer and he was hitting below the belt.

“I regretted that from day one and you know it,” my voice was yelling. “How dare you throw that in my face.”

“Then I guess we’re even,” he yelled.

Oh he shouldn’t have said that. My blood was boiling and my veins were pulsating full of anger.

“Maybe it’s best you stay in the guest room tonight, till we both cool off.”

I spun around and pointed my finger at him, “I’m not staying in the guest room; I’m going home to my apartment you so graciously call a box.”

“Really Ellery, you’re going to run?” He waved his hand. “Why not, it’s what you do best anyway.”

Tears filled my eyes at his cold words as I stormed out of the bedroom and out of his penthouse. He didn’t come after me which told me he was really pissed off.

The night air was cold as I looked around the crowded streets of New York. I realized I didn’t have my keys so going back to my apartment wasn’t an option. I waited for a text or call or even for him to tell me was sorry and take me back upstairs with him, but he didn’t. I hailed a cab and had him take me to the nearest hotel. I was weak and exhausted as I laid myself on the bed. I looked at my phone hoping if I stared at it long enough he would call me and tell me he’s sorry.

I fell asleep sprawled across the bed and was rudely awoken from an incoming text. “Where the fuck are you? I went to your apartment and you weren’t there.”

I rolled my eyes and quickly typed my response. “It’s none of your business where I am, remember I’m doing what I do best.”

Within seconds I received another text, “You are behaving like a child and I don’t like it; now get your ass back to my penthouse.”

Shit, you talk about adding fuel to the fire; he was sure doing an exceptional job at it. I responded, “I think we need time apart to think about what each of us said last night.”

A sudden reply that broke my heart came through. “I think so to and when you stop behaving like a selfish child, then call me and we can talk.”

I did the only thing I normally do, I threw my phone against the wall and it shattered. I sighed and took a hot shower, sobbing as the water ran down my body.

I bent down to pick up the broken pieces that was once my phone. I really need to get that under control and stop throwing things. I walked to the cellular store and purchased the same phone with my same number. I can say I didn’t care about my phone, but I did because what if Peyton needed me or what if Co

Chapter 40

A few days passed and I barely left the hotel room. I read and drew pictures of things I wanted to eventually put on a canvas. Co

I put my key in the elevator and took it up to the penthouse. The door opened and I stepped out looking for Co

“Ellery, this isn’t what it looks like.”

I put my hand up and turned to walk away. I couldn’t breathe, my chest felt constricted and I was starting to panic. That was until I heard her say, “See Co

Suddenly rage replaced panic and it grew inside me at a rapid pace. I turned around and walked towards her.

“Oh shit,” Co

Ashlyn stood there with her arms crossed glaring at me as I approached her.

“I don’t think we’ve officially met, I’m Ellery, Co

“Fu

I looked at Co

“He said that?”

“Yeah he did after he kissed me and told me that it was me he loved all along and you were just a charity case he felt sorry for.”

Oh no she didn’t!

Co

“My advice to you is to crawl back into the whore hole you crawled out from and never look at me or him again. If I even catch you looking in either of our directions, I will pound my fist into you so hard that even a plastic surgeon wouldn’t be able to fix you.” I turned on my heels and started to walk away.

“You’re a crazy bitch, do you know that?” she screamed.

Co

Was he stupid or something? Did he really want to do this now when I was so full of rage?

“Let go of me Co

He let go of my arm, “You’re angry right now so I will forgive that last statement, but what I will not forgive is you taking another step and walking out that door.”

“I’m sorry Co

Co

“Now sit down on that bed and listen to me Ellery. I’m not playing games with you anymore, and I know what you just saw hurt you more than anything else. You’re going to sit there and you’re going listen to me.”

I sat there as I swallowed hard, silently trying to plan my escape.

“Go on then, explain to me who Ashlyn is and why you’ve been keeping your relationship such a secret.”

He paced back and forth across the room while ru

I looked at him and shook my head, “Who the fuck is Amanda?”

He took in a sharp breath, “Amanda is the girl who committed suicide after I broke up with her.”

My mouth fell open and I felt sick to my stomach. A thousand thoughts ran through my mind. He was coming clean about her and I owed him that chance.