Bad Girls Don't Die

Right. So I wouldn’t look for her.

I sat in silence for a minute.

Okay. I grabbed my camera. Here was the plan—I would go out and take a few pictures, and if I happened to find Kasey, I might talk to her, depending on how I felt at the time.

I slipped the camera strap around my neck and headed out into the hallway, making a lot of noise so she would know where I was.

The dining room was empty.

“Kasey?” I called quietly, stepping into the dark living room. No answer.

I went back to check the kitchen—maybe she was sitting on the floor in the corner, eating ice cream out of the carton (it’s been known to happen).

Nope. I opened the garage door. “Kase?”

I heard a thump below my feet.

The basement.

I’m no fraidy cat, mind you. I’m very open-minded about snakes, clowns, airplanes, and many other things that scare the bejeezus out of most people.

But I don’t like the basement.

In fact, Mom doesn’t like it either. It’s the one thing we agree on. Going down there is highly discouraged on the basis of Mom’s having found a nest of black widows two years earlier. The spiders were long gone, and the exterminators, who dutifully show up the third Thursday of every month, claim that they’ve never been back, but it’s still off limits. I can’t say I blame Mom. Knowing my luck, I’d find the one black widow strong enough to resist the chemicals. And I’d find it with my bare foot.

The basement door is right down the hall from the kitchen. I stood outside it for a long minute, staring at the doorknob. I really—and I mean really —had no desire to open it and go down those stairs.

But if that’s where Kasey was…

I turned the knob and pushed the door open, waiting for an enormous, hairy arachnid to swing down and jump onto my face. Didn’t happen. Maybe they’d all jumped onto Kasey, and the path was clear for me.

I took a step down, flipping the light on and closing the door behind me. There was a single lightbulb glowing pathetically over the stairs, and everything beyond that melted into a smudgy blackness, punctuated by shapes caught in the faint moonlight streaming through one tiny window.

The air was stale and stuffy. It made my head ache the same way a really humid day does. But I didn’t see any spiderwebs in my path, so I kept going.

“Kasey?” I whispered. My voice sounded hoarse.

No answer.

The room was shaped like a U, with a center wall dividing the two sides.

I thought I heard something on the other side of the wall.

“Kasey, are you down here?”

Still no answer, but this time I heard a definite sound. I went around the U—as far as I could go and still be standing in a patch of light.

I’m not afraid of the dark, but I wouldn’t say I love it. I was tempted to turn back. Even if my sister was down here, she clearly wasn’t interested in company.

Besides, who’s to say the noise was Kasey at all? It was probably gophers. Or huge rabid sewer rats.

I was a nanosecond away from making tracks back upstairs when I heard a muffled sniffle.

Even huge rabid sewer rats don’t sniffle to attract their prey.

“Kasey,” I said, trying to sound no-nonsense. “Where are you?”

“Down here,” she said. “Down where?” “Under the card table.” Naturally.

“I have a flashlight,” she said, and a weak yellow spot of light illuminated the cement floor ahead of me. I followed its path to the corner. Then Kasey shined the beam on her own face, which was puffy and wet with tears.

“Come on, Kase,” I said. “Come back upstairs.”

She shook her head furiously. “No,” she said. “I’m never going back up there.”

“Never?”

Her head bobbed in the darkness.

“Where are you going to go to the bathroom?”

She sighed. “I mean it, Lexi.”

“So do I!”

“I’ll use the guest bathroom.”

“That’s upstairs.” I reached over and took the flashlight from her, shining it around the room. “Maybe there’s a bucket around somewhere.”

She sighed a sigh that was way too big for someone who hasn’t even started high school yet.

I decided to give her a second to be alone with her thoughts, so I shined the flashlight around, looking for spiders. Just because we’d made it that far without being bitten didn’t mean they weren’t pla

I didn’t find one. I didn’t see any bugs at all.

I did find shelf after shelf of everyday items that should have been thrown away long ago. Mom will save anything. She’d even saved the boxes of other people’s rubbish that were in the house when we moved here. Dad and I are much neater, but we know better than to try to toss any of Mom’s precious garbage—excuse me, stuff.

“Lexi,” Kasey whispered, “will you tell me a story?”

A story.

My thirteen-year-old sister wanted to hear a story. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach. I didn’t know what to say.

She sensed my hesitation. “My brain is stuck. I need to change the cha

Her hand grabbed my arm. “Please,” she whispered.

“A story,” I repeated, hoping she would pick up from my tone of voice that it was a kind of a strange request. “Stories are for…little kids.”

“I don’t care. A short one. About anything.”

“Um…there’s a girl who lives on a farm in black-and-white, and then one day her house gets caught in a tornado and she wakes up surrounded by midgets and everything is in color.”

“I’ve heard that one,” she said. Her voice sounded tired and strained. “And you’re not supposed to say midget. It’s mean.”

“Oh, Kasey…”

She started to cry again. “Please, Lexi, please.”

Kasey had been normal once, had done normal kid things. She’d been bold and fu

Maybe I was an enabler. Instead of coddling her, I should tell her to make more friends at school, to do her own homework or take a failing grade. Not stand up for her anymore.

And definitely, one hundred percent, not tell her a story.

“Once upon a time,” I began, surprising both of us, “there was a man and a woman who lived in a little shack in the country next to a river.”

My voice was hard and shaky. I took a deep breath.

Kasey was silent. Afraid to say anything, probably, in case it would make me stop.

But I didn’t want to stop. I felt more of the story welling up inside of me, like a breath that needed to be exhaled. “They were young and poor—so poor that, like, some nights they didn’t have enough food to eat, but they loved each other so much that they didn’t even notice.”

Kasey drew in a quivering breath. I shined the flashlight around, making squares of light as I spoke. I moved the beam so fast that sharp glowing lines seemed to burn themselves into my brain.

“But the man worked really hard, and before long, they were doing well enough to build themselves a house.” I stared at the basement ceiling—wood rafters, some that looked a hundred years old and some newer ones, and crisscrossing rows of metal pipes. “So he built the biggest house in the whole county, big enough to show their neighbors how rich they were. They had a huge oak tree in the front yard and they built a swing on it, and on nice nights they would sit outside and swing together, and when it was cold they lit a fire and stayed inside.”

I could see it so clearly in my head; it was our house and our oak tree. And I could see the man and the woman, in their old-fashioned clothes, walking around, coming in through the front door, sitting in the back room with a fire in the fireplace.

“How did they meet?” Kasey asked.

“They met…” My eyes trailed the line of a thin pipe snaking around the edge of the room. “They met in college.”