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Sandy was hoping Aidan wasn’t going to make her eat. She wasn’t sure she could make herself swallow anything. But she was thirsty as hell. Couldn’t remember the last time she’d had something to drink. Felt like never. Sandy polished off two of the fancy glass bottles of lemonade Aidan had dropped on the bed, one after the other, before she looked back up. When she finally did, Aidan was staring at her with wide, freaked-out eyes. For the first time, he was getting just how fucked she was. She must have seemed like some kind of animal, drinking like that. She sure as hell felt like one.
“Sorry,” she said, wiping at her dirty mouth with the back of her dirty hand.
“Nah, it’s cool,” Aidan said quietly as he sat down on the bed next to her. He was looking down at his own perfectly clean hands, probably wishing he’d never invited Sandy over. He’d said he wanted to help, sure. But it was one thing to play at the edges of her fucked-up life. It was another thing to take up center stage.
“I can take off, you know,” Sandy said. She felt bad, putting all this shit on him. “No hard feelings. I don’t want you to feel, like, necessary.”
Aidan took the bottle of lemonade—Sandy’s third—from her hands, took a sip, and handed it back to her.
“Oh, I’m not necessary,” he said, turning to look at her. “I’m fucking essential.”
In the morning, when Aidan kissed Sandy goodbye on his way to school, she knew it might be the last time she’d see him. That maybe it should be. But the plan was for Sandy to slip out later, after Aidan’s mom and little brother had gone; she was supposed to meet up with Aidan after he was out of school.
“See you later,” he said. “I’ll text you.”
It had made a difference, Aidan being there. But when you lived in the middle of a shit-storm, the question wasn’t whether things were going to fly apart, it was when. The least Sandy could do was keep Aidan clear of the shrapnel.
After he was gone, Sandy pulled her mom’s journal out of her backpack and lay on the floor, tucked behind his bed, praying his mother didn’t charge in to toss the place for drugs or something while she was there. Je
What if Je
Sandy had a flash of a memory then: her and Je
There wasn’t much that Sandy remembered from her childhood, but the particular bump in the road that came before that dancing stood out because it had rolled right over her tenth birthday. Her welcome into double digits had been totally forgotten in the three straight days Je
“You’re getting it! You’re getting it!” Je
Je
“Sandy?”
When she looked up, there was a woman standing next to the booth in Pat’s Pancakes. Pretty, with pale skin and long curly reddish hair. Molly looked nice and normal. Like a regular mom, but not in a bad way. It had been Aidan’s idea to text her the night before. She was a reporter, his mom’s friend. Somebody who might be able to help.
“Yeah.” Sandy nodded, feeling a lot more nervous than she’d counted on.
“I’m Molly Sanderson.” The woman reached out a hand as she sat down in the booth across from Sandy. “I don’t know if you remember, but I actually called you a few months ago when I was doing a story on the Outreach Tutoring program. Rhea gave me your number.”
“Oh, right,” Sandy said, even though she didn’t remember. At least that explained how the hell Molly had tracked her down so fast.
“Je
Sandy nodded, then shrugged. “But she’s not your usual kind of mom.”
“I’m not sure there is such a thing,” Molly said, which was nice. She didn’t have to say that. “So you said she’s missing?”
“She left Blondie’s after work a couple days ago and never came home,” Sandy said. “She’s kind of a screwup. Totally a screwup. But not like this. She would call me.”
“I believe you,” Molly said. And it actually seemed like she did. “It sounds like you went to the police already.”
“I did. The chief of police, Steve. He was nice and everything, and he said he would help. But then I found this in his house.” She put the necklace on the table and slid it across. “It’s my mom’s. She never takes it off.”
Molly reached forward to take it. She looked concerned. “Why were you in his house?”
“I didn’t break in or anything.” I was just looking through his shit to steal drugs. “I know his daughter.”
“Would your mom have any reason to know Steve?”
“I don’t think so, unless he arrested her. That could be, except she never mentioned it. And she would have. She tells me everything. But he definitely had this weird look on his face when I said her name.”
“Did you ask his daughter?”
“Ask her what?”
“If her dad knows your mom.”
“I can’t really ask her anything right now.” Sandy shook her head, tried not to notice how raw her throat felt. “She’s kind of checked out.”
She’d been lying when she’d texted Molly that she would tell her what happened to the baby. Sandy was going to get what she needed from this reporter, and then the woman could go to hell—no offense. What had happened to that baby was a secret Sandy would take to the grave. She hadn’t even explained it to Aidan, who’d been nice enough not to ask how the hell she could have known what had happened to the baby’s head.
“You could go to other police, you know,” Molly said, like she was really trying to help. “The state police, maybe.”
“I can’t.” Sandy shook her head. She had to hope this woman would drop it. “I mean, I really can’t. Trust me.”
“Okay,” Molly said, backing off the way Sandy had wanted her to. “Let me just think for a minute.” She stared at the table. When she looked up, she crossed her arms, her face tougher. “I’ll do it. I’ll ask him why he had the necklace. And if he doesn’t have a good answer or he hasn’t done enough to find your mother, I’ll go to the state police myself. One way or another, we’ll find out what happened to her, Sandy. I promise.”