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"If it makes you look at this differently, they don't want to be involved with this man, they just don't have choice."
I snapped my head to her, I felt my face go red when she didn't explain that any further.
"Bra
She smiled a little at me. "I'm sorry, Bee, but I'm not sayin' any more. This is a conversation you need to have with Dominic alone. Just know that I fully stand by him, Ryder, and the rest of the lads. I would never go out with someone who would involve us in somethin' as dangerous as this, and I wouldn't allow you to go out with someone like that unless there was a good reason. The lads have got a handle on this so we don't need to worry."
I stared at her blankly, unblinking.
How in God's name was she so calm about this?
I shook my head at her, got up and left the kitchen and went up to my room where I flung myself onto my bed. I was still coming to grips with just dating Dominic and allowing myself to let him in. And now I had to deal with this fucking bombshell?
I shook my head into my pillow.
Was this why he fought at Darkness? Was it why he fought at all? Was this the reason why he was always battered and bruised when he came to school? Was this why he and his brothers were here in Ireland?
I had so many questions and zero answers.
I sat up, got my phone from my dresser, and unlocked it.
I need to fucking speak to you!!
I sent a text to his phone and sat back on my bed and closed my eyes and started thinking.
How the hell did my life get so complicated?
Only a few months ago I was invisible, boyfriend-less, bullied, and a complete and total loner until Dominic happened. I couldn't even remember how it felt not to feel for someone, I cared about no one bar Bra
I opened my eyes when my phone beeped and tapped on Dominic's face when his text came through.
I know I have a lot of explaining to do baby, but don't make any decisions until you hear me out. Please?
I frowned; he knew my automatic reaction would be to break up with him, and that upset me. The whole point of being with Dominic was to let go of my old insecurities, and I wasn't going back to ru
Okay, but know I'm beyond upset with you. This - you - have really hurt me.
I wasn't lying; I was hurting because of this. I didn't know if it was because Dominic kept the secret from me for so long or because of what the secret actually was. Both, I thought.
I looked at my phone when it beeped.
I'm sorry, pretty girl. I'll be over tonight; I've some stuff to sort with Ryder first but once I'm done, I'm coming straight to you. Have your girl's day with Bra
I started crying again because I prayed he was right; I really did.
"What have you done with Nico? Like how far have you gotten with him?" Bra
I looked at Bra
Bra
I sighed and just shrugged. "Not as far as you've gotten with Ryder, which I'm sure is all the way and back again multiple times, but probably way too far for only a week of goin' out."
Bra
"Details Bee, I need details."
I groaned. "I gave him a… you know."
She only raised her eyebrows at me, and I hated her, because I knew she was going to make me say the word.
"A blow job," I blurted out then squeaked and covered my face.
It was weird knowing I've done something so intimate with Dominic, and I just told my sister about it!
"You dirty minx!" Bra
"He also… you know… went down on me too and he… put his fingers up there as well."
Bra
I frowned. "What do you mean?"
She gri
I rolled my eyes. "Well, tough shite for him because I've set limits. I won't go any further than the stuff we have done already until I know in meself that I am ready. He won't pressure me either; he values his life and dick too much to do otherwise."
Bra
I looked to Bra
She continued to eat her pizza, but she watched me as I walked out to the hall until I disappeared out of her view. I opened the hall door and froze a little because of who was on the other side.
"Hey, Bronagh. Can I talk to you for a second?"
I cleared my throat and said, "Sure, Gavin. Come on in."
"Who is it?" Bra
I closed the door when Gavin stepped inside. "It's Gavin Collins, he wants to have a chat."
I smiled at Gavin then gestured towards the stairs and whispered, "We can go up to my room, she will only listen in if we stay down here."
Gavin chuckled under his breath making me snort. We headed upstairs then, with Bra
"So… what's up?" I asked as I awkwardly walked towards my bed and sat on it, facing Gavin.
He sighed and ran his hands through his thick, wavy dirty blond locks and for a moment I found myself just staring at him. I know, I know, I was Dominic's girlfriend, but I was only human, and Gavin was hot. Anyone with eyes could see that so give me a break.