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I breathe out heavily. "Todd," I say. "Please come with me." His eyes are wet but I can see him now, I can see him finally, I can see him in his face and in his Noise and in his arms as they drop to his sides in defeat.
"It's too late," he says and his voice is so sad my own eyes start to wet. "I've been dead, Viola. I've been dead."
"You haven't," I say, moving a bit closer to him. "These are impossible times."
He's looking down now, his eyes not focused on anything.
Feeling nothing , his Noise says. Take nothing in-
I am the circle and the circle is me.
"Todd?" I say and I'm close enough to reach his hand. "Todd, look at me."
He looks up and the loss in his Noise is so great it feels like I'm standing on the edge of an abyss, that I'm about to fall down into him, into blackness so empty and lonely there'd never be a way out.
"Todd," I say again, a catch in my voice. "On the ledge, under the waterfall, do you remember what you said to me? Do you remember what you said to save me?"
He's shaking his head slowly. "I've done terrible things, Viola. Terrible things-"
"We all fall, you said." I'm gripping him hard now. "We all fall but that's not what matters. What matters is picking yourself up again."
But he shakes me off.
"No," he says, turning away. "No, it was easier when you weren't here. It was easier when you couldn't see-"
"Todd, I've come to save you-"
"No. I didn't have to think about nothing-"
"It's not too late."
"It is too late," he says, shaking his head. "It is!"
And he's moving away.
Away from me.
I'm losing him-
And I get an idea.
A dangerous, dangerous idea.
"The attack's coming tomorrow at sundown," I say.
He blinks again in surprise. "What?"
"That's when it happens." I swallow and step forward, trying to keep my voice steady. "I'm only supposed to know the fake plan, but I found out the real one. The Answer are coming over the hill with the notch in it just to the south of here, just to the south of this cathedral, Todd. They're coming right here and I'm sure they're coming right for the Mayor."
He looks nervously at the side door but I'm keeping my voice down. "There are only two hundred of them, Todd, but they're fully armed with guns and bombs and a plan and a hell of a leader who isn't going to stop until she topples him."
"Viola-"
"They're coming," I say, moving closer again. "And now you know when and from where and if that information gets to the Mayor-"
"You shouldn't have told me," he says, not meeting my eye. "I hide things but he figures them out. You shouldn't have told me!" I keep moving forward. "Then you have to come with me, don't you? You have to or he wins forever and ever and he'll be the one to rule this planet and he'll be the one who greets the new settlers-"
"With his hand outstretched," Todd says, his voice suddenly soft. "What?"
But he just extends his hand out into the empty air, staring at it. "Greeting it with his son."
"Well, we don't want that either." I look nervously round to the front door. Lee is sticking his head in, trying not to look too out of place, but there are soldiers marching by out front. "We don't have much time."
Todd's hand is still outstretched.
"I've done bad things, too," I say. "I wish everything was different but it isn't. There's only now and here and you have to come with me if we have any chance of making this come out any good at all."
He doesn't say anything but his hand is still out and he's looking at it and so I move forward another step and I take it in my own.
"We can save the world," I say, trying to smile. "You and me."
He looks into my eyes, searching, trying to read me, trying to see if I'm actually here, if it's actually true, if the things I say are real, he searches and he searches-
But he doesn't find me.
Oh, Todd-
"Going somewhere?" says a voice from across the room. A voice from a man holding a gun.
***
It's a different man from the one who let us in, a man I've never seen before.
Except once, in Todd's Noise.
"How did you get out?" Todd says, surprise rippling through him.
"You wouldn't leave without this, would you?" he says. In his non - gun hand, he's got the journal of Todd's mother. "You give that to me!" Todd says.
The man ignores him and waves his gun at Lee. "Come inside now," he says. "Or I will ever so happily shoot our dear friend Todd."
I look back. Lee's got flight all over his Noise but he sees the gun pointed at Todd, sees my face, and comes forward, his Noise saying so loud that he won't leave me here that it almost distracts me from the gun.
"Drop it," the man says, referring to Lee's rifle. Lee sends it clattering to the floor.
"You liar," Todd says to the man. "You coward."
"For the good of the town, Todd," the man says.
"All that moaning," Todd says, his voice and Noise fiery. "All that bitching and moaning about how he's ruining everything and yer just another spy."
"Not at first," the man says, walking toward us. "At first I was just how you saw me, the former Mayor disgraced and left alive in all his inconvenience." The man passes Todd and comes up to me, putting Todd's book under one arm. "Give me your pack."
"What?" I say.
"Give it to me." He swings his arm back and points the gun right at Todd's head. I slide the pack off my shoulders and give it to him. He doesn't even open it the regular way, just feels along the bottom, feeling right for the secret pouch, the secret pouch where if you press right, you can feel my gun.
The man smiles. "There it is," he says. "The Answer don't change, do they?"
"You touch a hair on her head," Todd says, "and I'll kill you."
"So will I," Lee says.
The man keeps smiling. "I think you have a competitor, Todd."
"Who are you?" I say, a
"Con Ledger, Mayor of Haven, at your service, Viola." He gives a little bow. "Since that's who you must be, isn't it?" He walks around Todd. "Oh, the President was very interested in the Noise of your dreams, my boy. Very interested in what you thought about while you were sleeping. About how much you miss your Viola, how you would do anything to find her."
I see Todd's face starting to glow red.
"And suddenly he became far more agreeable to me, asking me to pass along certain information to you, see if we could get you to do what he wanted." Mayor Ledger looks ridiculous, all the things he's carrying, a gun in one hand, pack in the other, book under his arm, and still trying to appear threatening. "I must say, it worked like a charm." He winks at me. "Now that I know when and where the Answer are going to attack."
Lee's Noise rises and he takes a furious step forward. Mayor Ledger cocks the pistol. Lee stops.
"Like it?" asks the Mayor. "The President gave it to me when he gave me my own key."
He smiles again, then sees how we're all looking at him. "Oh, stop it," he says. "If the President defeats the Answer then all this will be over. All the bombings, all the restrictions, all the curfews." His smile's a bit weaker now. "You have to learn how to work within the system for change. When I'm his deputy, I'll work very hard to make things better for everyone." He nods at me. "Women, too."