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This is not good. This is all too friendly and intimate. It’s all just too much, especially after the way I prattled on to him at the diner… letting him in on a secret not one other person knows about me.
I feel itchy and tense and fuck… now my palms are sweating. I rub them furiously on the hem of my shorts and realize that I need to get this turned around. Quickly trotting over to my stereo, I put on some music and completely luck out with R. Kelly’s Bump N’ Grind.
Straightening up, I turn toward the back door and see Te
Taking a deep breath, I let it out. I also let out all the warm and fuzzies I’ve been feeling for Te
As Te
No wonder it works so well.
Stepping up to him, my fingers dip down into the waistband of his jeans. I crane my neck to look up at him and my breath never fails to get robbed by his sky blue eyes, those provocative lips, and that kick-ass goatee.
“Something occurred to me,” I tell him with a throaty purr.
“What’s that?” he asks, his eyes heating up over the promise in my voice.
“You bestowed all kinds of oral pleasure on me the other night, and I never even got to return the favor.” For good measure, I stick my lower lip out into a pout as my hands reach for his belt buckle. My head dips down but I raise my eyes up in coy flirtation, knowing my long lashes framing my eyes will look spectacular to him from that angle.
As I unhook his belt from the buckle, I lower my eyes to my task and whisper just loud enough for him to hear, “You have no idea the things I can do with this mouth.”
A low growl thunders in Te
Hot breath rushes out of Te
Te
I pull his zipper down, peel the fly apart, and my mouth actually waters as I get a glimpse of the mushroomed head of his cock sticking up past the edge of his boxers. Odd… never had my mouth water to get a taste of a man before, but right now, saliva pools over my tongue.
“Be warned,” I say with a soft moan as my fingers graze over the tip. “I’ll bring you to your knees.”
“Casey… stop,” Te
I ignore him and push my fingers past the elastic of his underwear, curling my hand around his length. “You’ll be begging me to finish you off—”
“Just stop, Casey,” Te
Feeling like a wave of ice-cold water just doused me, I look up at him and blink in surprise. His jaw is hard and his eyes are frosty.
“What’s wrong?” I ask as an empty pit starts forming in my stomach.
Te
Hmmmm. I thought I was being obvious, but apparently not.
I step back up to him, and my hand reaches toward his dick. “I’m going to make you feel good, baby,” I say, and then I’m stu
“You can suck my cock later,” he snarls at me. “But I want to know what the fuck you think you’re doing? What’s with the act?”
“Act?” I ask, dumbfounded.
“Yeah… act,” he says with exasperation, and then he mimics me, “Oh, baby… I’m going to have you begging. Oh, baby… you’ve never had it this good. Blah, blah, blah.”
My mouth drops open in stu
“I like dirty talk just fine,” Te
I just stare at him, so completely shocked to hear this revelation about myself.
“I’m not into playing games, Casey. I want you. You,” he emphasizes again by placing a finger gently in the middle of my chest. “Not some shell of a woman that operates on auto pilot because she’s afraid to feel.”
“I don’t—” I start to say, but he cuts me off quickly.
“You do,” he rolls right over me. “You’re problem is you’ve never had anyone tell you the truth, but I’m fucking telling you right now… this shit you’re doing? It ain’t fucking sexy to me at all.”
Oily, black, sludgy shame rolls through me, and my stomach actually pitches sideways. Is this what I’ve become? Have I been reduced to someone who operates on a nonexistent plane just to keep myself untouchable? Have I done this with my friends? My family?
My face lowers to the ground, and all I can do is whisper, “I’m sorry.”
Strong arms immediately wrap around me, one around my upper back and the other cradling my head. Te
Shaking my head, I manage to mutter in to his chest, “I’m not sure I know how to be any other way.”
Te
He’s right. I’m a fucking coward for sure. It’s so easy to be that other Casey… keeping everyone at a distance, completely shielding myself and depending only upon myself to fulfill my own desires.
Unfortunately or fortuitously, I’m not sure which at this point, but Te
Pulling gently out of his embrace, I screw up my courage and lift my eyes to his. “I’d like to try this again,” I say softly, and he gives me an accepting smile in return.
Taking him by the hand, I lead him all the way into the living room and over to a small corner chair that I got at a garage sale. I turn him so his back is to the chair and bring my fingers up to the edge of his boxers again. His erection hasn’t diminished a bit, and that gives me heart.
“Can I try again?” I ask him hesitantly as I look at my fingers hovering right over his hardness.
Te
Giving him a smile of my own, I take a deep breath. I let my fingers settle in over the tip of his cock, lightly stroking it. “Okay… so, this might not sound very sexy but the truth is… when I first opened your jeans up and saw your erection, my mouth actually watered.”