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"Haras. Don't break down on me. You haven't come this far to beg me like a child."
Thorn came over to the window and turned his back to it. It took the sight away. It put light on Duun's face and hid his own. "Don't play me tricks. I can't—" ( Can't,mi
"The transmissions come at regular intervals," Duun said in a calm, still voice. "They repeat, mostly. What do they say?"
"I told you what they said."
"You encourage me."
"To what?" Thorn looked up at the window; perspective destroyed the illusion, made it only glare and dark, meaningless. He flinched from it and looked back. "Is that why they're afraid of me?"
"I took an alien, I held it, fed it, warmed it— it was small, but it would grow. I took it up on a mountain and lived with it alone. I slept under one roof with it, I made it angry, I encouraged it and pushed it and I had nightmares, mi
(Duun— o gods, Duun—) It was beyond hurt.
"…I was more than fair with it. I gave it everything I had to give; I went from step to step. I made it shonun. I taught it; argued with it; discovered 220
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its mind and step by step I gave it everything I knew how to teach. Every chance. You grew up shonun. No one knew what to expect. When I told Ellud I would make you hatani he was appalled. When the world knew—there was near panic. No matter. It never reached you. When I told Ellud I would bring you to the guild— well, hatani was bad enough: their judgments were limited. But to put you in the guild— That was earthquake. And you won it. You won Tangen. You did it all, mi
"Do you love me, Duun?"
(Thrust and evade.) Duun's scarred ear twitched and he smiled. There was sorrow in it and satisfaction. "That's a hatani question."
"I was taught by the best."
(Second attack.) Duun's mouth tautened on the scarred side. "Let me tell you a story, mi
"Is it a good one?"
"It's how I lost the fingers. You've always wondered, haven't you?— I thought you had. No one asks the questions of their relatives that they really want to know— after they grow up. And they never discover the good questions until it's far too personal to ask."
"Was it my fault?"
"Ah. I got through your guard."
"Tell me the story, Duun."
"We were rank begi
The companies moved in. We had scientific bases here and there. Hatani guild, ghota, tanun— kosan here and there; not many. A lot of ordinary folk, doing what ordinary folk do— making money, mostly; or learning things. The world fared pretty well in those days. Then a ship turned up."
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Duun's face lifted slightly, a gesture toward the window, toward the lights.
"The one out there."
"Not shonun," Thorn said.
"Not shonun. It was pretty badly battered when I first saw it. It's not clear what happened at first: it scared hell out of the Dothog mission and someone started shooting, it's not clear which side. They were ghotanin, of course. There wasn't much left to question to fix responsibility. But the ship didn't leave the solar system then— too heavily damaged. It moved off, faster than anyone wanted to believe; ghotanin and kosanin chased that thing where they could— we could at least tell each other where it was heading. And for the next two years we chased that ship and battered at it. We. Tangen sent me up. I wasn't chief of the mission then, but I survived longer. We battered away at it; we lost ships. Its maneuvers got slower. We knew it was transmitting. We knew it was transmitting to someone outside the solar system, and we finally silenced that. We chewed away at it and finally we got it at a speed we could match. We boarded. There was one of them still alive. We tried to take him that way.
That was my mistake." Duun lifted the maimed hand, palm outward. "He got all the rest of us. One blast. I got through it and got to him. I killed him. We found out later the ship was rigged in a way that might have destroyed it. But he never did that. We found four others frozen in vacuum. And this one. Maybe he was crazy by then. Maybe he thought he could live a little longer. Maybe he was afraid to use that last trick. But I got back; we hauled that ship in with all it contained.
"It changed the world, Thorn. Until that time we thought we were alone.
And this thing was a nightmare. Two years. Two years of throwing everything we had at it and it was five of these people. Just five. They nearly wrecked the world. They cost us— O gods. Nothing was the same.
And there was panic. They came to me, the council did. I was very famous then. It was those first days: we'd stopped it damn close to the earth. That was why we fought like that, and why it cost so much. The council asked me to do something: Tangan had refused them. Hatani judgment? I asked them. Is that what you want? We'll give you anything, they said, any help.
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had the guilds all pulling in different directions, and kosan and ghota at odds. You've been out there, they said; give us a solution. And I took them up on it." Duun motioned to the window. "I knew there were transmissions that went out from that ship while we hunted it. I thought there might be answers we couldn't hear. I called in scientists. I ordered Gatog built. I ordered that ship studied. I ordered it duplicated if we could. I ordered you— created. You're him, Thorn; you're the man on the ship. Born from his blood, his cells. You aremy enemy. I made you over again. You are my war, my way to fight a war we didn't know how to fight. You're my answer. I knew what you would look like— what you will look like, in another ten-year. I knew what you'd grow into— physically. But now I know what I killed. What he might have been. If he were my son."
Thorn shut his eyes. There were tears. ("Don't you know by now I can't?") They ran when he blinked and shattered Duun's image when he looked at Duun again. 'You're maneuvering me."
"I'm hatani. Of course. I always have been. I told you that."
"The way you maneuvered Tangan. Gods— why? What do you want?"
"You're the world's long nightmare. A bad dream. Everything earth has went to build Gatog, to build that other ship— You understand what it is to jump that far that fast in industry? New materials, new processes, new physics— new fears and new money and all that goes with it. Politics.
Companies. A world that had just reached out into space— and all of a sudden— discoveries that shatter it. Energies that, gods help us— we're still unraveling, technologies with potentials we're not ready to cope with, with all that means. We didn't know, when that ship transmitted, how long we had before an answer might come. We know now that ship came from a star nine light-years out. That's when the first message came— nine years after that ship first transmitted. We don't know how fast the ship traveled. We're begi
Translight. I was naive at first. I imagined we had years— half of a century— to get here. Duplicate the ship. Teach them a lesson. Send the kosan guild to deal with them and hatani to settle matters. We know a lot more now— what the cost of a ship like that is when you have to develop each part and joint as a new technology; the social cost of changes. It's 223