Total Eclipse

Dont bullshit me, Jo. Its not a mission; its called shuffling the stupid bikini girl out of the way. Her eyes filled with tears, and they broke free in silver trails down her face. Damn you. And thank you.

Sweetie I didnt know what to say. I finally just reached over and hugged her, and Tommy as well. I kissed them both. Youre brilliant.

Youre a jerk, Cherise said. And I adore you, by the way.

Ditto.

Ditto? Wow. Feel the love!

Now? I thought wed get a room and do it up right. I blew her a kiss, and she blew me a raspberry. Smiling through her tears. Ill be okay, Cher. You know I will. But I have to know youll be okay.

Yeah, she said softly. I will be. Sohow does this work? Do I walk, or . . .

No. I walk. David, Whitney, whoevers driving, take her back to town and find someplace safe she can stay. Without me, she wont be a target. Ill head toward the plant. You can come back for me.

There was radio silence, which I figured indicated yet another behind-the-scenes Dji

Aye aye, Captain. I reached in the back and grabbed one stuffed duffel bag loaded with water, food, insulating blankets, a flashlight, batteries, guns, ammo . . . everything a girl needs on vacation, except ta

Damn, that thing was fast.

My jog settled into a walk after a while. The day was bright, but not too hot, mercifully. I could sense that the land was troubled around me, restless, and I began to extend my awareness out. There were living things around me, lots of them, mostly small, but all universally pissed off, thanks to the influence of the Mother. I was more worried about a snake coming after me than a lightning bolt. Id have a lot more warning from the lightning bolt.

My watch clocked in fifteen minutes before I had the perimeter of the building fully in sight. I slowed down and stopped, because there wasnt a lot of cover, and I was fairly certain that even thinking about strolling up to the gates was strongly discouraged. I sat down and had some water. Four separate colonies of fire ants were making tracks in my direction, streaming with grim purpose over rocks and dirt. Next to full- fledged army ants, fire ants were one of the creepiest warrior insects out there, in terms of their dedication to a cause. I formed a barrier that fended them off, respectfully keeping a good twenty-foot distance between them and me. Piles of ants started forming, trying to scale the invisible wall. Theyd keep doing that, forming ladders and chains out of their own bodies, climbing and climbing, until they found a way over, or gravity toppled them.

Like I said. Committed.

My cell phone rang. The cheerful tones sounded even more out of place here than they normally did, and I slapped at my pockets quickly, trying to muffle it. I was too far away for the perimeter guards to hear anything that small, but it still spooked me.

I turned off the ringer and looked at the screen.

It was Lewis.

I talked to Cherise, he said. She told me about Kevin.

Oh, God. I hadnt thoughtOf course she had. Of course she would. I heard the anguish in his voice. Hehe was trying to protect us, I said. Im so sorry. He was Was what? A good kid? He hadnt been, really. But hed tried. He was brave. Yes. He was that.

He cleared his throat. Okay, he agreed, and sounded grateful. Cherise tells me youre back on the playing field, Jo. You and David.

Davids more cheerleader right now than suited up to play, but thats better than nothing. I swallowed and clutched the phone tighter. We almost didnt make it, Lewis. I thought I was going to lose him.

Im pretty sure he thought the same about you. But I knew youd come through. You always do. He let a second pass, then changed the subject. I need you to do something for us.

Ready. I already knew it wouldnt be picking flowers, or even something easy that a lower- level Warden would do. He saved the worst jobs for his best people.

I need you to distract the attention of the Dji

My mouth went dry, and I sipped more water before I could answer. What are we talking about, Lewis?

We need to hit her back, he said. Were playing defense, Jo, and were getting slaughtered. Get her attention, pull her to your location, and the Dji

Actually, I would be, and he knew it. The Wardens could only travel so fast, and the Dji

He was asking me to do something that would make a significant sting to the Earth, and then he was asking me to stand still while the Dji

There was a name for that: suicide bomber. And me, sitting here next to a plant chock full of plutonium, uranium, and nuclear weapons. I could do the math, and the math divided by zero.

Lewis, I said slowly. You understand what youre asking me to do?

Yes, he replied. Believe me, I do understand. But theyre targeting our Warden network, and its folding. Once thats broken, things will get worse again, very fast, and therell be nothing we can do to stop it. Weve got only about another day, Jo, before they destroy every Warden on the planet. After that, it wont even be a week before humanity is purged down to almost nothing. Its extinction. This is the best move we have.

And better me than you, I said. I dont mean that in a cruel way. The Wardens need a leader, and youve got us this far. I understand that you need to go on. I gulped in an unsteady breath. I dont. I get it.

Jo . . . There was so much torment in that one whisper, so much horror and frustration, that I wanted to reach through the phone and hold him, this man who was sending me to my death. Only somebody of your quality could do this in the first place, and minimize loss of life. Youre my only choice. I wish it was His voice failed, broken, and all I heard was harsh, uneven breathing as he tried to get hold of himself again.

I felt a wave of resentment pass over me. How many times? How many times do I have to be the one who gives? It was a valid question. Id worked my ass off for the Wardens, Id saved them time and time again. Why did it have to be me, again?

One thing about waves: they pass. The emotion peaked, then receded, and in its wake I felt . . . calm. Oddly centered.

Ill get them here, I said. Ill hold them here as long as I can. Lewis?

Yeah? His voice was low and husky, choked with what he couldnt say.

Make it worth it.

No pressure. Theresome of his usual dark humor was back in place, armor against the world. I laughed.

No pressure, I assured him, and just before I pressed the END CALL button, I whispered, I always loved you, just a little bit. Bye.

I cut the signal before I could hear his response, if he could have managed to make one. I didnt think David would have objected to me saying that. It was true, and it was the last chance Id have to make that particular statement count.

Silence. I listened to the wind, which was blowing in from the north, bringing the bitter taste of sand out of Oklahoma. Red dust, filming the horizon. The sun was a fierce, hard ball in the sky, heading west, dropping on its predetermined course without any thought at all for whatever happened here on this complicated little oasis of life. Id always wondered if other planets had some kind of vast awareness, too; maybe Earth got into neighborhood scraps with Venus and Mars, or yelling matches with big bully Jupiter. Maybe the sun had its own voice, its own life. Maybe the entire universe was alive with life, in forms we couldnt recognize because we were too limited in our sight.