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For a man who positioned himself in continual combat with the world, with her, his generosity knew no limit.
Yet still, some part of himself he kept locked away. She could not fathom what—if she had any questions about himself, he answered. No evasions or half-truths. Not that she could sense. Beneath it all, though, he still seemed as much a stranger as he had been on their wedding day. And the more intimacy they shared, the greater this discrepancy felt.
She might be able to discover more about him through knowing his friends. As the conversation fell into an amiable lull, A
“Rather a passion of mine,” he answered. “The era wherein the king held all the power is long over. This country is controlled by ministers and secretaries.”
“God help us all,” muttered Leo.
John’s mouth curled. “God is not part of the process.”
“Not with your hands in everyone’s dealings.”
A
“There’s to be a treaty, and an exchange of territories in the coming months. Some secretly oppose the treaty, but they shan’t provide an obstacle, for all their cabals to prevent it.”
“Secretly? You must be kept in confidence, to know this.”
“In a ma
Bram gave an amused snort but, at her questioning look, merely drank his wine.
She felt as though two conversations occurred simultaneously, yet she could understand only one of them, the other spoken in a language too subtle to be grasped.
More courses followed, more talk. The cook had been eager to display his talents, and A
Surely Lord Whitney had written his letter with a branding iron rather than a quill, for his words seared her, even now. Bargains with the Devil. Sinister magic. Phenomena reserved for sermons and lurid tales.
When, at last, it came time for the women to adjourn to the parlor, A
“Beloved,” murmured Edmund. “Go with Mrs. Bailey.”
“Of course, my dearest.” Rosalind stood and glided after A
As A
Tea and ratafia awaited them in the parlor. The room felt hot and small, confining where the dining room had been a chill cavern. Rosalind sat placidly on a settee and stared off at nothing.
“May I offer you something to drink?” A
“Oh ... tea, I suppose. Do you think that’s what Edmund would want me to have?”
“I’m sure he wants you to have whatever it is you want.” Yet Rosalind stared at her, blank as snow. So A
Moments went by as she and Rosalind sat together silently. The other woman took sips at regular intervals, like a wound-up automaton that mirrored human movement, yet without thought.
“How are your writing endeavors?”
Rosalind blinked. “Writing?”
“Some time ago, you hosted a levee. You were gracious enough to invite me. I remember you read an original composition, some verses about the war between the sexes. It was much admired amongst the company for its acuity and imagination.”
“I do not remember.”
“This was ... before. During your ... other marriage.”
Yet Rosalind merely shook her head. “I do not remember anything, really, before Edmund.” She smiled.
A
This, from a woman renowned for her wit? Again, Lord Whitney’s letter reverberated through her, its many assertions that she had been so quick to dismiss as the work of a faulty or devious mind. How could A
Nearby candles guttered, the flames turning to smoke.
Valeria Livia Corva. The name wove into her thoughts. A Roman woman’s name.
A
How could Lord Whitney possibly know about A
The parlor tilted as her head spun, the air thick and close. She needed fresh, cool wind. Outside, in the garden. Yes—to go outside, that would clear her head and help make sense of the morass in which she’d sunk.
“Will you excuse me for a moment?”
Rosalind merely smiled, and so A
She hesitated. No footmen stood in attendance in the hallway. Rosalind remained upstairs. A
She pressed her ear to the door. Thick wood muted sound, and she had more a general sense of different men speaking than their actual words. The low rumble of Bram. Edmund’s measured pace. And Leo—his voice she knew now almost as well as her own. In the depths of night, she had heard him speak words both tender and demanding, had heard him hoarse with passion, and drowsy with satiation. In a room crowded with a hundred men’s voices, she would find his, unerring.
He spoke now, and A
“... asked around ... no one ... as if Whit ... vanished.”
Oh, God. They spoke of Lord Whitney. She wrapped her arms around herself, but did not move away from the door.
“... certain?” That was John, cutting and precise.
“... only Mr. Holliday ... yet he has been mute ...”
It seemed as though Edmund spoke next. “... safe, then?”
“Never safe,” said Bram.
“... remain alert ... notify the others if ...”
“Madam?”
A
Of a certain, news would spread amongst the servants that the lady of the house was caught listening at doors like a housemaid. The question remained whether Leo would hear this news, passed from the servants’ table to the valet, and from the valet to the master. Little help for it. Either Leo would know, or he would not. And then ... she did not know what then.
Secrets. They kept building, widening a chasm between her and Leo.
A
She turned and walked out into the garden, out into the cold. She had no shawl, and shivered in her silk gown, yet she did not want to return inside. Not yet.
Shells crunched beneath her delicate slippers, digging through the flimsy sole to stab into her feet. She could go nowhere on such fragile shoes. Within minutes, they would be torn to pieces on London’s rough streets. Yet she wanted to run, and run far. To a place where the sun shone and revealed everything. Where she could laugh at shadows, dismiss them, destroy them.