Chain Reaction

Chapter Twelve

Celene’s grip tightened on the controls as she neared the planet. She entered the planetary atmosphere and approached the coast where the compound was situated. Details came into focus as she flew lower—the individual treetops, the peaks of waves pounding against the shore. And there, the compound, with its walled perimeter. Her gaze moved quickly along the top of the wall, sca

Her heart contracted sharply. She’d suffered losses of comrades in the past, seen some of her squad mates die right off her own wing, and mourned. The memories and absences never truly dissipated, remaining a low, constant ache. Yet it was a tolerable ache, more readily borne by the fact that this was war, and war meant death and loss.

But if Nils had fallen… She knew she would survive. As a husk, empty of everything inside.

She brought the Phantom around and lowered down to the landing pad. As the ship touched the ground, she saw a figure ru

Her throat closed, and her pulse stuttered. The figure wore an 8th Wing uniform, and sped toward her with a long-legged stride. Nils.

Fumbling with the buckle of her safety belt, she struggled to rise. The moment the buckle came undone, she slammed from the cockpit and out of the ship.

Nils collided with her. She barely had time to notice how bruised and dirty he was, the fatigue sharpening his features. All she saw was his face, the long lines of his body, and then they were embracing. Her arms wrapped around him, and he held her just as tightly, cradling her head with one hand, stroking the length of her body with the other as if to confirm that she was real.

One of them shook. Or maybe they both did. She didn’t know. She did know that relief poured through her so hot and furious she felt almost ill with it.

Eventually they managed to separate. Only a few inches. Grime streaked Nils’s face and she gently rubbed at it, then decided to leave it be. He looked like a fighter, the furthest thing from a NerdWorks recluse who never left the safety of Engineering, and emotion tore through her.

For a moment, they simply stared at one another, until the savage tenderness in his gaze made her look away. In the heat of battle, she had turned her back on him, and it felt like an open wound.

“Marek?” she asked.

He shook his head. “There isn’t going to be a court-martial.”

“Was it good and painful?”

A dark pleasure lit his eyes. “Extremely.”

8th Wing regulations demanded the lengthy justice process, but for once, she was happy to subvert it. If his disruptor had made it into PRAXIS’s hands, Marek would have wiped out the 8th Wing in a slow, ugly death. She wanted him to suffer. That might go against principles, yet she didn’t care. Let Marek hurt, then rot. He deserved it, and worse.

“PRAXIS?” Nils asked. “The disruptor plans?”

“Cosmic dust.”

A grin spread across his mouth. “Never expected anything less.” His gaze heated, and he lowered his head for a kiss.

Much as she wanted that kiss, she pulled away. He stared at her with a puzzled frown as she paced away to the edge of the landing pad. Strange, she’d once faced seven PRAXIS ships without a molecule of real fear, but what she had to tell Nils made her heart pound and her mouth go dry.

She stared out at the debris-strewn compound, parts from the sentries and bots lying in smoking heaps. Desolation washed over the compound, the sound of the waves a dull roar, and heavy, tropic air listlessly stirring the dust.

She drew a breath. She had to say this now. No turning away.

“I left you,” she said on a rasp. “When PRAXIS was getting away, and I flew after in pursuit. I left you.”

“Of course you left,” he answered, clearly puzzled. “You had to go after them and destroy the plans. The only rational action.”

She spun to face him. “But I saw you, as I was flying away. You and Marek, on the wall, fighting. And I kept going. I left you.” The throb in her injured arm faded beneath the raw ache of her confession. “I’m sorry, Nils.”

He stared at her for too long. Then, “I don’t accept your apology.”

She ought to have suspected this, but it didn’t stop the hurt. “I understand.”

To her surprise, he didn’t back away. Instead, he stepped closer, threading his hands behind her neck. Securing her, giving her support.

“I don’t accept your apology,” he said hotly, “because there’s nothing that requires it.”

“But I abandoned you—”

His fingers tightened, as did the line of his mouth. “Celene, this is war. Each of us has a duty to carry out, and if we let personal feelings hinder us from performing that duty, we don’t deserve to wear these uniforms. I’m not angry. Not disappointed. You fulfilled your responsibility, just as I fulfilled mine.” A crease appeared between his brows. “This kind of regret doesn’t seem like you.”

“It’s just that…” She struggled to speak. “This is new for me—caring for someone the way I care about you. Leaving you behind as you fought for your life…it tore me apart.”

His gaze flared, yet he said levelly, “But you did what you had to.”

She nodded, her neck stiff with the effort.

“Then there’s nothing to regret. I’m proud of you, Celene.”

The strength of his words felt like the notes of a Ellalian bell, chiming low and melodious, lifting her higher. “And I’m proud of you, Nils.”

“Good,” he rumbled, “because now I’m going to kiss you until we knock this planet out of orbit.”

They came together, mouths hungry, hands gripped tight. The kiss awakened every nerve within her, transforming the fury and terror of the fight into consuming desire, creating a chain reaction of need. Her body tightened, and she soaked in the feel of him against her, hard with muscle, alive, purposeful. He met her with his own strength. It felt as though they could generate enough power to realign whole solar systems.

She reluctantly took her lips from his. “Until we reach home base, the mission remains ongoing.”

“Meaning,” he said with disappointment, “we don’t get to see where this kiss leads.”

“Need to make a sweep of all the buildings.” She glanced around at the wreckage. “Marek might have stashed more copies of the disruptor plans.”

“Or other weapons. But first, let’s tend your wounds.”

After Nils saw to her injuries, she said, “Now let’s clean this place out like we’re defleaing a vihond.”

Weariness weighted her body, but she forced herself to go through the entire compound. She and Nils moved from building to building, sifting through debris, piles of equipment and months of accumulated detritus. Nils cursed long and creatively when he uncovered a cache of experimental weaponry—the functionality of which she could only guess at, but, knowing Marek, they would’ve been brutal. Fortunately, they found no more assembled disruptors, nor plans, but everything suspect they gathered into a heap in the central of the compound.

“I would almost suggest taking these weapons back to base for further study,” Nils murmured, staring down at them, “but that means a slim chance that they might be put into use.”

So, he concocted an accelerant from materials found in Marek’s workshop, and the lot of it was turned to smoldering remains.

“The smoke reminds me of the old-fashioned purification ceremonies they still perform on my homeworld every Solstice.” She stared at the column of smoke as it rose into the sky. “Wonder if Marek’s greed and malice are being scattered amongst the clouds, never to be seen or experienced again.”

“I wish that were true.” Nils’s arm came up to wrap around her shoulder, and she knew he felt the same weight she did, the fight with PRAXIS that seemed endless. What would life in peacetime be like? She’d been born into war, and it might continue long after her. But the alternative was worse—a galaxy completely enslaved to a massive corporate monster. The fight had to continue, for as long as it took.