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I swat his arm and then sit down onto Kayden’s lap,
immediately overwhelmed by the scent of his cologne. His slings
an arm around my shoulders and pulls me into him as he guides
the seat belt down from behind himself and fastens it over both of
us. It’s snowing outside and fluffy flakes are stuck in the brown
locks of his hair. I run my hand gently along the top of his head
and dust them out. Some of them melt from my body heat and his
hair ends up with this wet, sexy look.
“So where do we still have to go?” Luke asks as he tosses his
bag into the back of the truck that still has Kayden’s motorcycle in
it, and then he hops in and slams the door. The truck is already
ru
vents.
“To my house,” I say. “And…” I look at Kayden. He hasn’t
been home since we took off to San Diego and I can tell he
doesn’t want to go back. But he has to go back and get his clothes
and stuff and I think deep down he might want to talk to his
brother Tyler. “And to Kayden’s, I think.”
The cab becomes silent and then Luke sighs and drives out
onto the main road, flipping on the wipers. The roads are a little
slushy and slick so he reaches to the small shifter in the center and shoves it into four-wheel drive. The truck makes a loud thud and
jerks as it slides into gear.
“Jesus.” Seth makes a face as he turns his legs to the side and
adjusts his seat belt, which has tightened. “It feels like it’s going to fall apart.”
Luke pats the dash. “It’s fine. It’s just old.”
Seth rolls his eyes and then crosses his arms. We all remain
quiet as he veers off roads and makes turns down the narrow
streets. The radio plays “Wonderwall,” by Oasis, and then “Hands
Down,” by Dashboard Confessionals. When he pulls into the
driveway beside my house, Luke puts it into park and mutters,
“Hurry up.”
“Relax,” Kayden tells him, flipping the handle and pushing
open the door. He brings his foot to the ground and climbs out,
moving me out with him. Once my feet are planted firmly to the
ground, he releases his grip on me and slams the door.
I don’t ask questions when he takes my hand and walks up
the driveway with me. He never said anything about coming inside,
but I think in his own head he’s protecting me. We walk up the
steps and I try not to think about the haunting memories inside
out and out. Instead, I think about the good ones that I spent with
Kayden and Seth.
By the time we reach the top of the stairs, my mother is
swinging the door open. She has on an apron over a floral cream
skirt and a white shirt trimmed with lace. Her hair is curled up at
the ends and she has a string of pearls around her neck. She also
has a plate of chocolate chip cookies in her hand and she’s smiling
brightly. I can tell Kayden’s trying really hard not to laugh at the
Leave It to Beaver theme she’s got going on.
“I’m so glad you decided to stop by,” she says and then pulls
me in for a hug while balancing the cookies in her hand. She
moves back and then hugs Kayden too. He pats her back,
awkwardly exchanging a confounded look with me.
But all I can do is smile. At that moment, I love my mother,
the cookies, and the 1960s dresses and all because I’m pretty sure
no one has hugged Kayden like that besides me. She urges the
plate of cookies at us, and shaking my head with a tiny smile, I take a one to make her happy. I had accidentally let it slip during on a
phone conversation about my throwing-up problem and I’m pretty
sure for the rest of my life she will probably try to overfeed me.
The good-byes are quick and my dad and Kayden even chat
a little bit about football. They don’t ask him questions about what
happened with Caleb or his dad, even though the gossip around
town is spi
every felony charge imaginable.
We’re heading out to the truck when Jackson’s car pulls into
the driveway. My initial reaction is to run away from him, because
he’s usually got Caleb attached to his hip. But there’s no one
sitting in the passenger seat so I relax and let out a loud breath.
“You coming?” Kayden asks, and I realize I’m standing in the
middle of the driveway, staring at my brother.
I hold up a finger, indicating I need a minute. “Just a sec.”
He eyes me with worry in his green eyes. “Are you sure?”
I nod as my brother climbs out of the car. He’s looking at me
and I can’t read his stoic expression at all. “Yeah, I just need to talk to him.”
Kayden nods and then he heads for the truck, passing
Jackson along the way. They mutter a hello and then Kayden
climbs inside. He never takes his eyes off me as I wander over to
the steps and take a seat on the bottom stair, the light layer of
frost on the cement seeping through the backside of my jeans.
Jackson walks up to me with his hands stuffed into his plaid
hooded jacket. His brown hair hangs over his ears and his
sideburns look like they could use a trim. He rocks back on his
heels, appearing apprehensive as he looks at me.
“Look, Callie, I don’t even know what to say,” he starts. “I
guess… I guess I’m sorry.”
I’m a little shocked by his declaration and my gaze darts to
the ground, my forehead creasing. “You don’t need to be sorry. It’s
not your fault.”
He drops down on the steps and stretches out his legs in
front of him and then crosses his ankles. He smells like cigarette
smoke and booze. I didn’t even know he smoked, but then again, I
don’t really know him, not really. Even when we were kids, we were
kind of competitive, and then when the thing with Caleb happened
any hope of a brotherly-sisterly bond shattered.
“I turned him in,” he finally proclaims. His cheeks suck in as
he inhales and then they puff back out as he releases a breath.
“Thank you,” I say. “But the police won’t do anything. They
really can’t. It’s been too long and it’s basically just his word
against mine.”
He shakes his head and rubs his hand across his stubbly jaw.
“Not for that… I already knew that wouldn’t do any good.” His
hand drops to his lap. “I turned him in for growing pot in his
parents’ basement. I even told the police where he keeps his own
stash.”
I’m stu
“So he’s… so he’s in jail?”
“No, not yet.” He sighs heavily. “When mom told me about…”
He clears his throat at the uneasiness of the topic. “About what
happened to you, I was at a party with him. As soon as I
confronted him, he totally fucking bailed on me before I could