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Nolan got the girl to come around, and she began

crying. Ramirez went over and tried to calm her down;

he got her name, and we learned that she was, as we’d

already suspected, from Senjaray, the town on the other

side of the mountains from which we operated. We had

conventional radio, but even that had been fried, and

Hume suspected that some kind of pulse or radio wave

had been used to disrupt our electronics.

We hiked over the mountain, keeping close guard on

the prisoners and taking turns carrying the girl. We

eventually reached our HMMW V, which we’d hidden in

a canyon. The radio onboard the Hummer still worked,

so we called back to Forward Operating Base Eisen-

hower and had them send out another Hummer to

bridge the eleven-kilometer gap. We set up a perimeter

and waited.

“You know, this place makes China look good,” said

Jenkins, who lay on his stomach across from me, his nor-

mally hard and determined expression now long with

exhaustion. “Those were the good old days. That was a

straight-up mission. Pretty good intel. And good sup-

port from higher. That’s all I ask.”

“I don’t know, Bo, I think those days are gone,” I

said. “No matter how good we think our intel is, we can

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wind up like this. And I know it’s discouraging. But I’ll

do what I can to find out what happened.”

“Thanks.”

No matter how careful we’d been in leaving our FOB,

no matter how secretive we’d kept the mission, all it took

was one observer to radio ahead to Zahed that we were

coming. We’d taken all the precautions. Or at least we’d

thought we had.

And at that moment, I was begi

about our “find, fix, and finish the enemy” mantra. I

still wasn’t buying into the whole COIN ideology (let’s

help the locals and turn them into spies) because I fig-

ured they’d always turn on us no matter how many

canals we built. But I wondered how we were supposed

to gather actionable intelligence without help from the

inside—without members of the Taliban itself turning

on each other . . . because in the end, everyone knew we

Americans weren’t staying forever, so all parties were

trying to exploit us before we left.

The second truck arrived, and we loaded everyone on

board and took off for the drive across the desert. My

hackles rose as I imagined the Taliban peering at us from

the mountains behind. My thoughts were already leap-

ing ahead to solve the security breach and tech issues.

Treehorn, who was at the wheel, began having a con-

versation with himself, offering congratulations for his

fine marksmanship. After a few minutes of that, I inter-

rupted him. “All right, good shooting. Is that what you

want to hear?”

“Hell, Captain, it’s something. I got the feeling this

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whole op will go round and round, and we won’t get off

the roller coaster till higher tells us.”

I considered myself an optimist, the never-say-quit

guy. I’d been taught that from the begi

been a team sergeant on an operation in the Philippines

and lost nearly my entire ODA unit. My best friend

flipped out. But even then, I never quit. Never allowed

myself to get discouraged because the setbacks weren’t

failures—they were battle scars that made me stronger. I

had such a scar on my chest, and it used to remind me

that there was a larger purpose to my life and that quit-

ting and becoming depressed was too selfish. I’d be let-

ting everyone down. I had to go on.



If you join the military for yourself, then you’re setting

yourself up for failure. Ke

you can do for your country. I’ve seen many guys join

“for college” or “to see the world” or “to learn a trade.”

Their hearts are not in it, and they never achieve what

they could. Perhaps I’m too biased, but in the begi

there was an ideal, an image of America that I kept in my

head, and it reminded me of why I was there.

Kristen Fitzgerald, standing among acres of lush

farmland, her strawberry-blond hair tugged by the wind.

She smiles at me, even says, “This is why.”

Pretty cliché, huh? Makes it sound like I do it all for a

girl. But she represented that ideal. A high school sweet-

heart who told me she’d always wait, that she was like

me, that we were not born to live ordinary lives.

My ideal was not some jingoistic military recruiting

commercial or some glamorous Hollywood version of

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war. I didn’t join because I wanted to “get some.” I

wanted to protect my country and help people. That

made me feel good, made me feel worth something.

And as the years went on, and I got promoted and was

told how good I was, I decided to share what I knew. I

loved teaching at the John F. Ke

Center at Fort Bragg. I couldn’t think of a more reward-

ing part of my military career.

In fact, that was where I met Captain Simon Harruck,

who’d been a fellow trainer despite his youth and who was

now commander of Delta Company, 1st Battalion—120

soldiers charged with providing security for Senjaray and

conducting counterinsurgency operations.

I knew that when we got back, Harruck would try

to cheer me up. He was indeed ten years my junior,

and when I looked at him, oh, how I saw myself back in

those days.

But as we both knew, the ’Stan was unforgiving, with

its oppressive heat and sand that got into everything,

even your soul. I threw my head back on the seat and

trusted Treehorn to take us home, headlights out,

guided by his night-vision goggles.

By the time we arrived at the FOB, Harruck was

already standing outside the small Quonset hut that

housed the company’s offices, and the expression on his

face was sympathetic. “Well, we got three we can talk to,

right?”

I returned a sour look and marched past him, into

the hut.

THREE

The three prisoners were taken to a holding room. The

CIA was sending a chopper down to transfer them to

FOB Chapman in Khost, where some big shot from

Kabul would come in to interrogate them. FOB Chap-

man was the CIA outpost where seven agents were killed

years ago. I knew this time the bad guys would be strip-

searched, x-rayed, and then have their every orifice and

cavity probed.

Didn’t matter, though. I didn’t think they knew

much. Zahed wasn’t fool enough to allow underlings to

know his plans or whereabouts.

The girl was taken to our small hospital, and we

could only speculate on what would happen to her after

that. She was damaged goods, a disgrace and dishonor

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to her family, and they would, I knew, not want her

back. A terrible thing, to be sure. She might be trans-

ported to one of the local orphanages and/or assisted by