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can do is hide behind sarcasm and belligerence.

Blaisdell, who’s shaking her head at me now, showed

up three hours late with some bullshit excuse about a

deposition ru

my little kitchen table so we can talk about saving my

life. She gave me a look. She’s a major with the JAG

corps, probably about my age, thirty-six or so, with rect-

angular glasses that suggest bitch rather than scholar. I

hate her.

Now she lifts her chin and grimaces. “Is that you?”

“What do you mean?”

“That smell . . .”

I scratch at my beard, rake fingers through my crew

cut. All right, I hadn’t bathed in a couple of days, either,

and I’d been growing the beard for the past month.

“You want to wait while I take a shower?”

“Look, Captain, I’m doing this as a favor to Brown’s

sister, but you can hire your own attorney.”

I shake my head. “Before I shipped back home,

Brown told me about some of the other cases you did,

maybe a little similar to mine.”

She sighs deeply. “Not similar. Not as many witnesses.

Some reasonable doubt—the chance that maybe it was

just an accident. Everything I’ve read in your case says

this was hardly an accident.”

“No, it certainly wasn’t.”

“And you understand that you could lose everything

and spend the rest of your life in Leavenworth?”

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I stare back at her, unflinching. “You want a drink? I

mean as in alcohol . . .”

“No. And you shouldn’t have one, either. Because if

you want me to help you, I need to know everything.

The narrative they gave me is their point of view. I need

yours.”

“You don’t even know what unit I work for. They

won’t tell you. They just say D Company, First Battalion,

Fifth Special Forces Group. You ever hear of the Ghosts?”

“No.”

“I didn’t think so. They want plausible deniability.

Well, they got it, all right, and now I’m the fall guy.”

“You’re not the fall guy. From what I read, no one

forced you to do anything.”

I lower my voice. “I went to a briefing. They showed

me a PowerPoint slide of the situation over there. It was

supposed to illustrate the complexity of our mission.

Somebody said the graph looked like a bowl of spaghetti,

and guys were laughing. But you know what I was

thinking? Nothing. I didn’t care.”

“Why’s that?”

“They gave me a mission, and I tried to put on the

blinders. I went in, and I got the job done. Usually I

never give a crap about the politics. I don’t feed the

machine. I am the machine. But this . . . this wasn’t a

mission. This isn’t a war. It’s an illusion of understand-

ing and control. They think they can color-code it, but

they have no idea what’s going on out there. You need to

stand in the dirt, look around, and realize that it’s

just . . . I don’t even know what the hell it is . . .”

CO MB AT O P S

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She purses her lips. And now she’s looking at me like

I’m a stereotypical burned-out warrior with a new drink-

ing problem and personal hygiene challenges. Screw her.

“You don’t care what I think, do you?” I ask.

“I’m here to defend you.”

I take a deep breath. “That sounds like an inconve-

nience.”

“Captain, I know where this is coming from, and I’ve

seen it before. You’re angry and upset, but you’d best

not forget that I’m all you’ve got right now.”

“I’ll ask you again, do you think I’m guilty?”

She dismisses my question with a wave. “Start at the



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her fancy leather tote bag and produces a small tablet

computer with attached camera that she places on the

table. The camera automatically pivots toward me.

I make a face at the lens, then rise and head toward

the kitchen counter, where my bottle of cheap scotch

awaits. I pour myself a glass and return to the table.

She’s scowling at me and checks her smartphone.

“Oh, I’m sorry if you don’t have the time for this,” I

say, then sip my drink.

“Captain . . .”

“You got any kids?”

She rolls her eyes. “We’re not here to talk about me.”

“I’m just asking you a question.”

“As a matter of fact, I do.”

I grin slightly. “How many?”

“I have two daughters.”

“You don’t know how lucky you are.”

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“Can we get on with this now? I assume you know

about attorney-client privilege? Anything you share

about the mission will remain classified, compartmen-

talized, and confidential, of course.”

I finish my scotch, exhale through the burn, then

narrow my gaze. “Well, I’ll tell you one thing: I am not

a murderer.”

ONE

My target’s name was Mullah Mohammed Zahed, the

Taliban commander in the Zhari district just outside

the city of Kandahar in southern Afghanistan. His home-

town, Sangsar, was located in a rural area along the

Arghandab River. The Russians call that place “the heart

of darkness.”

Zhari and its small towns were and still are a crucial

gateway region to Kandahar and also a staging area for

Taliban activity. Commanders often told us that if we

could take Zhari, we’d control Kandahar. I’ve been in

the military long enough to understand the disparity

between wishful thinking and the will of a dedicated

and ruthless insurgency.

But again, we didn’t care about the politics or the

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past or even superstitious Russians. I took my eight-man

team to “the ’Stan,” as we call it, and invested in two

days of recon using our airborne drones complemented

by a local guy feeding us intel from a handful of his

eight thousand neighbors. We picked up enough to jus-

tify a raid on a mud-brick compound we believed was

Zahed’s command post.

“Ghost Lead, this is Ramirez. Jenkins and I are in

position, over.”

“Roger that, buddy,” I responded. “Just hold till the

others check in.”

I had positioned myself in the foothills, shielded by an

outcropping so I could survey the maze of dust-caked

structures through my Cross-Com. The combination

monocle-earpiece fed me data from my teammates as

well as from the drone and the satellite uplinks. The tar-

geting computer could identify friend or foe on the bat-

tlefield, and at that moment, red outlines were appearing

all over the grid like taillights in a traffic jam.

Prior to our operation, General Keating, commander

of United States Special Operations Command (USSO-

COM) in Tampa, Florida—the big kahuna for grunts like

me—had been talking a lot about COIN, or counterin-

surgency operations. Keating had expressed his concern

that Special Forces in the area might’ve already

exhausted their usefulness because the Army’s new phi-

losophy was to protect the people and provide them

with security and government services rather than ven-