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On Thursday the school principal called again. Eve told him she wasn’t coming back.
Joe looked genuinely worried. “Maybe a therapist can help you get a handle on this, honey. Do you want me to make some calls?”
You’d like that, wouldn’t you, Joe?
A day earlier Eve, listening in on the phone extension on her nightstand, had overheard Joe telling Ken they had to put the project on hold. “My wife isn’t well. I’m sure you understand.”
Her mother came every day. “Tell me what’s wrong, Evie,” Ruth implored, stroking Eve’s cheek.
Eve couldn’t tell her about Joe. Her mother wouldn’t believe her. No one would. She had found no proof, not in any of his papers or on his BlackBerry, which she’d accessed on Sunday while he was out buying groceries.
One morning, the nightmare fresh in her mind, Eve realized she’d underestimated Joe.
“You can’t imagine the hell I’ve been through, Eve was so crazy.”
“No one blames you, Joey, everyone knows she was suicidal.”
Joe wanted her dead.
He would inherit the house they’d fallen in love with and bought with Eve’s money. Oh, he would pretend to be heartbroken, and after a decent period of mourning he would remarry—“He was so lonely, poor Joe, he deserves happiness after what he’s gone through.”
Joe’s wife—the brown-haired woman or someone else, who knew how many women he had in his life?—would live in Eve’s house and sleep in Eve’s bed. She would luxuriate under water streaming from the rainforest showerhead in Eve’s marble-tiled shower and relax in the tub, letting the Jacuzzi jets massage her body. She would see the backyard bloom with flowers Eve would never have picked. She would lie in a hammock and rock a baby that wasn’t Eve’s.
Eve cried.
JOE AND HERmother drove Eve to her internist in the Third Street Towers in the city.
“Her vitals are fine, except for her blood pressure, which is a little high,” Dr. Geller said, addressing only her mother and Joe, as if Eve weren’t in the room or couldn’t hear. “She’s lost over ten pounds and she’s withdrawn, almost nonverbal. I suggest you consult with a psychiatrist.”
Eve had lost weight because she couldn’t be sure if Joe had tampered with the food he coaxed down her throat. Eve thought, wasn’t it ironic that she was thi
Her mother said, “Evie, why don’t you stay with us for a few days? I can take care of you until you feel better.”
Eve wanted to say, Yes, please, yes, God, yes. She longed to lie in the safety of her bed in her old room, where she could sleep without fear of the nightmare or noises, or Joe.
But Eve couldn’t leave the house, and she couldn’t see a psychiatrist. A psychiatrist would listen while Eve talked about the voices she heard and the thing she felt pressing against her. A psychiatrist would nod while Eve told him that Joe was behind the voices, behind everything: strange marks on the mortar, popping nails, scratches on the floors, light switches that were no longer working, cracks that were spreading like vines on the Ke
Eve would be committed.
Joe would have the house.
EVE KNEW HERparents were desperate when they brought a rabbi to the house late one Sunday morning. His name, Ruth told Eve, was Rabbi Ben-Amichai. The rabbi was a mekubal—a holy man, a master of Jewish mysticism—who lived in Jerusalem and was visiting Los Angeles. Eve’s father, Frank, had met the rabbi that morning at shuland had asked for his help.
“First the rabbi wants to check the mezuzahs,” Ruth said.
“But they’re all new.”
A week before they’d moved into the house, Eve and Joe, following Orthodox tradition, had bought eight rolled parchments, inscribed by hand with verses from the Torah in Hebrew. One mezuzahfor every doorway in the house.
“Rabbi Ben-Amichai says even if they’re new, a letter may be missing, or part of a letter, or there may be some other imperfection. If something’s wrong with a mezuzah, Eve, it won’t protect you.”
Eve stayed in bed. She pictured the rabbi hunched over the small table in the breakfast nook where the lighting was best, inspecting the mezuzahsJoe and her father were removing, one by one, from the doorposts.
An hour later her mother returned. The rabbi had pronounced the mezuzahsfine.
Eve had known they were fine. The problem wasn’t mezuzahs. The problem was Joe.
“The rabbi wants to talk to you,” Ruth said.
“Why?”
“He’s a wise man, Evie. Maybe he can help.”
“Can he stop my dreams, Mom? Can he stop the voices?” Can he stop Joe?
“Eve, get up. Now.Get up, put on a robe.”
Ruth’s tone, knife sharp, sliced through Eve’s lethargy. Eve struggled out of bed. Her mother helped her into her robe and slippers. She found a scarf and tied it around Eve’s matted hair, unwashed for days.
“Perfect,” Ruth said with hollow cheer.
With her hand under Eve’s elbow, she escorted a wobbly Eve into the breakfast nook. Her father was there, and Joe.
The rabbi was old and stooped, with a long silky white beard and white hair covered by a black velvet yarmulke. His face had a thousand wrinkles.
“Sit, sit.” In a deep, unwavering voice the rabbi ordered everyone else from the room.
Eve sat opposite him and tried to place his accent. Yemenite? Definitely Sephardic. His eyes were the eyes of a young man, the dark brown of molten chocolate.
“Your husband tells me you have been hearing voices,” the rabbi said. “When did they start?”
Eve had expected skepticism or pity, but the rabbi sounded genuinely interested. “The first night we moved into the house, I heard scratching sounds. I think an animal made them. Then I started hearing the voices.”
“What do the voices sound like?”
Eve described the whooshing sound. “They tell me to leave. I’m not crazy,” she said with some defiance. “Did my husband tell you I’m crazy?”
The rabbi shook his head. “Your husband loves you very much. He is worried about you.”
Eve’s smile was thin. “He told you that, too?”
The rabbi studied her. “You don’t believe your husband loves you?”
Eve lowered her eyes under the intensity of his piercing gaze. “I don’t know what to believe.”
The rabbi nodded. “These voices that you hear in your bedroom, Mrs. Stollman. Do you hear them anywhere else?”
She shook her head.
“You also have bad dreams, yes?”
“Every night.”
“Tell me about the dreams.”
Eve started talking. The rabbi closed his eyes, and she thought, Great, the old man fell asleep, but the moment she stopped, he said, “Please, continue.”
When she had finished, the rabbi was silent for a while. Then he said, “I can see why you are so troubled. But something else is bothering you.”
“My husband didn’t tell you?” The sarcasm had slipped out. Eve flushed with embarrassment, but she wasn’t really sorry.
The rabbi’s smile was a gentle reproof. “I would very much like to hear this from you.”
So Eve told him about the cracks in the walls, the broken light switches, the scratches on the floors, the recurring strange markings in the shower.
“Who do you think is doing this?” the rabbi asked.
Did she dare? “My husband,” Eve whispered. “He wants to make me think I’m crazy. He wants—he wants the house. He doesn’t love me.” She hadn’t meant to cry, but tears streamed down her face.
“And you know this from your dreams?”
Eve felt silly.
The rabbi said, “Your husband loves you deeply. This I know to be true.”
“How? How can you know?”
“I know.”
“You dothink I’m crazy,” Eve said. Maybe she was.
The rabbi pushed himself up from the chair with a sudden movement that startled her. “Come.”