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‘Did you also read that in your book?’
‘No, that wisdom’s homemade.’
I let my hands fall, surrendering in the face of the evidence.
‘All right. Yes, I admit that I do feel a vague sense of anxiety.’
‘You’re the one who’s being vague. You’re scared stiff. Admit it.’
‘Don’t get things out of proportion. Let’s say that I have some reservations concerning my publisher, which, given my experience, is understandable. As far as I know, Corelli is a perfect gentleman and our professional relationship will be fruitful and positive for both parties.’
‘That’s why your stomach rumbles every time his name crops up.’
I sighed. I had no arguments left.
‘What can I say, Isabella?’
‘That you’re not going to work for him any more.’
‘I can’t do that.’
‘And why not? Can’t you just give him back his money and send him packing?’
‘It’s not that simple.’
‘Why not? Have you got yourself into trouble?’
‘I think so.’
‘What sort of trouble?’
‘That’s what I’m trying to find out. In any case, I’m the only one to blame, so I must be the one to solve it. It’s nothing that should worry you.’
Isabella looked at me, resigned for the time being but not convinced.
‘You really are a hopeless person. Did you know that?’
‘I’m getting used to the idea.’
‘If you want me to stay, the rules here must change.’
‘I’m all ears.’
‘No more enlightened despotism. From now on, this house is a democracy.’
‘Liberty, equality and fraternity.’
‘Watch it where fraternity is concerned. But no more ordering around, and no more little Mr Rochester numbers.’
‘Whatever you say, Miss Eyre.’
‘And don’t get your hopes up, because I’m not going to marry you even if you go blind.’
I put out my hand to seal our pact. She shook it with some hesitation and then gave me a hug. I let myself be wrapped in her arms and leaned my face on her hair. Her touch was full of peace and welcome, the life light of a seventeen-year-old girl, and I wanted to believe that it resembled the embrace my mother had never had time to give me.
‘Friends?’ I whispered.
‘Till death us do part.’
22
The new regulations of the Isabellian reign came into effect at nine o’clock the following morning, when my assistant turned up in the kitchen and informed me how things were going to be from then on.
‘I’ve been thinking that you need a routine in your life. Otherwise you get sidetracked and act in a dissolute ma
‘Where did you get that expression from?’
‘From one of your books. Dis-so-lute. It sounds good.’
‘And it’s great for rhymes.’
‘Don’t change the subject.’
During the day we would both work on our respective manuscripts. We would have di
I raised my cup of coffee and we toasted my unconditional surrender.
In just a couple of days I had given myself over to the peace and tranquillity of the vassal. Isabella awoke slowly, and by the time she emerged from her room, her eyes half-closed, wearing a pair of my slippers that were much too big for her, I had the breakfast ready, with coffee and the morning paper, a different one each day.
Routine is the housekeeper of inspiration. Only forty-eight hours after the establishment of the new regime, I discovered that I was begi
The text flowed, brilliant, electric. It read like a legend, a mythological saga about miracles and hardships, peopled with characters and scenes that were knotted around a prophecy of hope for the race. The narrative prepared the way for the arrival of a warrior saviour who would liberate the nation of all pain and injustice in order to give it back the pride and glory that had been snatched away by its enemies – foes who had conspired since time immemorial against the people, whoever that people might be. The mechanics of the plot were impeccable and would work equally well for any creed, race or tribe. Flags, gods and proclamations were the jokers in a pack that always dealt the same cards. Given the nature of the work, I had chosen one of the most complex and difficult techniques to apply to any literary text: the apparent absence of technique. The language resounded plain and simple, the voice was honest and clean, a consciousness that did not narrate, but simply revealed. Sometimes I would stop to reread what I’d written and, overcome with blind vanity, I’d feel that the mechanism I was setting up worked with perfect precision. I realised that for the first time in a long while I had spent whole hours without thinking about Cristina or Pedro Vidal. Life, I told myself, was improving. Perhaps for that very reason, because it seemed that at last I was going to get out of the predicament into which I’d fallen, I did what I’ve always done when I’ve got myself back on the rails: I ruined it all.
One morning, after breakfast, I do
‘Are you not writing today?’ she asked without looking up.
‘I’m having a day off for meditation.’
I noticed the set of pen nibs and the ink pot decorated with muses next to her notebook.
‘I thought you considered it kitsch,’ I said.
‘I do, but I’m a seventeen-year-old girl and I have every right in the world to like kitsch things. It’s like you with your cigars.’
The smell of eau de cologne reached her and she looked at me questioningly. When she saw that I’d dressed to go out she frowned.
‘You’re off to do some more detective work?’ she asked.
‘A bit.’
‘Don’t you need a bodyguard? A Doctor Watson? Someone with a little common sense?’
‘Don’t learn how to find excuses for not writing before you learn how to write. That’s a privilege of professionals and you have to earn it.’
‘I think that if I’m your assistant, that should cover everything.’
I smiled meekly.
‘Actually, there is something I wanted to ask you. No, don’t worry. It’s to do with Sempere. I’ve heard that he’s hard up and that the bookshop is at risk.’
‘That can’t be true.’
‘Unfortunately it is, but it’s all right because we’re not going to allow matters to get any worse.’
‘Señor Sempere is very proud and he’s not going to let you… You’ve already tried, haven’t you?’
I nodded.
‘That’s why I thought we need to be a little shrewder, and resort to something more cu
‘Your speciality.’
I ignored her disapproving tone. ‘This is what I’ve pla