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He went striding down the corridor, and his mind was busy sorting out the doubts, but even as he sorted he knew there was no room for doubts. Whatever doubt might rise, he knew that he was right. But the rightness was an intellectual rightness and the doubt emotional.
He admitted to himself that it all boiled down to a single factor: He did not want to flee from Fishhook. He liked being here; he liked the work he did; he didn’t want to leave.
But he had fought that out with himself many months ago. He’d reached decision then. When the time came, he would go. No matter how much he might want to stay, he’d drop everything and run.
For Godfrey Stone had known and in his desperate fleeing he had taken out the time to make one desperate call — not a call for help, but a cry of warning.
“Shep,” he had said, sobbing out the words as if he had been ru
And then the receiver had crashed down and that was all there was.
Blaine remembered how he’d stood there, with the phone still in his fist.
“Yes, Godfrey,” he had said into the silence at the other end. “Yes, Godfrey, I’ll remember. Thank you and good luck.”
And there’d not been word again. He had never heard from Godfrey Stone again.
If you ever should turn alien, Godfrey Stone had said. And now he had turned alien, for he could feel the alie
Fishhook would know that he was alien. There was no way to stop them knowing. They’d know when they processed the tapes. Then they’d have him in and turn a peeper on him — for while the tapes might say that he was alien, they could not tell in what ma
He reached the elevator and was punching at the button when a door just down the hall came open.
“Oh, Shep, I see it’s you,” said the man standing in the door. “I heard you going down the hall. I wondered who it was.”
Blaine swung around. “I just got back,” he said.
“Why don’t you come in for a while?” Kirby Rand invited. “I was getting ready to open up a bottle.”
There was no time to hesitate, Blaine knew. He either went in and had a drink or two or he gave a curt refusal. And if there were a curt refusal, Rand would become suspicious. For suspicion was Rand’s business. He was section chief of Fishhook security.
“Thanks,” said Blaine, as unruffled as he could. “For a short one only. There’s a girl. I shouldn’t keep her waiting.”
And that, he told himself, would block any well-intentioned invitation to take him out to di
He heard the elevator coming up, but he walked away from it. There was nothing he could do. It was a dirty break, but there was no help for it.
As he walked through the door, Rand thumped him on the shoulder in round good fellowship.
“Good trip?” he asked.
“Not a bit of trouble.”
“How far out?”
“About five thousand.”
Rand wagged his head. “I guess that’s a foolish one to ask,” he said. “They all are far out now. We’ve just about finished off all the near-by ones. Another hundred years from now, we’ll be going out ten thousand.”
“It makes no difference,” Blaine told him. “Once you get going, you are there. Distance seems to be no factor. Maybe when we get way out we may pick up a lag. Halfway across the galaxy. But I doubt it even then.”
“The theoretical boys think not,” said Rand.
He walked across the office to the massive desk and picked up the bottle that was standing there. He broke the seal and spun the cap.
“You know, Shep,” he said, “this is a fantastic business we are in. We tend to take it in our stride and it becomes at times a bit humdrum to us. But the fantasy is there.”
“Just because it came so late to us,” said Blaine. “Just because we passed up the ability so long. It was in us all the time and we never used it. Because it wasn’t practical. Because it was fantastic. Because we couldn’t quite believe it. The ancients grabbed the edge of it, but they didn’t understand it. They thought that it was magic.”
“That’s what a lot of folks still think,” said Rand.
He rustled up two glasses and got ice out of the wall refrigerator. He poured out generous helpings.
“Drink up,” he said, handing Blaine a glass.
Rand lowered himself into the chair behind the desk.
“Sit down,” he said to Blaine. “You aren’t in that much of a rush. And you lose something in the drinking when you stay standing up.”
Blaine sat down.
Rand put his feet up on the desk, settled back in comfort.
No more than twenty minutes left!
And sitting there, with the glass clutched in his hand, in that second of silence before Rand should speak again, it seemed to Blaine once more that he could hear the throbbing of the huge thing that was Fishhook, as if it were one great sentient being lying here against the nighttime mother earth of northern Mexico, as if it had heart and lungs and many throbbing veins and it was this throbbing which he heard.
Across the desk Rand crinkled his face into a gracious mask of geniality.
“You guys have all the fun,” he said. “I sometimes envy you.”
“It’s a job,” Blaine told him carelessly.
“You went out five thousand years today. You got something out of it.”
“I suppose there was some satisfaction,” Blaine admitted. “The intellectual thrill of knowing where you were. Actually, it was better than the usual run. I think I rustled up some life.”
“Tell me,” said Rand.
“Not a thing to tell. I found this thing when time was ru
Rand shook his head. “I’m afraid that’s out,” he said.
“You should give us some discretion,” Blaine insisted. “The time limit should not be so arbitrary. You keep a man out the total length of time — the entire thirty hours — when there is no earthly reason for him staying on. Then you yank him back when he’s on the very verge of something.”
Rand gri
“Don’t tell me you can’t do it,” said Blaine. “Don’t pretend that it’s impossible. Fishhook has cords of scientists, stacked up in solid rows—”
“Oh, I suppose it’s possible,” Rand told him. “We just like to keep control.”
“Afraid of someone staying?”
“That’s possible,” said Rand.
“What for?” demanded Blaine. “You’re not a man out there. You’re nothing but a human mind caged in a smart machine.”
“We like it as it is,” said Rand. “After all, you guys are valuable. We must take safety measures. What if you got into a jam five thousand years from home? What if something happened and you were unable to exercise control? We would lose you then. But this way it’s automatic. When we send you out, we know you’re coming back.”
“You value us too highly,” Blaine told him dryly.
“Not at all,” said Rand. “Do you realize how much we have invested in you? Do you realize how many men we sift through before we find one that we can use? One who is both a telepath and a rather special kind of teleporter, one who has the mental balance to stand up to the impact of some of the things he finds out there, and, finally, one who is capable of loyalty to Fishhook.”
“You buy the loyalty,” said Blaine. “There is no one of us who ever claimed he was underpaid.”